If I end up alone
I’ll be ok
I can’t stay with you
Not one more day

I can’t live with the ghosts
Of your past and dead wife
I’ve tried to understand
But it cuts like a knife

I’ll never rate number one
Not even two
I can’t live with that
So I can’t live with you

Goodbye my love

My lover, my friend
My partner till the end

How long I have waited
For you and I
So many nights
Left alone to cry

We are finally together
Like we were meant to be
I have all of you
You have all of me

I still dream of you
I can't explain why
When I think of us
I just want to cry

You are with her now
Happy as can be
I'm so pleased for you
I just wish it was me

How do I get rid of the pain
My heart screams every day
There is nothing I can do
Nothing  I can say

There is no second chance
I can't get you back
I'll live with my tears
My life's turned to black

I’m always cold
You’re constantly hot

You’re heavy metal
I’m definitely not

I drink strong coffee
You’re doing a shot

I sleep in a bed
You curl up in a cot

All these things
They matter to me not

Yes I love you
Let’s tie the knot

I'm a woman
I'm a mother
I'm faithful
I'm a lover

I believe in romance
Do you want to dance?

Should I continue to believe in love?
Old fashioned romance and singing doves?

As much as I look, it just can’t be found
No one is real, although seeming so profound
They tell you what you want to hear
Whisper sweet nothings in your ear

I don’t believe a thing I hear anymore
They all lie, eyes staring at the floor

Then that first date
And the hands start to wander
I don’t even know you!
You’re not making me fonder

Then there are those
Who pretend to care
They are wonderful when they’re around
But they are hardly ever there

They look you up
When their needs cry loud
Why haven’t I learned?
To stand tall and proud

Being alone is my sentence in life
I feel like my heart has been stabbed with a knife

Love is for others
I wish them well
I’ll be alone
Living in hell

You cheated and left me
Four years ago
You've been crying over this
All the while I've been told

You chose your path
Took the fork in the road
You say you've always loved me
but you've chosen the toad

I finally forgive you
Not for you but for me
I can now cast the memories of you
Deep into the sea

What ever happened to true romance?
Wining and dining, a kiss on the cheek
The dating game, the courtship dance

Those days are gone
At least for me
My dates are like chameleons
Colors change as need be

I still believe in love
Someone else out there must too
I just haven’t found him
Could he be you?

They don’t want what they say
They don’t say want they want
They play their games
They’re dating savants

I’m looking for love, could I be the only one?
Butterflies and goosebumps
And thousands of hugs

If true love exists, please let me know
I’m running out of faith
Should I just let the dream go?

I can’t erase my past
It’s with me to the grave
I can’t expect everyone to understand me
To my past I am a slave

They look at me as an addict
The addict from my past
Not strong and recovering
They don’t bother to ask

I’ve been told to be proud
All I feel is shame
I feel judged everyday
No one to blame
  
They see the person I was, or could be again
Nobody gets me
I cannot blame them

How do I fit in this world?
I’m a square peg in the round hole
Trying to be true to myself
Trying to find my role

I could be that person again
It would be easier to give up and give in
What would that prove?
Who would win?

Rejection comes often
I can hear what they say
I could let it **** me
But I think not for today

I’m an addict
Nice to meet you

When I think of your lips on mine, I quiver
When I think of your touch, I’m on fire
When I think of your voice, I melt
When I think of how much I love you, I cry
When I think of you with her, I want to ****

Then I wake up
Praying it was a dream
And realize you are gone

The tape replays when I lay my head on my pillow
It is never a dream
But a nightmare

Thorns replace the feathers in my pillow
Reminding me forever…
Of you

I look at the sculptures in the sky
The beautiful white creations
Against the deep blue sky
With just a hint of red
As the sun sets over the ocean

I wish I could fly
Jump from cloud to cloud
Light as a feather I’d be
Not a care in the world
Until the dark comes
I’d close my eyes
And dream of the light
And the beauty of the sky

Oh, how I wish I could fly

Should I give up on life?
What’s my reason to live?
I know in my heart I have so much to give

I have so much going for me
So I’ve been told
But all I feel is used up and old

Too many things against me
One, two, three
Addiction
No Car
Cannot drive for years
Who would want me, who could handle my tears

I’m doing my time
For my sins and my crime
But who can see through
To the woman inside

It doesn’t seem worth it
To wake up every day
But there is no way out
I’m doomed to stay

Responsibilities hang over me
Penance to pay
For mistakes in the past
Memories that will never fade away