Did you ever feel
Completely numb
Not caring anymore
About anyone?

Lost in your head
Stuck in your bed
Can’t get up
Won’t go out
What is this all about?

Lack of interest
Loss of self
I’ve been cursed
By the angry elf

I see things
That aren’t there
I can’t see through the purple glare
I don’t know what happened to me
I see spiders, do the spiders see me?

Where is the **** woman
In the white dress
Doesn’t she know I’m a terrible mess?
I need my pills
I’m starting to sweat
I know they forgot me, that’s a safe bet

Here she comes, finally
The woman in white didn’t forget about me

Who is this?
What is my name?
I have no idea, I’ve gone insane

I'm not afraid of anything
life is too short to let fear in
Fear itself is a four letter word
One I won't say, from my lips, it'll never be heard

I'll take my chances
I've got nothing to lose
The world is mine for the taking
Since I put down the *****

So come along for this ride with me
You too can feel this free
Living without fear, sit and relax
It's amazing when you get your life back

I lie here awake
Alone once again
Thinking of you, my lover, my friend

I don't know what will happen
Nor will I question a thing
I'll just sit back and wait
To see what God brings

I know He won't hurt me, this isn't the end
God knows what's best
Better than you or me my friend

I'll roll with the dice
Take a chance one more time
Because you are worth it
I hope someday you'll be mine

I woke up this morning
Too early again
When will I sleep through the night
When, oh when

I got my coffee
I’m on cup three
What the heck is wrong with me

It’s 2:45 am, and here I sit again
Looking at the walls
Wondering about it all

I just want to sleep
For a day or two straight
Forget about everything
That’s piled on my plate

I know it’s a dream
Just a fantasy
Just a couple hours longer
Would set me free

It was no surprise
What happened last night
When I first saw you and gazed into your eyes

The passion’s been there
I was just full of fear
To let myself go
So I want you to know

It’s ok, I understand
We both wanted it badly
Why hold back, and go away sadly

If this is a onetime thing
I can live with that
I’ve lived through worse
I’ll always have my cats

They showed me your picture at twelve weeks old
I wasn’t sure about this “parent” thing, but I was instantly sold

You grew inside me for seven long months
It made me happy, it made me complete
I could feel your body growing, little kicks from your feet

Now I’m in this bed, just waiting for you
I know it’s early but they say they know what to do

I feel the pain of you struggling to get out
I can understand what that’s all about

The doctor came in and said it is time
I’m ready to meet you, I’m ready to shine

They see your head and tell me to push
I do what I’m told, I can’t wait to see your little ****

It seemed like days, I was ready to pass out
And then by some miracle, you came out

I heard the cry, then they whisked you away
To clean you up, that’s what they did say

I waited and waited for them to bring you to me
I was getting restless, but the doctor I did not see

They said they tried everything
There was nothing they could do
Apparently you started turning blue

I just wanted to hold you
Just for one time
They put your body in my arms
Your hands seemed the size of a dime

I sat and rocked you
Until they took you away
I’ll never forget that horrible day

I’ll always love you
My angel up above
Mommy is here
You are my dove

Soaring through the sky
Up high in the clouds
How I love to fly
I feel so **** proud

I can fly upside down
One eye shut
I can swoop down
Pluck that buttercup

It’s so great to be free
It’s so great to be me

I fly all around
Not a care in the world
Fly through the air, annoy the poor squirrels

When it’s time to eat
I go to the special tree
It’s filled with seeds
All different kinds, just for me

How lucky I am
As I rest in my nest
Life is so free
It’s great to be me

I'm sitting here at the bar
Staring at you from afar
Wishing I was there with you
Are you wishing the same thing too?

You and l are both alone
Leaving here to go to an empty home
Let's take a chance
At a one night romance
Tomorrow we can forget we ever had this dance

You see me now and give me that grin
That lets me know you are also in
We both get up, walk to the door
Never taking our eyes off the floor

We get outside
That's when we embrace
I see the lust on your face

"Take me home," I say to you
Even though I know in the morning I'll regret this
and my heart will be once again be blue

Here I lie awake again
I know it's only 2 am
what could be wrong with me
I just want to live and be

Something keeps waking me up
My mind won't stop thinking of you
Ever since our big breakup

Will I ever sleep again?
I can't blame you, it's me my friend
I broke up with you one final time
No getting you back, you're no longer mine

I walk through the forest
Peaceful and serene
Walking on ****** soil
Never touched or seen

Sunlight shines through the tall trees
Shadows fly by in between the breeze
I hear the hum of a flowing stream
What a wonderful sound, it must be a dream

I hear a bird singing, a beautiful melody
He’s nowhere in sight for me to see
I see the squirrel scurrying up the tree
I see him, he doesn’t see me

Signs of other life
Hoof-marks in the ground
My senses are heightened
To any smell, sight or sound

What a lovely place
Sheltered away from society
I pray it will stay this way
Please Lord, let it be

A beautiful white blanket
Covers the ground
Not a soul was outside yet
You couldn't hear a sound

The first snowfall
How majestic are the trees
Painted with pure white
They are so beautiful and bright

Here comes the plows
Salt trucks too
Covering the beautiful painting
With black and some blue

What a shame
Let nature be
At least the didn't salt the trees

She sat quietly in her hotel room
Waiting patiently for him again
Where was he this time?
Could this be the end?

Her long brown hair was perfectly groomed
Yet how was her heart filled with such gloom?

She waits and she waits for a knock n the door
Several hours go by
She falls asleep on the floor

Never a knock, he never showed
Three in the morning, she's lost her glow

She checks her phone
No calls or text
What is she supposed to do next?

She loves him so
How doesn't he know?

Her world is falling apart
No putting back the pieces of her broken heart

She drank the bottle of vintage wine
The ice in the bucket had melted
Her heat bled from inside

She walked to the balcony
How can this be?
A warm summer breeze hits her
How could he do this to me?

She looks down the fifteen flights
As she gulps the wine
Thinking to herself
This is the time

She finishes her last sip
She's feeling very numb
Can she do this
Yes, the time has come

She gets up on the railing
Looking at the pavement far below
Should she jump?
Will he ever know?

Just then came the knock
It was now four am
Could it be him?

She gets down from he rail
Runs to the door
It's the police
Someone called from next door

They said she was seen
Looked like she was about to jump
She felt her throat close, into a huge lump

No words came out
Only tears
The ambulance arrived
Just as she feared

No she's not crazy
He really exists
This wasn't the first time
They took her away to the abyss

The doctors were waiting
Nurses looking sad
Here she comes again
They knew what she had

Her husband died years ago
She couldn't seem to let it go
She waits for him in a psychotic state
Still thinking he's coming, her one and only soul mate

She doesn't understand
And she never will
Her heart is dead
As well as her brain
All she keeps thinking now is "am I insane?"

Another snowy day ahead
A good day to stay in bed

Put on the fireplace
Release the doves
It's a perfect day to fall in love

Wrapped in big fluffy blankets
By the fire
on the floor
Suddenly there is a knock on the door

Should she answer?
She doesn't know what to do
She peaks through the peep hole
And sees that it's you

She opens the door
His arms grab her tight
Oh how she loves
This winter so white