What if years after the butterflies, and after the fire and ash has settled there is nothing but the pooling of guts. The detritus that lies smitten with various bacterial lineages, and a hot ooze that overboiled from the seams of your heart now are being slowly engulfed; Mesmerised by the steady beats and thumps, the fissioning crowd wells in awe, clawing, a cacophony of enzymes heaving toward the heavy membrane. Swell; where trichogramma turns to ask the orchid floating among the horizon: what do parasites contribute to an ecosystem?
Perhaps the cumulative swarm of such chemically catalytic beasts, towering, twisting, spitting emulate the acute plasmic oxygenation of a flame. A perhaps.
Such are perhaps.

Watching the monsters sleep and slumber
A masked owl whispers and wanders
Tree bark yawns with the break of twilight
Flames cackle casting embers of amber and seething whites
A cauldron of fireflies crash amongst the leaves
With the winter breeze hurling them throughout the sky
A mouse hurries late for it's meeting in the old shed
Where the spider lies back stretching in her web
The stars roll around laughing about something bright that was said
The moon sighs overhead while clouds encircle the lunar light
Puddles shiver and grasses bloom with frost bite
The aching orchard hums a tune of summer nights

And they pulled up their hands
After soaking themselves in space
Took a breath and began blowing sand
Forged from dust amongst an age of waves
Where clouds of ash could fall like snowflakes
And their embers rained
A storm of ore was gently sprayed
Over the pattern of valleys and figment shapes
The rocky canvas flooded with pigment and seething grains
As shadows played against the flame
They lay in a wake of clay and paint
Bellowing songs of ancestors throughout the cave

A cycle of rain and nitrogen
And everything looks a lot like mud
But that's where the stuff grows you know
Where the ancients have fallen
Cause here's a place too sow seeds you see
To spread your wings and fall over and over again
Rest easy
Crash your waves
Flood the sky
Sink into the earth
As here's a place made for no mortal
That's why the sun and stars came to play

Whatever a smiling ocean is
With its grin as wide as dunes
And its lips pressed to the moon
Walking with the creatures of the deep
Where magma crawls and the rocks creep
Through sandy meadows filled with reefs and scales
And a stormy shadow of sunken sails
You'll see the sun piercing through
Where all you can breathe is blue

Dancing round the fire pit
As you cut and burn your hair
Casting stars and spirits a flame
With your amber coloured braid
Thicken the air with talk
Bash rocks and sharpen spears
Crossed legs under a withered night sky
A game of meteorites
Fireflies and mosquito bites
The shine of rain
Your smile coarse in my veins

Acorn, maize and hawthorn
baby we were all born from light
beaten broken shattered
maybe we won't matter
if matter is all that we like
so its come to this
an abyss of crazy ****
****** out torn from fright
hazy from a kiss
crossed out promises
we got boxes of it
dreams of sailing the night

Oh sweet maple tree, best kick your muddy boots
Burn up with the sun, paint fruit for thieves
Play shadows in the earth
Carry songs till the bark bleeds
Dream of streams
Sharpen your teeth and leave

So here we go down the long road where some one left me on my own
tasted songs from the sea of green but it deafened our throat
a change of heart doesn't waste our blood four hands and feet will still grow
a round of darts counting body parts casting shadows before we throw

we are not last
But we will die before we're ******

you can't take me through this line
its a bitter way between
choosing doesn't make me grow in this better way to dream
you cant take me this time
crawling under the streets
you wont break free this life
its trying to survive
dying to believe

Seems like we're in for some stormy weather
racing rain drops climb down my head
starving memories of when we we're together
brain treats and these dreams of where i ain't better off dead
maybe tomorrow we won't be caught in between
whispering trees
i'll pool my sorrow and you'll freewalk
maybe next week
Bittersweet

You have gone insane my friend
I fear your brain is coming to an end
You have gone insane my friend
I fear your brain is coming to an end
You have gone insane my friend
I fear your brain is coming to an end
You have gone insane my friend
I fear your brain is coming to an end

A spark, caught a drift
Nuzzles against the dead
This rawest ember is stricken,
Crafted amongst bitter winds

A piercing contrast
And heat that basks
Amongst its withered nest
An idea perhaps, or is all that's left

These days of silence and seldom solace
Appear to bring my thoughts to a close
As this mind numbing content of static
And corroded heart from boiled acid
Further wither while a fire grows

You may feel warm
But the fact remains
Sooner or later it'll end in ashes

Spreading the good word of what's inside
It's a dangerous world but you mustn't hide
Cause what's outside can leave you blind bitter and unkind
But its a frame of mind that will you free you from the binds

Try see the signs of the morning light
Find your feet and you'll soon be alright
Mind the gap and get through in your own time
Remind your kind that we're all on the same side

GCFCG

This fire keeps me crazy
Beginning to tire but now I'm a little too lazy
But desire keeps me wired
Maybe I'll amaze me

Her fire keeps me crazy
I'm feeling higher now my sight's too hazy
But desire is desire
So maybe she'll enjoy this maze with me
Maybe she's a little bit crazy
Maybe she'll say maybe

As I'm staying so much longer than I was supposed to
And I'm saying I don't know which way to go just like most do

But these nails seem extended
And the jails aren't comprehended
Holding you in place
Holding down your known space

As I'm caught in you
Stuck in this rat race
I'm cold from you
As you've left your trace
I'm calling you
As my only wish is to see your face
I'm crawling to you
Yet you're moving with such grace

I've been waiting for so long
I've been chasing for a place to belong
I've been facing my monsters who did me wrong
Where I've been wasting and running from

I'm feeling numb
So I'm staying here as I don't know which way to go

I don't think I should speak
My mind right now
As what I find inside
Doesn't seem too kind
I might doubt these signs
My light will struggle to be set right
So I don't think
I should speak my mind right now

As it gets pretty cold and lonely at nights
But yet standing to see that morning light
It shines and shares smiles so bright
It keeps my mind right
It keeps me from thinking black and white
It keeps my mind bright
It keeps me from thinking that I might not have the might

To keep going
To keep growing
To keep showing my insides

To keep going
To keep knowing
To keep glowing on the outside

But I don't think I should speak my mind right now

Let's begin now.

Let's pretend our brains haven't been smashed out
Let's act like we've got so much reason to be proud
We're the ones who make the world go round
We are the ones who have grown from the ground
Try opening your mouth and let you insides out
Let's have some fun and make it loud
Don't dwell in doubt or think too ******* what it's all about.

Let's begin now.

We've got too much to live for
It could be a bore or seen as a chore
But when there's always so much more at the core,
Opportunities left raw, left to adore
There's no need for keeping score.

Let's begin now.

This feeling is all I own
This loneliness when I'm all alone
Getting tired of
Getting wired
And being stuck at home

I've been setting fire to my heart
I've been letting it grow a part
Now it's dark
And now I don't hurt

Got to hide from my insides
Got to find out whats outside

Though what you've seen
When you dream
What you deem
Necessary means so little to me

You want to sit by my side
While I burn my mind of doubt
Want to spit on my mind
While I turn my insides out

I'm numb
But it don't mean we can't have any fun
I'm dumb
But it don't mean we can't do a ton

Got to hide from my insides
Got to find out whats outside

As what you've been
When you scream
What you mean
Means so little to me

This supposed triumph that has left me corrupt
At home this silence has left me to rust
This tiresome festering love
Makes me think my insides aren't enough

Remebering better times
Memories together in the sunshine
Tendencies of her are stuck in my mind
They're cavities that I can't fill with what I find

But what I need is no concern of yours
When I bleed, I only burn down our doors
My greed only lures me to my own guts and gore
These weeds tore and have left me raw

Now, I could lead you to my mind
I would feed you on what we find
Though I shouldn't need you to be mine
This seed doesn't seem to grow only with time

Now all is left is the morning due
With what I thought I knew
I'm sorry I didn't know what to do
I'm sorry I didnt know what I'd do to you

What were we before
What was I before
Maybe to me it means something more
Either way I can't go on like this anymore

Waiting up for the morning sun to rise
Waiting up for the dawning of our mind to realise
The doubt, of why we're a live
The doubt, of what it's all about
And so you scream and shout
And so you let it all out
And so you let your insides out
Now you've turned inside out
Now you've learned what it's all about

So show me something else
That will harm my health
So show me anyhing else
That will harm my health

That will calm myself
And now lately my mind
Drives me crazy on my in insides
And now maybe I'll find
Someone who's kind
Someone who's on my side
Someone who tries
Someone who isn't blind
Maybe they're in my insides
Maybe they're inside my mind
But lately my mind has been unkind
Lately my mind has wanted me to die

Oh can't you see
It's obvious to me
Can't you just let us be
And all live ******* happily

The insane passes over me like a hurricane
Can get too much to bare the pain
The same old ways pays off as a different gain
But when I have to scratch my brain

Lifes a game worth living
Mixed in with this worthless sinning
Tricks and chicks and this selfless giving
But these memories are often what I be seem to be missing
Memories of kissing
Wishing that this tendency
Of my cranium would chill out
And harness this uranium in order to dish out
This power that let's us realise what it's all about
This tower let's us open our eyes and release the doubt
Where if you'd fall you'd probably die
But at least we are alive
And our two feet are alright

Stepping forward you might fall down
Might sore in mid flight for a while but will soon hit the ground
This air is rushing past your face
You are moving to fast can't keep up the pace
Don't have time to leave a mark or your trace
What's in your mind other than that darkened place
What's in your mind
What's in mine

This darkness is growing
Yet not quite showing
Or with anyone but me knowing
It's still there
I act as if I don't care
I bare it to make life worth living
I wear it even if it hurts giving
Just so mundane
Everything feels the same
Everything that deals these hands of insane
It hurts
But I need to do so much more
Before I can see the dawn
Revel in my core
Before I can reform
In the warmth of the sun again
And reach the morning
I need this rain to clear
I need to bleed this pain but I fear
The dark
The mark its left
So far its never been right

This girl who used to be with me
I don't think she is what she says to be
This girl who used to be with me
I don't think she agrees

I wonder if really
Where my eyes wander to see clearly
I wonder if I really
Could ever get nearly
To what she wanted
If I was ever what she wanted
Doubt I was ever what she wanted

She could of been mine
But she needs someone
She could of been mine
She needs anyone
Who can say she's there's
Who can show they care
Who can bare the dark
And live it through with her
Who can wear the dark
And give it to her

Now I'm lost
Best just make the most
Now I'm lost
Tour down this canvas to leave a ghost
Your sound is a poiseness dose
Your frown is the thorn in your rose

And she doesn't understand
I don't have a plan
And I don't understand
Got my head stuck in the sand
What if I was smarter
What if I was nicer
I had been enough.
Could I of been yours?
Could you of been mine?

You are my sunlight
You got me out of the night
I feel at home when I'm with you
I feel overthrown but try stick to you like glue
You are my cryptonite
You don't seem to set things right
But let me think that they might
Only get a little brighter
I was in the dark but you showed me the white
The nothingness isn't loneliness
It's just a blank canvas
It's what you make of it
It's what you take from it
You left me awake and a lit
Left happy bits
Not going to quit

Are you going to give up now
Can't figure out how
Can't live in doubt wandering about
Can't scream and shout so much to figure out
Are you going to give up now

Live to see you fall
Starting to crawl
Hurt yourself from a wall
You're my porcelain doll

Cracked at the sides
Wondering why
Even when I try
You only seem to cry
Better wave goodbye
It'd be better if I died
When I planned to
It's be better if I died
When I had to chance to

But now I stole this dance from you and you
Just please tell me the truth
Just please don't make me choose
I won't know what to do
I won't know who to choose
I try to muster up a clue
I try to drop out of this noose
I'd die without you
I would of died if I didn't meet you
You're going to give up now
I'm going to live now

Sweet sunshine
She's the only thing on your mind
Sweet sunshine
She only seems to be acting too kind

Whether or not you get her
Her weather is always better than what you deserve
Together or not, you seem to only ever hurt
You better rot, you are no better than dirt

I cant be enough
I'm just not enough
It's just my luck
That I don't give a ****

But that's the problem
I'm not like them
I'm not liked by them
And I don't try wonder when
We can be friends again
We're all just men and women
We'll all just then be living again
But do hope that this trend will soon come to the end

I spend most my days by enjoying a jay and tasting what life feels like when employing different things to make it all okay. Hey I mean it can all feel pretty grey sometimes, life is cray and will never stay the same but maybe we'll find our own way to a place where we can stay and all dance and play.

I don't get very far
I don't make a start
I hope you tear me a part
I hope I won't have to pass
Get to lend me your heart
Get to break you a part
I live on just to make it last
I live to live, I hope it wont go too fast
Why's my heart made of broken shards
Why's my mind built from the dark
Maybe life won't get very far
Maybe life won't make a start

There's a loveliness in everyone
But there's a darkness
What's been done
What's happened to them before
What's come along and shut down some of their doors
Smashed vases and cracked glasses
Bashed daughters and smacked rascals
Made naughty bits and nasty speckles

But the smiles
Seem to live on through the extra mile
Seem to make everything all worth while
Laughter of a child
Grin of a baby
The win that maybe
You might reach one day
The finish that maybe
Everything will be okay
And wonderful
For everyone
And plentiful
For everyone
And full of happiness
And we couldn't care less
Bout the dark
Cause together
We seem to be able to make everything a little brighter

I'm the reason for you're looking for redemption
I'm the reason why you're not content

I've been bleeding to be a part of you're contemplation
I've been needing your heart to be a part of mine

I've been trying
I've been wondering why
I've been dying
I've been wandering through the distance between us
Silence between us
Violence that's just enough
Triumph that's left me to dust

I can't see you
I can't be near you
Banished
Left alone
Banished
Into the dark

I can't be with you
I see clear with you
Banished
On my own
Banished
Left only a star

I can't give me to you
I can't be the person you knew
Banished
Left torn
Banished
Wonder if I left a mark

Wandering in the dark
Wondering how far it goes
Can I be close to you

So for now
You'll try put me away
And I'll save you for a better day
When the clouds aren't so grey
And everything's okay
Finding our own way

Maybe I'll forget your name
Maybe things won't be the same
Maybe things won't be as insane
Maybe these clouds won't start to rain
Maybe our feelings won't get to feel pain
Maybe I'll get you out of my brain
Maybe my energy won't be drained

And I won't need to train myself
To look out for my health
To look out for ourselves
To look out for anyone else

Just remember you were the one that made this choice
Just remember that whatever is done I'll only ever keep to my own noise

But I never danced that way before
Doubt I'll ever find anything that could mean something more
But you opened up these different doors
Left me sore
Tore out my guts
Poured out my gore
Left me raw
Wondering what you are doing it for
Maybe you forgot what we were living for
You left me alone to fight this war
I'm left to what I own
There's still light
And there's still so much more to endure.
Its only getting brighter

And to revel in your mind
To think bout you all the time
I wonder if you could of been mine
I wonder what we could find
Let your thoughts unwind
And let our knots combine
Branches intertwine
Walking through these pines
These trees are talking wondering who
As we wander through to something new
Wonder what it was we thought we knew
These leaves are covered by this morning due
Gentle silence is dawning into
A pretty little day getting better
Lumber and wonder brought together
Drops of rain letting things get a little wetter
Ever since you met her
You had needed to get her  
You're sad you let her in
You're bad who could of known you'd sin
But you're glad you gave in
What you didn't mean
What you could have been
What you could of seen
What you would of deemed
Could of got so good and free
Struggling to breathe
Just lost in the breeze
Honesty
Trapped by sleeping restlessly
Guess it was meant to be
Guess I was meant to be me

Alone in my thoughts
Restless sleeping
At home I am caught
Best just leave things
My own mind I fought
Hopeless grieving
Sown my seeds I sought
Left to see what the night brings
Thrown my needs that I brought
This cresting light reveals wings
Just getting out of depression I guess
Just here to leave an impression from my chest
Just here to find out what's left
The parts of the heart that wouldn't give in
The strongest parts of living
The best parts of giving

I like sparks
They tend to light up the dark
They might not always get very far
But if its just who we are
Best to just be a part
Its best to just share your heart
And rest in the dark
Making marks in the bark
Letting it grow to be a part
Of who you are

You're branches may be getting tangled
Shedding weeds
Letting it get overgrown
Let it become more of what you own
Set a part to be a lone
Getting past who you've known
Yourself to be
And just who else you've grown to be
Where you've sown these seeds
What else you've learnt to see
You're health you've learnt to keep
This sore wealth you don't need to feed
And yourself you've burnt to in order breathe
Has turned to leaves
And twigs
Getting bigger
Setting a blaze
This blinding gaze
Lost in this haze
You've let yourself loose in this maze
And it's dark
But these sparks
Bring me further through
Brings me to something new
Something I didn't know

Time goes on for so long in the dark it overthrows me
My minds grows from the dark its the only one that knows me
I've gone so wrong in this song, I don't know how to show me
I need help
But, nah, I mean just help yourself
Keep acting careless of my mental health
I mean surely I have someone else
Surely there'd be someone else
Surely there'd be something else other than hell

I will stay with you
Until these feelings stop staying the same
Until these feelings grow more insane

Guess its just best if I back off now instead
Put these feelings to rest before they end up dead

I think too much about what I said
I sink too much into my own head
I'm overgrown
My weeds are getting tangled with my trees
I'm overthrown
It's brought me to my knees
It haunts me so I can't breathe
It taunts me so I can't see

Stop, don't make a sound
Drop down hit the ground
You can't imagine it
How much **** you're tangled up in
Mangled bits you're parts are stuck
I don't give a ****
But I've got to live through this muck
That I made
And it's all the same
Every god dam day
Found a way to stay so grey
Found a place to stay
Found a name who knows his way
Found a face who's built to play.

I see clear
Let's just have some fun
Shift my gear
Get something done
I can't steer
I'm so dumb
I'm not here
I'm numb.

Maybe this the end
For my friends

I'm mending what's gone wrong
I blend into what's dead and gone

They can't comprehend
What I lend

I lend them my heart
Only to be left apart

I let them trample my heart
Just to be a part

Of the their life
One of these days I'll do it right

Maybe today
It'll be okay

But I'll check with you
I'll try talk to a few

I'll try walk through
I'll break this chalk for you

So I can't write
Don't know what's right

I'll try do anything
Everything

I'll try be anything
But I don't have a clue

I try to do something new
I'll die if you need me to

I don't want to die but I'll try
I'll cry and won't want be by my side

I sigh, grit my teeth and get on through
I'll stick to you like glue

But this is the end
For me and my friends

I hear,
These noises at night
Voices that write
Choices that aren't right

I'm near,
The edge, looking down
The ledge, mustn't frown
The edge, looking at the ground

I fear,
What's left for me to give
We met for us to live
What's left beyond cliff

Before you
I saw so clear
I endure you
For the longest year

Tell me anything I want to hear
Sell me everything I want my dear
Keep the counter open
And yet so much deeper have we sunken

Started as a floating heap
Floating to the face that is so steep
Wrote things as I start to leap
Crack my heart on the rocks below
Smashed apart on the rocks that have grown
Made a start on the rocks that I know
Broke my heart on the rocks that I show
Myself to
My feelings to
My health to
My left over peelings to.

Sharing times together alone
Parting to find another whose grown
Tearing what's mine for her to overthrow
Only need a caring mind to get her on your own

I act kind
I don't mind
Let you unwind
You're unkind
I need time
I lead you to my mind
I feed you on what we find
I need you to be mine

I hear these voices at night
They're for you
They make things a little brighter

Can you make me happy again
You are my only friend

But maybe this is the end
For us

Maybe its just enough to live on
But its not enough to live

I guess it'll be fine
I guess you won't mind
I guess you won't think bout me all the time
I guess you won't be mine

I think I better hide
I think I better lie
I sink into my own mind
I drink your poisoned wine
Then I'll die.
Then I won't try
Then I'll be by your side
Then I'll be with you in a different time.

Our future is just around the corner
Our future is growing warmer
These ice caps are getting rather flat
And these rats are getting pretty fat

The air is getting smokey
Lungs are getting crokey
Viruses are mostly deadly
Missiles are getting armed and ready

We've got our heads through the noose
Our neighbour's are becoming extinct too
Theses animal that are brought to the brink
We need to think

What we are doing to this ground
Else we gonna sink
Standing on speckled little mounds
Thinking of what we knew before
When we could of made life okay and the earth round
We could make it that way today
But too many of us have this desire for more
If we go too far, we won't be able to live anymore

Like we used too
With such grace
What we used to do
When we weren't winning the race
When we weren't sinning and stuffing our face
In what the world provided
In what the world confided in us
We rot this world provided for us
Said it was never enough

We've got our head through the noose
I'm ready for us to lose
I'm gonna try make a move
But you can do whatever you choose to

Open your eyes
And remind your kind
That we have to find an answer
Else we all gonna die

I don't want you to like me
But I need you to like me
That's just who I am
Don't have a plan

I'm trying to live free
Just so pleasantly
But I can barely stand on my two feet
When you're not standing there with me

I'm stopping this rushing water, slowing it down
I don't give a dam about you
But I built this dam around you

To save you
I'd be brave for you
But I really wonder who can say the same
Who can stay sane

Who can be as insane as you really are
Who can walk clueless into the dark
I'm just floating through,
An every now and then
I bump into you again

You dent me
You lend me your heart
You bend me
You tear me apart
But that's alright
I'll stay up all night
To set things right
See the greater sites
And realise
How small everything is
How numbing everything is

And so I float through the void
Keeping to my own noise
There's people playing coy
And the girls interested in other boys

Then I bump into you
You're grumpy for a while
You thump me but
Then you smile
All through one of the longest miles

Remembering what we've been through before
Remembering what I've been fighting for
Trapped behind this shut door
There's so much more

We'll get through
And might later find something new
I get you
That just something that you do

I'm afraid to be happy
Afraid that your not right for me
Afraid that you would live so happily
If I wasn't were I wanted to be

With you
We'd live through
Seeing me lose
I would give you
Everything

I wont make a move
Do what you want to do
You can be anything you
You choose to

Building houses again
Working up till half past ten
With my oldest friends
I hope this never ends

But wonder when
Wondering if then
I will be free
Wandering again
Happily me

This haunted house is all that I can see
All that I can be with
These things can't stay
Hauling out things to give away
At this yard sale today
Where the clouds are a darkened grey

These oldest things
That I've collected over time
These treasured things
That are no longer mine

You see something you like
Its old and rusty but it just might
Be alright if you treat it right
The breaks are broken but the chain seem tight
Not much to look at but it'll take you to the sites
This old bike will put up a fight
This old bike might make things a little brighter
Might help you see the light

Chin up, you grumpy soul
Ride down this bumpy road
Turn that frown into a better tone
You're on your own and you know
Your all alone but now you've grown

Things aren't as bad as they seem
Kings aren't glad when you dream
Wings are better when they're clean
Things you had been which you didn't mean

Push on these pedals
Go a little faster
Hit these daisy petals
These cuts and scrapes that you need to plaster

Cycle up the hill
When will you reach what your looking for
Why cant you get your fill
When you don't know what your looking for
There is so much to adore
Let your goal spread to so much more
Put the bike back down on the floor
And you might find each other behind this shut door

Waiting up all night for the day to arrive
Trying to set things right trying to survive.
These birds are bouncing
The bees in their hive
The dogs are chasing
The rabbits till they hide
Got to be alive
Try stay alive

Hauling out things to give away
At this yard sale today
He sees something he likes
Its old and rusty but it just might
Be alright if he treats it right
But with you,
These sky's are blue

I've never been so far away from home before
I've never been so far from everything I own
I've never been so far from everything I've known before
I've never been so far alone

I've never seen who we are alone before
I've never seen what we do when we're overthrown
I've never seen how far I can grow before
I've never been no one I know

At this place I see everything
In a different light with a different face
In this race I try to be everything
Travelling light I keep up the pace

Running away
Careless of what people say
I cannot stay
Fearless of the darkened day
I found my way
Yet I'm clueless whether things will be okay
Through the darkened grey
What's ahead maybe darker

Got to be smarter
Got to go farther into the dark
Got to see further into the dark
Got to show that you'd rather make a mark

Getting so far
not leaving the start
Letting you come apart
We cannot see who you are

We cannot choose who you are
We cannot lose, your not going far
It isn't news that your heart is breaking
Your heart is taken apart

You hear shots that are shaking this house
We are lost making this house
Clear rot shaping this house
Cant stop them taking this house

Its time to create
Make something that's not the same
Its mine that is fake
Take something that's not full of pain

Wait for something that's not in the rain
Wait for something that's not from your brain
Make something that's not insane
Take something that's not in your name