we control our daily medicine
we dose ourselves

we open windows
only to jump out of
but never to look back

the storm has taken the pain away
but the storm will not last long enough

I want to search your cavities
I want to wash you free of your sins

I want to deconstruct you
I want to break you down
so let me inside of you

This is what you asked for
I will tell you what you want

Scars as gateways into my plastic heart
worn and beating out of time

When will you realize that you are out of time?

How does it feel to have reality dismantled
Even if it is subjective
It hurts

My emotions are flat
My head is open now more than ever

I love you so ******* much

Artistic imitation will get you everywhere in life

When you've been in enough hospitals
You realize how important it is to abuse the catalyst

Time for an attraction
Time for a spectacle
Watch me cut myself open
to drown the sorrows out

My angel
It comes to me on broken wings
And it says to me
"They're here"

Why would I bow, for the sake of sadness?
What do you think this is?
Who do you really think I am?

He dosed himself accordingly
and there he stayed
no choice of his own
voids of safety and fragments of past

I'd make myself into a mannequin if I could
I would remove my flesh
I would cut my arms off
I would tear into my thighs
I would rip myself apart

for the sake of entertainment,
not art.

Drink more
Think less
We're conditioned into doing our best

Make money but never profit

Brass buttons
To fasten a cape made of everything false
To cloak me in feigned serenity through the night
To sing me to sleep
and turn me into someone like you

I can never stop crying although I want to rebuild my body

I am going to die
I don't know
I think I am going to die
I think I need to die

My owners taught me some new words today
Ones that won't allow me to kneel and pray
or take my medicine and pray

They let me out today
but not too far