This wretchedness unbearable is
I used to think that I was His
But now it often seems to me
That he has gone and let me be

I didn't want him to be gone
I was to his love always drawn
But now He's left me, I am here
Waiting to see what's drawing near

My future is dim, blurry, and dark
My mind catches fire with this one little spark
He left me because I have no will
To drive away sin that eats at me still

I feel so abandoned, lonely, alone
With dreading fear I crouch and moan
The horrors of this world are so, so tall
I feel so minuscule, so small

But then a light in darkness black
Lights up the world, nothing I lack
To see the things that troubled me
I find myself down on one knee

The weight of all I thought was lost
I find is here, but at a cost
My Savior, yes, he died for me
And how could I not see?

Things now become so clear
I wish I'd always been right here
For here I know I needn't hide
He'll never, ever leave my side.

This pounding silence in my head
The comfort slicing in my soul
The mindless beat keeps pulsing time
Glowing inside, my inner coal

Dead to the core, but moving still
It is my nemesis
I’ll push onward until I find
The answer to this

Inside my mind, you would get lost
The pines and rivers are covered in smog
Something lures you closer, though
This journey’s turned into slog

I drag my feet when I think of how
It chokes me though I know it not
If I don’t think and let it go
It’ll consume my very heart

Who am I anymore, I really do not know
If you ever find me, bring me back
Take the strings of my shattered heart
I know in the end it isn’t black

There may be hope for you, dear
If you don’t let them take you
So when you hear the siren’s call
That’s when the tide pulls through

I’m here watching, just to say
‘I told you so’ as soon as you fall
I wish I had the strength to fight
But they’re taking my strength, my all

If it isn’t too much to ask, I’d beg
Stay away from me
The longer you watch and soak it in
The harder you’ll have at forgetting.

There’s a spiral in the universe
Where things go ‘round and ‘round
Everything is caught up in
The race to reach the ground

Some call it entropy
And others call it life
I prefer to call it knowing
You’re falling on a knife

All the ostentatious ones
Who stand out from the crowd
To become known for heinous deeds
Their voices brash and loud

Others lay in quiet dark
Waiting just to strike
Leaping unexpected, then
Relieving them of life

Some live innocently enough
Though more ignorant than good
They know not that their days are wasted
And drowning if they could.

Diving deep into the blue
There’s shadows enough for all
Take the cue from the setting sun
Hide when the curtain falls

No one lives inside these waters
Where nothing stirs or wakes
Your soul will never worry
When your life it slyly takes

Sink into the depression
That the boulder made in sand
Where once lay masked intruders
That stole the life you planned

Your mind has less to wonder
When you let your life be taken
Led helpless to the slaughter
When will your cold heart waken?

It’s easier to float beneath
The water lukewarm and bland
If you learned what you’re missing
You’d fly onto dry land

But lying here is easy
It’s effortless, it’s true
So why not stay a couple days
In the thoughtless ocean blue.

You’re dizzy, lightheaded
Did you wonder where it was from?
Your eyes still sting, they’re blurry
Did you think you couldn’t close them?

Not sure if tears or screaming
Caused this pain so true
You’re breathing fast and falling past
Just hoping something catches you

You’re tempted and tried to just let go
It’s pulling at your grip
Not sure if the broken glass is a sign
That if you walk you’ll trip

Oh, but don’t you know
Don’t you remember?
There’s someone out there waiting
He’s been keeping you together.

Not quite sure what’s happening
But now I see more clearly
Can’t tell where things are going
Are we there?  Nearly.

Sometimes fires burn my hands
Sometimes the smoke burns my eyes
Whenever I fall in the red sands
I look up to the open skies

Tired of crawling for the end
I’m standing straight and tall
When the wounds are on the mend
We’ll find we’ve been strong through it all

How far will this winding path go?
How long will the battle push?
All I remember is, I don’t know,
But still we lead the rush.

Not quite sure how close we’ll get
Not quite sure how far we’ve come
But if we continue we will find yet
He gave us the strength to run.

The world and its evil disgusted me
The dust of the earth and the grime
Acceptance of dirt and love of filth
The creatures complacent in slime

I searched for a higher existence
When I saw the ignorance around
I found there was nothing within me
They all faded without a sound

Living one moment, dead the next
This life seemed meaningless to me
But as soon as I thought I had no hope
I saw the Man on the tree

Surely the most gruesome sight of all
He hung nailed on a cross
But in his eyes I saw a gleam
That saw this as gain, not loss

Suddenly the whole earth trembled
As the man gave up his last breath
The moon rose red and sky went black
As his soul went into death

What hope could he have, this man
Who hung in agony to die?
Who could he possibly be?
What could his black death buy?

Three days I spent in thought
And in contemplation walked
Too confused to eat or sleep
So perplexed I never talked

But on the morning third
A woman ran past me and cried
I followed her as she ran to a grave
And told me, “He’s alive!”

The stone was rolled back,
The grave was bare
And the wrappings from the man’s body
All were there

I began to see that the man on the cross
Had known he would soon rise
And who but the Son of God
Has hope to live when He dies?

He must know my dilemma, for sure
I must now find this Man
For if He can rise up from the dead
He could change worlds with His hand

Amidst the fallen stone green-grown
And through the crumbling arch,
The sunken mere of yesteryear
Has mirrored this scene in March

The sky meeting land in glory grand
Sparks fly where heaven meets earth;
The sea rolls in from where it’s been
And ships rise from their berth

The pearl of the moon rises soon
Lifted in the bowl of the sky;
Its size greater, every crater
Gleams brightly, the heavenly eye

Forgotten, as a rule, mirrored in the pool
The largest moon earth will see
The castle yard by cent’ries scarred
Lies the only witness to the scene.

When the rain falls down
And it falls on you
When you have no chance for cover;
When the rain streams down
Dropping on your face
When you’re alone and with no other;

When you feel as though
It came for you
Seeking to bring you sorrow;
You may not see
The truth today
But wait until tomorrow:

Because the rain falls
On everyone
No one is untouched by the drops;
If you hide inside,
You’ll miss the chance
To see where the rainstorm stops.

Where the sky meets the earth
And horizons meet,
That’s where you’ll find me now;
Where the stars rain down
In a glittering scene
And the eye scarcely wonders how

I’m holding onto
The only One
Who knows the rainstormy weather—
If you follow Him
And come with me
We can brave this storm together.

What can I say
That has not been said?
What words do I have
But those in my head?

How could I phrase
When words can’t be found?
How could I know
Miscomprehension profound?

What do I wait for?
Where do I go?
Who do I search for?
How should I know?

So do what you do,
Just say what you mean;
There’re words you owe me
Somewhere I’ve never seen.