The moment after It
all colour drains from the world

I realise I am empty
I was chasing a lie

everything is grey
it was always grey
I was just high on It
because I thought It was a rainbow
It wasn't

existence is suffocating in moments like these

and very soon I'll choose to return to It
that's the sad part

Sometimes you anime scream too much,
and then you taste blood on your tongue.
Your throat tingles,
like the betrayal of kings.

I am lost
in silent echoes without description

I fall throughout
like a rabbit in a hole of subconsciousness

I have the void
no one sees laughing from inside

I am synapses shocks and electric nerve jazz
lullabies so smooth you will never understand

Oh...
Oh how I wish...
I had been a longer chapter in the story of your life.

Possibilities of love I didn't fully take in
Falling memories like stars they fall
Unspoken

And now just...

The empty bed
The scentless sheets

The repetitive nature of loneliness
That same void like a breath of a lover brushing neck hairs
Remember how it sent shivers down spine

I must fall asleep with it next to me
now
in the darkness
alone

Sometimes it just hits you all at once.

Don't be too sweet to others. Sweet things don't age well.


- a ripe old banana