You say that you are always there for me.
Then why do I still feel like I’m lost at sea?
I’m so tired of always feeling alone.
Having to fend for me, myself, and on my own.
I see you on our calls but your concentration never stays.
and I miss the times your mind wouldn’t slip away.
What are you thinking about? leaving me all by myself.
These days I’m scared it’s about someone else.

Father, I know you have seen my name on the news.
They’ll never catch me alive, I’d rather die than lose.
Mother, please, don’t cry. To find who I am and not lose my mind;
I had to start over and leave all of y’all behind.
Brother, you’re smart and talented, you’re stubborn too.
That’s what I adored the most about you
Middle sister, I know you’re worried about me but I am fine.
Give my niece a hug from me, I’ll come to visit sometime
Big sister, I know this is what you warned me about, but please try to see
He’s not the bad guy here, he pulled the trigger but the plans were on me.