I am mad
I am mad at him
I am mad at me
For thinking that there could ever be an "us"
It was always about him,
He made me think it was about us
But it was always about him, and no one else.
I knew that the moment he asked me to kiss him.
I said no,
He kept pushing it,
I said no,
He kept pushing it,
And I refused to put up with it.
He said he was sorry but he didn't mean it.
He called me a player,
He said that I played him,
I never played you,
You played me.
You made me love you,
You brought up the past,
That was unfair of you.
Someone once said,
"Once it's happend keep on walkin and don't look back."
I follow this and I think it's true.
So you can go break some other girls heart,
I will forgive you,
Because I am better than you.

I said I loved you,
I don't know if I ment it,
My mom asked me questions,
"What colour are his eyes?"
"I don't know blue I think"
"Is he left or right handed?"
"Left I think,"
"If you loved him you would be able to ansewer these."
I think that is when I knew,
That I didn't love you.
You were irivicably in love with me.
There was nothing I could do,
To convince you not to love me.
I tried to let you down gentaly,
And you apreared to handle it well.
But later I saw you eyes,
They were red and puffy,
There were tearstains on you cheeks,
And I knew that you still loved me.
I heard that you were going to **** your self.
The first thing I thought was,
"If he is going to **** you self over a girl you have some seriouse issues,"
Then I heard from someone else
That you were saying it to get my attention.
And I thought,
"He is way to desperate,"
I am glad I broke up with you.
I am not sorry I broke your heart.

Love is stupid,
Love is foolish,
Love is blind,
Love is deft,
Love is hurtful,
Love is cruel,

Love is happiness,
Love is bliss,
Love is amazing,
Love is phenomenal,
Love is necessary.

He was amazing,
He was funny,
He was cute,

He was he was mean
He was my lover,
He was cold,
He was heartless,
He was cruel,

I am hurt
I am sad
I am depressed.
I am happy
I am amazing
I am beautiful
I am strong.

I am sad
I need a friend
I need someones shoulder to cry on.
I need you,
But you have left me.
I don't need him,
He is gone,
He is the reason for my crying,
He is the reason for my sadness.
If I had not known him,
If I had not said yes,
If I had not gone, to that stupid dance
If I had not met him,
I wouldn't be as strong as I am now.
I wouldn't be able to say;
I am strong,
I am a survivor,
I am not weak,
I don't need YOU!
I will thank you though,
Despite all you did,
Despite all you said,
I will forgive you.
Because I am strong.