put on a show
everyone is watching now
I feel their stares tickle down my legs

smile in vain
looking at him
quick to respond
I've never felt this fond but I'm over the moon now

all these bad sounds
I hear your stare the loudest

how many days have I loved you

how many hours can I forget you

not long

I sleep
you appear
in the corner of my mind

I wake up
you appear
on the corner of my bed

how many times will I convince myself you'll stay

why don't we talk together
why can't we walk together
why can't we love together

how many lips have you kissed
that aren't mine

we spin in circles
a hundred times

bring me the poisoned fruit
I'll fall from the sky

take me to a place
I can look into your eyes

speak out my brain
I carry my heavy shame
I don't want you to think about me

you look pretty when you're happy
and I love it more when you're angry

how many hands have touched your skin

we circle around eachother

I can't reach the center

I'm sad

the pain never ends for you and I

I miss you
I'll miss you forever

I miss the people I can't have
I miss the temporary places
all these fading feelings

miss my emotions
miss all the burnt pages
don't hurt me

forever
coming down
to haunt me

miss loving you
miss loving myself too

silent star

smile for the liars

gun to my head
I was told to swallow down my emotions

crying for all the robots who will never love me back

I am the dying sun
I am nothing and everyone loves me

I write sequels
skipping the introductions

I've lived
a million lifetimes

with a melting curiosity
what is life

I lost myself
when
I loved you

jumped into a black hole
to love you more

everything hurts

I hope no one finds out

everyone wants to be the moon
touch the stars
and kiss the sun

everyone is secretly sad
that sad gleam in their eyes
confusion covers it all

I don't want the moon
I don't want the sunrise

I want my broken heart fixed
I want the voices to quiet down

trying my hardest
everyone looks away
dealing away
with their mess

to busy helping ourselves
we don't look at eachother

you taught me
nothing lasts forever

so
young
and
hopeful