Today I almost cried because I’m missing him my body yearns to be touched by him my mind long for the mental stimulation that only he gives
my soul must believe that we will be connected again cause I’m starting to see him in my dreams as if it’s ment to be .....
I attempted to write a poem and share with someone other than u the words wouldn’t form for me This is extremely out of the norm
I keep lying to myself like I’m not affected by this
my heart must know something I don’t which is???

All I know is it’s rare to have this feeling
your love is infinitely appealing
got my mind bent and turned gone... high above my cream colored ceiling
desireble desirable dreams about your stimulating ****** healing
night after night we’ll play under the covers biting moaning talking **** squealing
sorry I didn’t mean to be so blunt forceful sexually revealing

Now that I know it’s truly over, finally.... done
I’ll share every last poem paged in my diary, all except for....one

I hope the stars align when our free spirits meet again next life time....
continuous dreams and nightmares of holding u in my arms again one last time
but this time things will be different cause I’ll be meeting you on that frontline
and for the first and the last time it would be you that I see when I wake Reyes of  sunshine
your smile is poisonous acid and alkaline
6ft tall pink lips sweet as candy and wine

anxiety super high
I wanna call **** that
tired of fighting a brick wall
I fell for that smile on a black man over 6ft tall
u would have thought because he is older
he wouldn’t act so ******* bipolar
I was ready to carry his weight on my shoulder
but every time we talked I felt the conversations
growing colder
I shoulda threw his number in the trash that very day last October

I usually capture his mind but tonight I want to ****** his mind body and soul
soul snatching I know like the back of my hand  I want to stare into the glistening pierced part of his eyes moan softly then whisper beat this ***** up...

~ art is never truly finished.... not scared to share anymore let this book open up~ release therapy

so I called now what.... it’s been a week since I last spoke with you! I know I can be pretty mean especially u... to think the connection was real is a understatement! I hate to let people in my head... weird chick! yesterday’s problems should never effect today’s communication... I’m big on that I hate to let **** linger... I shoulda called the next day but I’m Not gonna keep compromising with u.... so if I don’t hear from u by the end of today, miscommunication would have set our fate! I read between the stars so I’d hate to give up... but your so cold the slickest ******* I know “The Greedy One” so I know it’s through cause I’m not gonna hear from you