There was a time
When I was young
I believed in love
In blissful fun

I still had hope
In happily ever after
Then what happened
Turned my life to disaster

It all began when I fell in love
Young and naive is what I was
I had no idea what would lie ahead
Once I gave you my heart, climbed into your bed

Just a child inside
A women's body only to be seen
I didn't understand love
I wanted to scream

I kept my mouth shut
The romance was done
I realized that night
He was not the one

Where was I to go now
I was prisoner to him
He had all the control
He sold me in sin

I'll never be the same
My youth taken away
I'm no longer pure
I can't escape, I must stay

I give up on love
Life is no longer mine
I'm forever his prisoner
Please be gentle, be kind

If you love someone
You never want to let them go
If you love someone
You’re not afraid to let it show
If you love someone
You’ll cherish the day you both met
If you love someone
You’ll never let them forget
If that someone loves you
Don’t let them go
Be true from your heart
Or they may never know

I deserve, I demand

Respect
Honesty
Love
Compassion
Forgiveness

If you can't do these simple things for me
You have no place in my life or my heart

I have high standards
And no time for *******

I'm worth it

Peace

Does he love me
Does he not
His actions say yes
His words say yes
But how can I believe what I’ve seen and heard before
Empty words and actions leaving me crying on the floor

Always an obstacle in the way
Wait for this, wait for that
In time, please wait, coming soon is the day

Well this and that has happened
Now am I expected to forget?
Believe that you love me, like you said when we first met?

Forget the lonely waiting moments?
Wondering where you were
If you loved me or not, what you were doing with her?

You dangled the carrot for so long
I don’t know if the damage can be undone

I’m sober now
And she is dead
Of course you want to crawl into my bed

I want more, and so I deserve
I’ve told you this, have you not heard?

No commitment from you still
I’m single and free
If you wait much longer
You will never be with me

The beach is my special place
Where all my troubles disappear
From my toes to the depths of my heart
All the bad turns to dust in the air

I see the waves wash up on the sand
Gaze for miles without seeing land
It’s amazing the beauty and power of the sea
I watch and marvel as peace flows over me

I sat on the bridge
For days it seemed
Pondering each and every
Lost and broken dream

Do I jump?
Into the water below
I can’t think of a reason
Not to do so

What’s left for me here?
I can’t think of a thing
I step off the bridge
I can hear the birds sing

As I hit the cold water
I don’t want to die
I’m completely wet
You cannot see me cry

My last thought is
What have I done?
No matter how load I scream
There is no one to come

I hate to admit it
But it’s plain to see
There is no future
For you and me

You dangled the carrot
And waited I did
For lost broken promises
When I should have ran and hid

Years have been wasted
Waiting for you
Now here I am
What do I do?

I hope you are happy
With your couch and TV
I’m starting over today
So please let me be

Tears fall like raindrops
Flowing lightly to the floor
My eyes are blurry
My body is sore

I’ve been through the fire
I’ve been through the flames
Never untouched
Never the same

The scars are well hidden
As well as the tears
I’ve sick of this pain
The hurt and the fear

I’m tired of running
Through the hot scolding flames
Please take me away
Before I go insane

I wake up each day
With sadness in my eyes
Sun peeking through the curtains
It’s my time to rise

Getting out of bed is as much as I can do
Tears flowing down my cheek over losing you

I keep going on
With a smile on my face
Wanting no part of this human race

Without you in my world
There is no reason to live
Besides grief and depression
I have nothing to give

Years go by
People come and go
Just like the seasons
The sun and the snow

They touch your heart
Some good some bad
Some leave you happy
Some leave you sad

Each person counts
Remembered or not
They were in your life for reason
Nothing happened for naught

What a horrible mistake, the choice that I made
I know it now, but didn’t on that day
I let you go, not once but twice
I took the bait and rolled the dice

I thought it was him
How wrong could I be?
All I can think of now is you and me

He told me he loved me
We’d be as one
Memories of our past
Kept me holding on

I made the choice
It was him
Now my future looks nothing but grim

You’re now with her
Two hearts as one
Engaged to be married
Where do I run?

Here I stand questioning life
Questioning choices I’ve made
Could I have been your wife?

I’m getting to old to fall in love again
I don’t believe I can ever find Zen

So here I sit
Questioning my entire life
My head is filled with nothing but strife

Where do I go from here?
I’m done holding on
I’m all alone, and he is long gone

Love is too painful
I’m full of regret
You’ll always be in my heart
I wish we never met