me gustaría
estábamos todos contentos
de la misma manera
somos
cuando un hombre se acerca
nos invita a salir.
dice que está dentro de ti.

Pero, creo.
voy a seguir deseando
probablemente
mi vida wntire.
porque tales momentos
Arent significaba
a ser para toda la vida.

son sólo deseos.
deseamos.
y permanecerá
sólo
puro
deseos



(translation)
i wish
we were all happy
the same way
we are
when a guy comes over
asks us out.
says that he is into you.

but,i think.
i'll just keep wishing
probably
my entire life.
because such moments
arent meant
to be for a lifetime.

they're just wishes.
we wish.
and will remain
just
pure
wishes
.

After continuous failures.
You wanna say goodbye to the world.
you just somehow dont see around a savior.
left with zero words.

Unwilling to talk.
talk to none.
maybe not even take a walk.
not even do stuff that  can stun.

Tried of sobbing.
ranting.
screaming.
Aloud.
aloud you howl.

Nobody to listen.
Nobody.
Left with zero listeners.
Too.

every night you talk to yourself.
in the mirror.
what do you see?
just tears.
tears blocking vision.

vision of a better future.
maybe.
future is just an imagination.
unable to see whats coming next.
whats in you?
frustaration.
again.
Zero peace.

That love of your life is just too far away.
far from your reach.
unable to even preach.
preach,what you loved to do.
but you miss him.
but also not.


you have him there,in your mind.
Your heart.
and that band right in your hands.
also you speak to him.
not literally.
as if he's actually listening to you.
you go crazy.

you dont see him all the time.
not even talk to him always.
know he is busy.
you still,do miss him.
wish you could just fill in
the gaps between the two of you.
Here it is.
again.
Zero Company.

thats how it goes.....

Well,this is going to happen.
probably,most of the time.
but there's also nothing.
absolutely zero .

I'm a girl.
probably my biggest sin.
but how am i responsible for it?
sometimes parents just dont seem to get that a girl needs to have things done her own way as well.
not that the teachings and prohibitions work.maybe they could just softly tell.

alas! they dont.
they just wont.
wont ever understand.
why?
because they are experienced.
Seriously?
*******.

How much we suffer,when they out of anger spill out the words they actually had inside them.?
"Would've been better if you die" "cant tolerate mishaps" "never ever try doing this" " our Respect comes first" and stuff
What about me?
when i am the one who is the reason behind insult.
am i also not the one being insulted?
or is it just the parents.all the time?
NO.
Just not.
but who'd ever listen?
nobody.
even friends wont.

friends wont always hear you crib.not always.they'd probably drop out.
or in one way or another, rant themselves and wont listen.
so left with just?
ourselves.our lonely souls.the fate that *****.unlucky us.

thats what happens.
happens to me.
all the time.
maybe you too.
but who cares?
Nobody.
you get grounded for every minute stuff that goes wrong.
harsh words.
we face.
harsh meanings.
we imbibe.
harsh feelings.
we succumb.
harsh parents.
WE accept.
but us?will anybody please listen.
please listen to me?
I have nobody to actually talk to.

tears run down with the speed of a train.
you tryna not to.
showing how strong you're.
making yourself believe you can.
you can fight.
surely can.


after a minute.
You go . Inside the washroom.
or probably its your pillows you wet.
scream like crazy
that why you?
why did god gave such an unfortunate blessing.
parents like them?
Nobody answers.
still.
except the vicious,devils inside you.
screaming out loud
"DIE is the solution"
but no.you're strong enough to say yourself that NO.
I've something more to do.



Tell him?
too embarrassed.
to confess.
on how your folks treat you bad.
they say they love you.
but.they are actually doing everything that any other parent'd have done.
nothing too great.
but who'll listen?
NONE.

talk to myself.
ignore my folks.
act crazy.
act like you're dumb.
listen more.
any which way you try to opt.
you suffer.
only you.maybe many like you.
But who can? listen to...
All of us?
All our hurt?
All our pain?
NONE