There was the spark,
And it's slowly fading out
And I can't stop it now
Even if I knew how.

One blink, and I might disappear in front of your pretty eyes,

Leaving you to always wonder why.

I should always be first priority,
Only second best to your family.
Not to some stranger you don't know,
Not to your hobbies.
I am bitter when you place me
As your afterthought, as something
That will always be available.

I trust women;
I fear men.

I need women;
I want men.

I respect women;
I ridicule men.

I love her;
I lust after him.

So much in need
Of all those things
That make me feel whole
When really,
The truth is,
That everything outside
Only hides
How little there is
On the inside.

Consistency often preserves our sanity
And a little bit of diversion
Can be devastating.

I remember
The blanket
The movements
The warmth mixed with cold
The movie
That we weren't watching
The way you looked at me
And the way I felt
I wish
We could go back there
Right now.