annie

annie Jul 2013

drowning
in her despair
self-inflicted
and put upon her
by him

ripping
every fibre
of her being
apart

she is
no longer
a little girl
she has metamorphisised
into a creature
not even
human

why
did he destroy her so
why
does he continue
to exist
if it means
she
can exist
no longer

a little bit of (very) unstructured poetry, finding it hard to collapse my thoughts into proper words right now

annie Jul 2013

******

the scream
of ****** ******
from a child
too young
to possibly
comprehend the consequences
of her ways
paving the path
to no dead bodies
lining the streets
no
just
broken souls

annie Jul 2013

the light went out

on that night
when she had no idea
what was coming
(what had gone)
she reverted back to the
girl
she used to be
but that girl
would not let
her be
that
girl
wanted to stay
locked
away
never causing the pain and suffering brought once before
but
she
let the girl
out
thanks to
him
(not him but
him)
so
thanks

too late to be writing this, it doesn't even make sense. oh well.

annie Jun 2013

on graduation

final
smiles
hiding
distress in the
uncertainty
of what is
to come

final
words
everything
left unsaid
but
nothing
left to be said

final
hugs
expressions
of affection
real
unreal
unthinkable

final
tears
sadness
that's not quite
sadness
but something
like pain

graduated yesterday. this past year has been downright miserable at points, but reading my yearbook, I can see I was truly loved, and I will miss everyone

annie Jun 2013

smiles

smiles
are for
first kisses
clumsy and sloppy
but full of passion
and love

smiles
are for
wedding days
where the love of our lives
promises to be with us
forever

smiles
are for
intimate encounters
euphoric loving
exploring the depths of our souls
like no-one has before

smiles
are for
new life
first wails
late nights
all for a child's love

smiles
are for
first steps
careful and stumbling
but beautiful
nonetheless

smiles
are for
scrapes and bruises
falling
but getting back up
over again

smiles
are for
first loves
nervous hands
holding
tight

smiles
are for
betrayals
never
to trust
again

smiles
are for
long nights
alone
listening to
her favourite song

smiles
are for
deepest regrets
punishing herself
for another's
faults

smiles
are for
silent cries
no idea
how to fix
anything

smiles
are for
last breaths
with whispered apologies
to everyone
and everything

smiles
are for
final discoveries
too late
to make
a change

long, but i think it is powerful :)

annie Jun 2013

let go

just let go
of the memories
we held so dearly
that now tickle your consciousness
and dance within your nightmares

just let go
of reality
slip into the arms
of false pretenses
and shattered promises

just let go
of existence
it is of no use
to a soul that is shredded
and empty

annie Jun 2013

12:19

and at 12:19 am
she came to the realization
that the reversal of the situation
may lead to positive consequences
after all

— The End —