twirling and dancing in the room
following you to end up in your arms
but i can not compete with him or her
sadly i am just slow dancing in the dark



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singing in the shower, dancing in my room
being outgoing by myself and shy around you
to be outside and not be myself, i dull my own voice
when people ignore me cause they think i have no thoughts



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your voice is nagging me as i sleep
bringing in problems that i don't care about
telling me i don't listen and don't talk enough
i raise my voice to say you're the problem but i stop



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your voice is so calming and dull
monotone words that stagnant the air
but your presence doesn’t socially exhaust me
i need to stop and not get used to you my dear friend.



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as the light shivers in the cold
your eyes betray your burning desire
need to drift away from the stream of conscience
now you only seem to only really care about yourself



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struggling to fill my collapsed lungs
i will suffocate and choke on the coal ash
darkness eclipses all of these unknown uncertainties
of me slowly fading, letting beauty melt away into ink



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i remember all the days you left me outside
stranded on the doorstep dripping alcohol and sweat
bunched up clothes in my hand wanting for some comfort
open up and nuzzle me against your body as I’m not breathing.



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sitting at an empty seat in an empty row
aisles away from you, ignoring your hellos
trying to satisfy your own needs by checking up on me
i feel bad that i’m wasting your time so i turned away crying.



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menial days come and linger forever
buses drive splashing water on our raincoats
you walked down into the tunnel saying never again
no sense in idling around but my chest compresses as you go.



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friends conversing around us with lifelines
their phones hiding their discomfort and anxiety
tapping your shoulder, beaming up at you so friendly
the whole time your talking i drone out your voice with music.



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scrunched up face, your complaining that i’m talking
behind my back pointed fingers and whispers brand me
excluded by our social pacts, now i’m alone in the cafeteria
you came crying for forgiveness, all i did was stare blankly at you.



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trailing the sun on breaking sidewalks
purposely stepping on cracks, you walk with me
but like everyone around here you don’t talk to me
i’ll live long enough so you don’t end up killing yourself.



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