There was a time 
when I held you in my arms
when I caressed your forehead 
as you slowly fell asleep
in my arms,
humming along with me
an old lullaby.

There were these magical moments
sometimes late at night 
when I rested beside you
for long quiet hours 
just watching you sleep.

I felt as if I was your guardian angel
a mother wolf,
your dream catcher.... 
And there were times 
when I helped you would walk,
eat, or wash your hair
And let you bath
all by yourself.
 
And then I heard you say 
your first amazing little words!
Food to my soul.
Mama! mom!
You melted my heart.
I knew you were mine.
A piece of my soul!

There were the times
when I was sad
And I held you very very close
to my heart
and to my pounding chest
while I carried you in my arms
And hummed you lullabies.
 
And as you grew
There were many times
when we laughed together, 
played games together,
and sang silly songs
and danced.
You too loved to sing....

And these little precious
simple moments to me
in times
when I talked and gave you an advise
and you listened;
When you talked wisely
And smart for you young age
and I proudly listened.

And I was there for you,
and you, tiny piece of my heart,
were there for me too,
catching my back...
and we were just like two young friends
Instead of mother and children.
And I felt proud of myself
And very cool.

But there were these times
when I was no longer there for you.
When worries about money,
Marriage problems, work,
or just plain selfishness
came in the way
before me and before you.
Before you and I.

Suddenly we split apart
And "I hate you mom"
Replaced "I love you mom".
When I wanted to be
Backwards, one day at least.

So I want to say to you now,
my little birds,
as you ready yourselves 
to walk out of my nest,
and begin your new journey away
With your independent lives
I'M SORRY,
SO SORRY!
For all of my faults
And mistakes.
I should have love you much more
If that was posible
And judge you less.

THERE'S SO MUCH I REGRET.
SO MUCH
LOVE THAT I HELD 
FROM ALL OF YOU
EVEN FROM MYSELF...

THERE'S SO MUCH I NEVER GAVE
THAT I WANT TO GIVE TO YOU
AND SO MANY THINGS 
THAT I WISH TO SAY
OR TO TAKE BACK.

BUT I KNOW THAT THERE ARE TIME
WHEN IS JUST TO LATE
AND WORDS AND ACTIONS
DO HURT AND I CAN'T  BE  CHANGED
OR TAKEN BACK.
I WISH HE HAD BEING A BETTER DAD.
I WISH, REGARDLESS THAT
THAT I HAD BEING THE PERFECT MOM
YOU ALL DESERVE.

But there it is still time to catch up,
To change and make amends.
You all taught me that,
Is never to late for a new start.

LAST, FOR ALL THAT,
FOR ALL THE MISSED TIMES,
I STILL WANT TO SAY
THAT I'M SORRY.
I WANT MY TIME BACK.
I LOVE YOU MY CHILDREN
WITH ALL OF MY HEART
AND I AM TRULY SORRY
IF I WAS EVER BAD OR MAD....