Is that he
Had been an only child
Until our sister
Came along

Who hasn't drunkenly complained to the guy at the liquor store about their abysmal romantic prospects?

Hey, V.

Okay, girl. What are we doin'?

We're waiting.

For what? Not that little blonde kid!

No, not him.

Then for what?!

Calm down. You've got me.

Yeah, I guess...



I don't like him, ya know...

I know.

He said I was beautiful-

I know.

-and then he just-

Would you shut the **** up?!

Christ, sorry!

Ugh, it's not you. It's-

Him.

Yeah.

Forget him! Let's find a hot stranger!

No.

Girl.

I know.

He doesn't want you OR me.





You just gonna ignore me now?

Tryin'.

*****, face it. He was just another excitable boy who got caught up. None of them will stay, and if they do, it won't work. Not like you want it to. I miss the old you who understood that. Why do you have to do this to me?


Whatever. I'll be here when you wake the **** up.

Yeah, I know.

Rhapsodizing at
The end of my allotted
Four hours of sleep
Finally, my exhaustion
Gives way to
A strange,
Happy,
Manic Phase

I love that you
Are moved by
My sadness,
The tension
That spirals
Into madness,
Free entertainment
For my little
Audience

Are my tears
Pretty
When they fall
From my face
In the dim light?

Are my fears
Disturbing
When they spill
From my lips
Like an angry
River?

Am I
Somehow
More attractive
For my tragedy?

I can be
Your dangerous
Distant nightmare
If you promise
To fetishize it
From time to time

During my endless
Crashing
Maddening dances
With pain
And exuberance
Will be
A light show
That lasts
Half the day

Nonsense!
My relationship with
My Father
Alcohol
My Mother
My husband
My Boyfriend
And Myself...

They don't really
Matter.

But ask away!

I'll answer
H O N E S T L Y

I had a short interaction with a stranger, and I wanted to stay alive for them. It's over now, and I want to die again.

And the flies tickle my skin
As the last glimmer of hope
Drops from a stationary eyelid

She is dead.
She is dead?
She is dead!

No one to save her
Not now
When it matters
She is dead...

Take them with you,
The parts of her
That you loved

You know that feeling
When you suddenly
Lose all of your light
And energy
And breath
And h o p e
And m o t i v a t i o n?

**** this
*******
I need a drink
I need ****
I need THE SWEET MERCIFUL ANGEL OF DEATH TO FINALLY CALL ME FORTH
LIKE I KNOW I HAVE TO BE PATIENT AND MY TIME WILL COME
BUT LIKE
*******