Cece - Hello Poetry

Cece Aug 2012

Slacking

A while back
I talked about
crunch time.
and in all honesty
it really wasnt that
long ago
      that I cared.

but I
dont
anymore.  Not
because
its what
I decided
consciously. But
more so
it was just
one of those things
that
                  happened.

the dreaded month
is here.

and nothing
is how
I presumed
it would be.

instead of being
scared
or
sad
or
anything
expected,
normal -
                         i dont care.

I feel empty
and unemotional,

which is
weird
for me.

typically,
feeling

is all that I know how to do.

                 I guess that's gone,
                                               too.

Cece Aug 2012

secrets, secrets.

getting caught up in a different dimension
can cause a lot of misunderstanding in life
and bring you to a different section
as you browse through,
looking for answers.

going like this? this is where
you know it will happen safely.
its dangerous, it is. but the
opportunity waiting to unleash
is worth the trouble of getting there.

its scary, because its different.
nobody will be prepared
for an accurate estimation what may
or may not occur.

some are saying, 'forever changed'.

My curiosity often overpowers proper judgments
but dont tell
because they cant know.

they dont get the right to know anymore.

Cece Aug 2012

Very true

wrapping a big comforter around my shoulders
raises the brim of my smile to a curve,
kisses brushing the tip of my nose, dancing glances across the room, that laugh, letting me run my fingers through your boyishly conditioned hair, smelling fresh hot coffee, staying up late enough to watch the sun rise, swimming underwater with goggles, fulfilling true self enjoyment, warm embraces
and life changing conversations.

those are the things that draw me to your internal magnetic soul
and **** me in to this
magical world of essence.

I wrote this while I was high lol.

Cece Jul 2012

It's Slowly Thawing

water and ice
is what I feel like.

though the same,
they can form into one another
back and forth.
its entity is interpretive.

happiness in a neat little cube
the tray has been the mold of my life
confining me, unaware.

but water runs free,
spills everywhere
and soaks into its surroundings.
I'm still here,
h2o.

but a new form has taken shape
widening my perspective to a new world
I never realized could exist.
                                                                                           the accessibility is limited
                                                                                                      but I'm learning how to find it.
                                                                                                simply knowing that there is
                                                                                             something
                                                                                                     makes it eons more beautiful

Cece Jul 2012

Purity

your last sheet of innocence
that you have been wrapped in
your entire life
is gone.

         And now
         all you have left to do
         is try not and regret it,
         while you shiver at the frigid air
         that nips away at your skin.

Cece Jul 2012

Lets just pretend

i just want the euphoria of certain moments,
and to be able to lock them in a jar.

i want to take the jar and hide it away
and be able to open it
whenever i desire to do so -
which will thus cause the euphoria
to soak in through my skin.

we need an endless supply of this
sensation
and access it always.

heat waves through my chest
as i picture the power
we could obtain

Cece Jun 2012

My complete lack of allure brings me to this

You know, how sometimes

the trees stop shivering
while the earth halts?

That is when my head throbs
at the epiphany
of life.

Instead of withering away
your precious time here
wondering why,

you could be experiencing
it, and breathing in the beauty.