I cannot decide
though many times I've tried
is it more frustrating
this stupid one way hungering
to love a specific man
to have had him in your hand
and now he's gone away
and you wait for the day
when he will return
and you forget about the burn
or is it worse
does it feel more like a curse
to hunt and hunt and see
each new face could it be he
each time you're given eyes
is he the one to end your tries
no I cannot decide
though many times I've tried
if more strength is required
or which makes you more tired
to wait and wait and hope and hope
to try to believe and cling to that rope
or to search and look and try out the new
and hope that you'll find your one love true?
waiting and hoping
or searching and groping
looking for love is a frustrating thing
it's best to just stop, and see what God brings

I thought i'd drown in sufferings
but you lifted me up and gave me wings
when I was broke, you gave me work
when I thought I needed a man
you gave me a ****
so I would know to rely fully on you
that nothing else would certainly do
you fill up your life with a good job and more
you've got it together, controlled to the core
then off like a hurricane everything's gone
you're left to wonder why it all went wrong
you had the house, the man, the career
you had the respect of all of your peers
now you're alone, afraid, and flat broke
all that you had just went up in smoke
it says right there on that green paper
"In God We Trust" 'cause it can vanish like vapor
when you come kneel at the foot of the throne
that's the moment when you know you have won
the battle you've been in was not for the money
stashing cash for rainy days while it's sunny
you've been at war for your very soul
having it all together was never the goal
now nothing is left that you thought that you need
but all of that was only driven by greed
now you have everything and so much more
and you can feel it right down to your very core
and once you have given it all up for God
then He gives it all back to you, isn't that odd?
He knows the plans that He has for you
plans to prosper not harm, to His word He'll be true.

Thankful little hopeful day
it started with a dream of you
I know that God hears when I pray
I wish that you would know that too
open your heart and let him in
He just wants to help you through
if you let go of all that sin
then you will see that this is true
love is pure and love is right
true love wants what's best for you
so just let go and stop the fight
good things you'll find are more than few
if life would flash before your eyes
then you'd make choices differently
then you could skip those failing tries
because you'd see all so clearly
now what if someone loved you so
that they even died for you
and He only wants to help you grow
into the person that is truly you
when you finally understand
that love is selfless, helpful, kind
then you will be a better man
and realize that you do not mind
all of your desires deep
the ones that you don't tell a soul
God will give you, yours to keep
He will help you reach that goal

Don't think so hard if it's this or it's that
does this thing make me look to thin or too fat
if I take one Major and ignore the rest
if I end up failing just one stupid test

do I look much better with short hair or long
I'm just so stressed out, 'cause what if I'm wrong?!
the left or the right how do I pick a side?
will I end up lonely or will I be a bride?

If I pick one job and I hate what I do
is that worse than never even having a clue?
I'll have space that is mine if I'm buying a home
but what if I'm stuck and I need to just roam?

every decision we make can decide our whole fate
but if we don't choose soon, then it will be too late
decisions decisions I just do not know
do I have to make one? Or just go with the flow?

but you'll end up with nothing if you don't try hard
but I just don't know what I'm working toward
do I want the hubby, kids and that life?
am I really cut out to be somebody's wife?

or am I a free spirit who needs to run wild
who can't be tied down by a man or a child
what will happen in life if I never choose?
if I just ignore it will I certainly loose?

if you have been reading and it's stressing you out
if you're in this too, don't cry and don't pout
there is an answer to all of this stress
it's so very simple, that you'll never guess

and you will try and complicate things
as you chase after money or engagement rings
if you let go of stress and just listen with care
to these answers I give you, these things that I share

the reason that you can't decide what to do
is not because there is something wrong with you
its because you're afraid and you're letting it drive
but if you want to like the place that you arrive

Then you have to let go 'cause you're not in control
you think that you are, but you don't even know
we hold on so tight and we fight and we cry
then scream up at God and cast blame and ask why

"I'm trying to help you, but you won't let go!
you don't even know what you want, but I know
I'm trying to give you the desires of your heart
but you have to let me, yes that is your part

Fear not I am with you, no I will not leave
I only have gifts of love up my sleeve
so hold out your hands and give me your fears
and I will give you hope to replace all those tears

Now sit up straight and just choose one path
don't think about probability or statistical math
just follow your heart to wherever it leads
don't worry about if you end up in the weeds

just keep on going and do not ever quit
don't rely on yourself, your charm or your wit
just trust and believe in Me I will provide
so, take My hand, and lets go for a ride."

Bitter feelings tears are falling
But you have to listen to that calling
When you leave the one you love
because you felt lead from above
sometimes He will take and hide you
when you don't know just what to do
the easy life is not the one
a heavy heart can weigh a ton
God will always make a way
if you will just get down and pray
when you find that all you're chasing
with the time that you've been wasting
didn't turn out how you hoped for
and left you always wanting more
you were looking in wrong places
putting hope in pretty faces
security isn't money in the bank
and you forget it's God to thank
when you feel safe because you're married
and you don't realize you've been carried
the perfect house with the big yard
you forget again to thank the Lord
Emptiness is always haunting
every day starts to seem daunting
Fix your eyes on what's ahead
that Jesus rose up from the dead
if you will just put hope in him
and let go of all the dragging sin
impossible becomes obsolete
then life starts to be really sweet

roaring engines with wind in my hair
so happy that I'm sitting next to you there
driving the boat just as fast as you can
tattooed arms, you're such a **** man
grin on my face that matches my heart
you couldn't even tell that we are apart
giant barracudas in the glittering sea
first time we've done something fun, you and me
the sea plants were waving as we passed them by
you swim so fast it's like you can fly
we scouted and searched through fishes galore
because what we're looking for was something more
we finally came up to that peaceful place
a statue of Jesus with his upturned face
He lifts up his hands from the watery deep
Praying to the Father, our hearts to keep
My hope is in Him because it's not in you
you did flirt with me today, though, that is true
but if I were to leave our love in your future plan
then all would be lost because you're just a man
He may have been sunk at the bottom of the sea
and you've been on a pedestal that was put there by me
but He is the one that gave us this day
this day that was filled with fun, hope, and play
so I'm taking you down from that stand that you're on
I think you'll be happier beside me, now that it's gone.

Hope is something you do when all is going wrong
if everything was going right, there would be no reason
hope is a word written in many a song
it comes and goes, it's as changing as the seasons

some days are happy and you just think it will stay
other days are sad and you wonder how it will ever work
on those days, get on your knees and pray
then you'll laugh at the devil with a nice little smirk

you have to take care of a glimmer of hope
if there is just one smoldering piece of it left
don't sit around and let yourself mope
or it will disappear as unexpectedly as theft

hold that hope in the palm of your hand
offer it to God to see what He can do with it
even if you can't see a way, that's ok, He can
so be patient and wait and quietly sit

we all want to do something and don't want to wait
but that might be exactly what is called for
so while you wait get rid of things like fear and hate
so the answers can come, because you're ready for more

God wants to bless you and answer all your prayers
but you have to believe and you have to let Him be
upon Him you can cast all of those cares
He will help you, and only He can set you free

Exactly as He promised is how everything will go
if you don't understand love, then you really should try
that is what He wants and what He's trying to show
He doesn't like it when you're sad He doesn't want to see you cry

He wants you to be joyful, and free and full of HOPE!
everything you wish that you were getting from that lover
attention, affection, respect, trying to find support to cope
He can give you all of these things better than any other

but I just want a boyfriend or a girl to cuddle up to
and I just want a place to live, to pay my bills, and have a home
well He can give you all of that too because He really knows you
and you won't have to search and wander always on the roam

so settled down and trust and wait and you are going to see
that everything your heart desires if you love and trust the Lord
will come to you in ways "impossible" for you and me
and not only those you thought but even so much more!

Victory is the word of the brand new year
Where I have sworn no more crying, no tears
things will happen, I've seen when you pray
when you let God mold you like you are His clay
I tried slutty and drunken and crying all night
I tried sober, and hard work, and thinking just right
I tried forcing my mind to think the right thoughts
because if you think just right, it will bring you lots
I tried reading every piece of hope I could find
I obsessed and analyzed everything in my mind
Then finally I sat down, and I just let it go
There is no possible way that we can just know
What will happen to us in this life full of pain
Only God can turn it into a life full of gain
I looked up to the Heavens and asked Him to speak
I told Him I couldn't, that I am too weak
He calmed and brought such peace into my heart
He lead me to read His word, just this one part
He faithfully answers our prayers with awesome deeds
it was right there, so plain, He knows all my needs
He told me again and again to believe
and that if I could do that, then I would surely receive
so this is the year that my victory's sure
no more sitting and slouching and acting demure
there is a time for meek and patience and calm
and there's a time to believe and to act very strong
when there's faith in your heart it just comes right out
gives strength to body, lifts your head, ends your pout
last year was painful, I couldn't do it again
God put me through fire to save me from my sin
I don't know what my word of the year was last year
but I know now I like better what I see in the mirror
This year I know, I just feel it deep inside
that victory will come but not because I tried
It will come because God has told me it's so
and He's always faithful to His promises, this I do know.
So He prompted me to tell you all this little story
to inspire you all to your own year of victory

There is war going on that we cannot see
where angels of brilliance are flying above
a raging battle is fought to save you and me
in brilliant armor they clash, bright wings like a dove
Each time you say something kind or you give
every prayer that you offer when you'd rather fight
lends ammo to Heaven so that more may live
tips the scales in favor on darkest of night
you think you don't matter that life just goes on
that all things are determined so do what you want
if there's even a chance that you might be wrong
that when it is the weak and the helpless you taunt
or maybe you think if you're just good or polite
and you'll go to Heaven and that will be all
but He said to make Him you're heart's delight
or you could be left here when He comes to call
Or maybe you think that Heaven is clouds
and all you do there is sit with a harp
when death comes for you in burial shrouds
you think Hell is more suited for the smart and sharp
if you are striving and battling all your life long
to have mansions and money and all that you can
then you are going about it all wrong
God said just believe and that's His gift to man
He promised mansions, and treasures, and pleasures unknown
so what is it here that we want more than that?
all we have to do is plant good and reap what is sown
but we get drunk and diseased and eat till we're fat
so if you have warriors blood and a desire to win
and be tough and awesome, loved and not beat
then why fight with the losing, lending ammo with sin
switch sides to the winning, who's victory's concrete
every choice that you make is helping one side
there's no Switzerland in this battle that's going
so you're making a stand, none along for the ride
pay attention to life and the things that God's showing

He opens His mouth and what you hear
is words that calm your heart of fear
His face his gentle, bright blue eyes
He never tells you pretty lies
He listens when you have something to say
Never gets tired of hearing 'bout your day
He comforts you when you are super sad
and calms you down when you're raging mad
When you're all alone and start to cry
He comes around 'cause He's your guy
When you just can't win and all is lost
Just remember He died on the cross
sometimes a victory's disguised as defeat
But then He rose up again, isn't that neat?
So, if miracles are what you're waiting for
then just be patient and see what's in store
For all those who pray and ask and believe
It's been promised to them, that they will receive
He's not just concerned with our afterlife
He loves and He helps us with all of our strife
So cast all your cares on His big broad back
Especially when your life is all out of whack
Because that is the time when you need Him most
The Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost

Thankfulness for little things
even though you wanted wedding rings
can lead you on to something great
'cause you showed love instead of hate
faithfulness in little things
secrets kept in whisperings
can lead to gaining someone's trust
which in this life is such a must
kindness shared with little things
a drowning bee with soaking wings
can lead to glimmers full of hope
and give you reasons not to mope
if you can be good with all little things
and let go the hurts and fights and stings
then "impossible" miracles could manifest
because even in small, you gave your best

Heaven is a place where there is no time
Where you're never late and there's always wine
Heaven is a place where the jobs don't ****
Where you never have to stick your hands in guck
Heaven is a place where babies don't cry
Where husbands and wives never cheat and lie
Heaven is a place with no disease
Where nobody gets stung by bees
Heaven is place with lots of food
Where it's also ok if you like to be ****
Heaven is a place where we don't get tired
Where we don't have bosses and we won't get fired
Heaven is a place where there is no dust
Where allergy pills are not a must
Heaven is a place where there is no cleaning
Where nothing we do is ever demeaning
Heaven is a place where we don't have to worry
Where there's no loved ones we have to bury
Heaven is a place where animals can talk
Where lions and lambs will together walk
Heaven is a place where we're never cold
Where our human bodies won't grow old
Heaven is a place where there is no trash
Where we won't have to sell junk to make more cash
Heaven is a place where we're never weak
Where no one is ever afraid to speak
Heaven is a place where hearts don't break
Where we don't have to feel that consuming ache
Heaven is a place where we're never alone
Where everyone here has found a home
Heaven is a place where there is no fear
Where you're truly alive, 'cause He's always near