Your addiction is not only hurting you,
But its hurting me too.
You say you're only going to have a few,
But you don't know what thats going to do.
It drives me insane,
and your to blame.

So don't say that no one came
to your rescue
because I was always there for you.

I can't do it anymore.
You're laying on the floor.
Now i'm walking out the door.

I'm sorry
but don't you worry
i'll always have something more.

After all this time,

you still haven’t left my mind

I still spend every moment wondering if you’re thinking of me too.

After all this time

I still torture myself thinking that you’ll call or maybe text

and I just stare at my phone for hours.

After all this time

I know I shouldn’t. but I still love you

and I’m still yours.

no offense mom but i don’t want to exist anymore
i want to disappear into the sky
thanks for raising me
but the world is turning on me.

i'm going up there,
the big magical cloud castle that is somewhere
between the stars in the sky.
i'll be with you and thats where i belong.

we will be up upon the world so high
sparking like diamonds in the sky.
i'm leaving you and this is goodbye.

Why can't I be happy?
Is it because i don't know what i want?
I don't know if i want to be alone or in a crowd.
I don't know if i want to be in quite or where it is loud.  

Is it because i don't know where i want to be?
I don't know if i want to be with you or with someone new.
I don't know if i want to be in a club or in a church pew.

Is it because i don't know what it is like to be me?
I don't know what i like, who i want, or where i would like to be.

So, how can i be happy if i don't know myself?
Or even have thoughts of ending myself?

I assume that i cannot be happy.
Maybe this is me.

I only smoke at night because,
in the daytime i can see what i'm doing to myself.

Memories of you and i
burn into my mind
like a wild fire,
leaving my brain scorched
and covered in thick dark ash.

Seeing you
turns my eyes into a river
after the rain,
over flowing and flooding the plains.

You ripped my heart
into microscopic pieces
like it was paper,
you did it so effortlessly.

You are gone and whole,
I am here and falling apart.

why can't i ever feel normal?
why can i never feel whole?
why can't i feel normal for once in this worthless life time?

someone help...

I guess i'm not sleeping tonight.
My mind is racing about thoughts of you.
You, ******* you.
What is so ******* great about you?
What attracts me to you?
Is it the way that you don't give a **** about anyone?
or how you put the cigarette between your lips,
and let the smoke fall out?

You're not worth my thoughts.
You've ****** me over way too many times.
You're a ****, a ***, my ******* love.

God I wish I could get you off my mind for good.