This isn't what I wanted
But this is what I got
I had a chance
And I blew my only shot

It was all me
Didn't known what I had
When he didn't take me back
I had the nerve to be mad

Now he is happy
Engaged right away
I wish I could go back in time
And make it all ok

It's too late now
She's got the ring
I've got nothing
I lost my king

To be in love
To be loved
To cherish another human being more than life itself
To find that special someone
Is it only for the young?
What is young
I thought I'd found love before
The tingly feeling you get
When your heart skips a beat
When all you do is think of that person, hear their voice, picture their face
And life feels complete
Where is such love?
Does it exist or is it a fantasy which will never come true
How many times did I think it was you
But you left
No one wants commitment
Casual affairs are the trend
but I will keep looking for true love, until the end

I sit on the bar stool
In the dimly lit bar
I’m getting buzzed
I can’t see near or far

When did I lose my wit and charm?
I never heard a warning alarm
Drink in hand, shot waiting next
When did I get myself into this mess?

I put the glass to my lips, my only friend
It’s off to the races, here I go again

I’m scared to leave, afraid to stay
Uncertain if I’ll be given another day

I don’t know what’s to become of me
It’s getting harder and harder to see

I’m so **** tired of living this way
I don’t think I can handle this world of gray

I down my drinks, and then another
This life I’m living, I’m starting to smother

I feel myself falling from the stool
I only hear laughing
I pass out like a fool

Blackness is my only friend, maybe this is finally the end

I don't want to know what the future will bring
Live in the day, hear the birds sing

Every day is such a gift
What's inside is a special surprise

Live life rich
We only have today
Treasure every moment
Before it's taken away

Hopefully tomorrow will come
But there are no guarantees
So for today I'm gonna have fun

I felt bad today
Enough to almost throw my life away

In one split second the decision was made
To wait it out, just one more day

I wait for these feelings to go away
I forgot how to be happy, forgot how to play

Today I woke up
Happy with my choice
Glad I didn't listen to my inner voice

I thank the Lord i made it one more day
I know now I can do this,  I'll be ok

I dream of a place
Warm and peaceful
Ocean waves softly hitting the sand
While a warm breeze rolls softly over my body
Just enough to dry away the sweat from the sun’s rays
Which paint my body a golden brown

I open my eyes and I’m there
On a lounge chair watching the aqua-blue ocean
It’s soft, tranquil waves, hitting the pure white sand

What’s real, what’s not?
Am I sleeping or am I awake?
The lines of reality are blurred
Let me live the dream

Is life only for the young?
Are they the only ones who get to have fun?

What about us over forty bunch?
Are we supposed be happy having jello for lunch?

I don't feel old
Yet the box I check does
What do I believe
Should I give up on love?

Who cares about the number
Apparently I do
Or I wouldn't be writing this
How old are you?

When did a mouse become a device?
When did we forget how to change a TV channel without a remote?
When did humanity start moving at such a fast pace
That it seems as if everyone is running a race

I long for the days of playing outside
Riding bikes and pretending to hide
We sat on the front porch
And waited for our friends
We thought those nights would never end

Now we don’t talk
We either text or email
Everyone is inside on their phones, looking very sad and pale

When did we lose our souls, when did we say goodbye
To life as we knew it, I just want to cry
It’ll never be the same
It’s such a **** shame
I’m getting tired of playing this game

I sit here at my desk
I feel like I’m under house arrest
I’m stuck here for hours
Being watched and scorned
This can’t be the reason I was born?
To sit like a mannequin
Typing robotically away
Looking at my life
Fading to grey…

*There has to be a better way

What is left
When there is nothing left
Nothing left to live for
Nothing left to die for

What is left
When you’ve done it all
Got up from every fall
Crossed the ocean
Crossed the desert to
What is there left to do

What is left
When I lie my head down at night
A few new dreams, all full of fright

What is left
Of me, my friend
When it seems I’m at the very end

The sky was angry
The wind howled loudly
The grey clouds swirled round and round
What would come next
No one knew what She would do

Mother Nature was strong and mad
Lots of tears fell, she was feeling sad

Chunks of ice came out of the sky
You could actually see the hurt in her eyes

She threw fire violently to the ground
With a brilliant light show and a load crashing sound

This went on for quite some time
Until the night ended and the sun came out to shine

A rainbow appeared
There was sunshine in sight
The storm was over
She made the new day bright

When I think back to thirty years ago
My memories are black and white with a little grey snow

I see no color when I go back to that time
I know it was a rainbow, it was my time to shine

How I hate this stupid holiday
Who came up with it anyway?
Flowers and candy, cards and jewelry
Shouldn’t it be this way every day?

Hearts and cupids
They make me sick
All those couples
Will they actually stick?

Or are they together for this one special day
Praying for a relationship, hoping the other one stays

So for all of us singles
I only have one thing to say
Have a happy February 14th
***** Valentines Day!