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Poem: They Called Me Crazy
_"I talked like a lawyer"_ they said.
_"You speak more than a lawyer, you should be an Attorney, since you know it all" _
They said, and laughed.
And on my back
They said I'm crazy.
And laughed some more.
And it hurt bad.
So I stopped talking to the fake friends
And with lots of people I knew;
I decided to be cold and shy.
I withdrew into myself,
my books,
and my old keyboard that I never learned to play.
I would not say a word to anyone,
if I did not feel like it,
even when they spoke my name.
I gave them, crazy shit....
Then some co-workers and the so called friends
were supposedly hurt, that I was ignoring them.
But I could not talk,
my mouth and jaw
were just shut tight,
so I wouldn't cry....
I hated being bullied
By the ones I once liked.
But I wrote, and wrote, and wrote.
To detach myself from all.
I even wrote him once a note.
A poem it was;
huge mistake.
They, the "fake ones"
didn't let me live that!
The days passed,
the months passed.
And work grew gruesome.
Friends grew scarce.
My life became a closed door
locked behind.
_"She is not so smart."_
_"She is an elitist, smart ass."_
_"Ha! A day dreamer she is!"
_"The Ice Queen, who is to good to talk!"_
Some, old friends, said on my back.
_"With so much perfume, she must smell bad"_
_"She is Fat!"_
_"The biggest ass I've seen."_
_"Hell. I'd "tap" that!"_
Like I was some piece of meat
or a fly painted on the wall....
(Darn cubicles, with fluorescent lights.)
I just wanted to cry and hide.
I could've talked back,
But I grew tired of defending myself.
Instead, I became quiet and shy.
They said, _"Oh, she's just a crazy bitch."_
_" You literally have to slap her once to make her talk,
and twice to make her shut up."_
And they all would laugh.
Even He, my once best friend, laughed on my back!.
It sure hurt. I was popular once....
He even called me stalker, lier,
and gave me his back...
But I took everything with a "grain of salt"
(Whoever made that frase, I don't know, but it just stuck with me. It made my life easier)
So I looked onto the "fakes" faces and smiled,
Like some Cheshire Cat.
I had a secret they didn't have.
I acted as if I knew something
they didn't know.
In a way I did.
I knew I was much better person than them.
That bullies always loose in the end.
So one day,
when everyone needed me the most.
I took my office box, shut off the florescent lights
from my small office and took off.
Not even a note.
I did wrote a book.
I made a blog.
I freed myself from those fake friends.
And I showed to him
that I didn't cared
If he liked me or not, because I wasn't crazy
or his stalker, nor his friend anymore.
And then, just as I thought, he was mine....