darling, there will be days when our cheeks are slicked wet from the rainstorms within our hearts, when i will be rendered unable to disengage from the safety of my blankets, when i will ask for you to hold me until i no longer feel as if i am breaking. there will be nights when i smoke countless cigarettes until my throat is ragged & it is easier not to speak, when i will not allow myself to eat because i believe i do not deserve it, when i will call long after you have fallen to sleep, desperately seeking your voice through the static because i am afraid i will forget the way it resonates in my eardrums.
but even this certain pain, my love, my own one, will make us better. you will see me destroyed & vulnerable, flawed with need. we will strip each other bare to our truest of selves & fall in love with that sheer beauty beneath. i give you my undying adoration, the ever-present reaching of my arms, my boundless, uncontained love.
you are the spark of stars illuminating my night sky, you are coursing with urgency through my bloodstream, you are everywhere & our time is now. i will love you fragile. i will love you strong.
oh darling, i will kiss your fingertips each & every night before together we dream.