Crack a smile for me, won't you?
It's really no big deal, just forget about how you feel.
You can make it through the day,
If you wave your emotions away.
Take your heart from the driver's seat
And replace it with your brain.
Let logic and reason save you from your pain.
Let cold apathy just seep into your veins.
Feel the stress and the tension starting to drain.
It's so much easier when you do it this way.
So, why do you refuse to do it every day?

Five days
My brain's in a haze
I wake up whenever
I go to sleep later than ever
Same routine, same boring routine,
Sometimes I think I'll wake up
From this painful dream.
Everything seems the same,
Even though it's all changed.
All my priorities have been re-arranged.
I am the only one who can take care of myself now.
The only problem is I don't know how.

Do you feel that silence
Burning into you
The fury of what you did to me
You took away absolutely everything
And expect me to smile like nothing's happening.
I hate you, I hate you, I hate you.
I can't say it enough.
And if you miss hearing from me,
Well, tough.
I never got the chance to really grow up,
Always bound to you like glue.
There are just some things you shouldn't do
To a fourteen-year-old girl who's so confused.
I even told you all about what I had been through.
Still, you crossed all boundaries then tried to blame who?
You blamed me, you placed all the blame on me,
For being young and naive,
For not being able to see
When people were taking advantage of me.
You weren't even here to help or protect,
How dare you act like you've always treated me with respect.
You were downright abusive, don't you forget.
You've filled me with so much guilt and regret,
When you haven't even looked at yourself yet.

I like you.
Sometimes I don't know why.
You act so arrogant, but then you act shy.
I've come to see so many different sides
Of you.
You try to be confident despite insecurity
Brewing underneath the surface constantly.
I guess I admire that about you, surprisingly.
You are everything a human is, undoubtedly.
I wish I could tell you that I care,
That no matter what, I want to be there.
I never do, simply out of fear.
It's hard for me to open up to those that are near.

Split* into different pieces
Trying to put them together,
I fail and feel so *defeated.
A caring friend is all that I needed.
They weren't there, so here I am,
Feeling bitter and cheated.

There's the me that smiles even when it's not real
There's the me that can do anything but feel
There's the me that only wants to cause pain
There's the me that refuses to accept blame
Yet deep down, I have come to meet the true me.
She's lost and confused as can be.
She's blinded by her own suffering.
She forgot the meaning of truly living.

Oh, don’t you know
I know who I’m contending with
Sister, it seems
Like you live in a dream
Because you can’t see things
As they might be

What I mean
Is that I know what the difference is
Between an angel and a devil
Between good and pure evil
What I mean
Is that I’ll never surrender
My humanity
To anything but the almighty power
Watching right above me

Yeah, I know
He whispers in my ears sometimes
And misleads me when I am blind
That’s just the kind of thing he’d do
And sometimes I do fall behind
Sometimes I do get out of line
But when I do, I give him a piece of my mind

What I mean
Is that I’m not listening
To his dark intentions for me
And his negativity
What I mean
Is that he is not what he seems
Hiding behind a smokescreen

Some days I wish I could just disappear
I close my eyes and imagine running far away from here
I am so lost, and I need you near
But when I wake from my delusion, you're no longer there