There once was a girl
A girl who loved everyone but herself
Her smile outshone the sun itself
And her laughter drowned out the birds
But one day
The sun stood alone
And the birds had no competition
The girl had finally drowned in her hate
And flowers shot up from her grave
They muffled the birds and filtered the sun
And the girl was finally loved

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The wind has died
And my heart along with it

The leaves will fall soon
And my head along with them

The flowers will turn brown and brittle
And my spine along with them

Ice will cover the water
And my soul along with it

Because a broken heart
Kills you slowly

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I went outside to look at the stars
I went out, boldly, unafraid
And then I thought
"How nice it would be to kiss you underneath this blanket of stars, this pillow of night holding us up"
And then I realized
You were not there
Suddenly I was aware of the dark and the terrors it held
And I went back inside, alone

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My thoughts always seem to come back to you
And I think
That even if I was stranded in the desert
I'd think of you til I died
Because everything I'd see would remind me of you:
The sand dunes blowing like your hair
The sun shining as bright as your teeth

If I had dehydration
I think that maybe
Water would be the last thing on my mind
Instead i'd be dreaming of your lips
Unattainable like water
And as my body would grow weak,
And I'd fall to my knees
And as my body would die and waste away,
The wind would whistle through my bones,
And I bet if you listened closely,
You could hear your name in them

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It's one AM
And I can't stop thinking
About how much warmer my bed would be
If you were in it with me

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Rip my heart out of my chest
Grind my bones into dust
You need to stay out of my forbidden places
I can't get you out of my head

I remember when I was little,
Reading all those fairy tale love stories
All I ever wanted was a:
Happily Ever After
Knight in Shining Armor
Wedding Heard Across the Land

But instead I have this:
Poems written in my bed
Love letters left undelivered
Smoke in my lungs
Liquor in my stomach
Bile in my throat
And you are nowhere near my lips

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If I could give you the happiness you deserve
I'd do it without hesitation

But
I
Can't

So here I stand
With my heart in my hands
And nothing to show for it all

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I think everything would be better with you
If I missed the bus, I could crawl into your arms
While I wait for everyone to wake up,
We could think and talk and eat
I could make you soup and tea while you put your head on my shoulder

However,
You are conspicuously gone,
And this soup tastes of longing and bitterness

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I want all the cliches with you
I want the kiss underneath the mistletoe,
I want the kiss on New Year's,
I want to give you roses and chocolate on Valentine's Day,
I want to go egg hunting with you,
I want a picnic, ants and all,
I want to sit and watch the stars,
And I want to kiss your nose when it's cold

But even though I won't get it,
I can still dream can't I?
Dreams are all I have left

They're all I have left.

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After the game,
As we walked into the locker room,
I saw the tears running down your face
And I wanted nothing more than to wipe them away
However, I knew that if I did
I'd cup your face and want to kiss you
So I did
Nothing
And continued walking as my heart ripped

I should be used to that by now

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"Memories are stored in our body and tissues"
If this is true, then
Your scent clings like tar in my lungs,
Your touch is the goosebumps on my arms,
Your hugs, the aching in my ribs,
And your kisses, the scratches on my lips,
Imagined, unreal, unfeasible

But my longing for you has overtaken my body
Everything hurts, I swear
My knees pop,
My spine compresses,
And my head grows heavy,
My eyes falling shut, almost sewn

My battered corpse yearns for you
But soon I'll be gone with the wind

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What was once a blazing conflagration in my heart
Then became a cozy hearth fire
And now it seems reduced to embers, begging for life
How do I rekindle these flames?
But more importantly, do I even want to?
You're not mine
You never will be
And though this is the sweetest torture
I don't know if I want to experience it anymore
And so the last of the embers will fade to dark
My heart burned and filled with ash
My tongue scorched,
My throat like sandpaper,
Third degree burns all over my insides

I want to say sorry
But who am I apologizing to?
My heart?
I don't think it wants my apologies anymore

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Yesterday
I said I'd start getting over you
That I couldn't do it anymore
I had
A *******
Plan

Then you smiled at me today
And *******, I blew it

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