Hacking, spitting,
coughing and blowing
morning duress
caused by smoking
but I'll light up many
when I wake up,
after breakfast,
after a nap,
when on the phone,
out on the town,
after ***
walking around
when I'm upset
or nervous too
when I am anxious
or when I'm blue
Ah, hell
its all the time
two packs a day
to lessen my life
cause they say I'll die
younger than most
sometimes I care
sometimes I dont
so I'll light another
inhale deeply
so I'll just die
a little early

Gentle flowing
passionate
airy
enchantment
masterpieces
splashed
canvas
­emotions
symphonies
toned
souls

on paper
poems
empty spaces
filled

Celestial bells ring in my heart
knowing of a time a'fore
a love so profound, joy abound
a longing to return evermore
spirit thoughts reach out to me
through energy lines above
I hear them almost every day
filling my soul with love
So a love I feel for all mankind
my enemies, my neighbors, and God
an overwhelming happiness
even though the earth I trod
holding hands through it all
when in time of need
call upon your Higher Self
and let your love be free
the past, the present, the future
all tied into one
to reach our goal, our destiny
right where we started from

That Borlaugh
whos my funnybone angel
is really a kick in the pants
He makes sure I am put into situations
with opportunities to laugh
some always wondered when I laughed
why I could'nt stop
its cause Borlaugh would continue the joke
and he just would'nt drop
it
until my physical belly hurt
eyes burned
my spiritual s-elf smiled
with pure joy
He calls me "Peeky" on a different note
cause he says I peek into human souls
so I know
not necessarily all of them
but all of me
you see
bringing the Universal Oneness to light my way
but dont forget to  play
mostly though, hes just lots of fun
not oft to be serious
even when I'm curious
and when that is the case
he'll make me laugh again
then go away
and tell me theres a more serious angel
on the way
to answer my questions

I miss your laughter, your smile
your eyes filled with emotion
the click, the chemistry,
the imagination
I miss your voice so soothing
your hands so soft the touch,
the conversation, the wisdom,
oh all of you so much
A quivering in my soul
that can never be matched
a sparkle in my eyes
and a heart that beats so fast
to make me laugh until I cry
or tears of tenderness
and the love, sweet love
a love truly
endless

I see you from a distance
a shadow in the night
then before I know it
your right by my side
You take me in your arms
profess your love so true
oh yes, oh yes, my darling
it's always been you
You tell me the same
that your love has never died
as we embrace eachother
and tears run down our eyes
Then my lids flutter
your nowhere to be seen
as I painfully discover
it was but a dream

Wheres the escape
oh God, the escape
is there any
without death
without lithium
from the doctor?
It's gonna be alright
you hear, you hear
but what about NOW?
what about now
when your head is all
jumbled
crumled
stumbled
trying to make peace
IT WONT SHUT UP!
it say's a million things
but nothing
then goes comatose
to try and bury it's fire
only to spark again
from nowhere
to everywhere
oh, Alice
where's the rabbit?
he's going so fast with the time
you cant catch him
I guess its
"eat me"
"drink me"
to make it all normal again