Blockaded from my conquests of the flesh
Dead-ended to my passionless endeavors
I wish not to delve into depth
But, to get my feet wet
Initiate me to be

Frustrated by time and time again
I never had a lover, nor a friend
Lacking a moral compass
I try to maintain common sense, nonetheless

The clock taunts
Negative thoughts haunt
Between drivel I am caught
These feelings too grave to be fought

Trumpets of doom begin to blow
A cringeworthy serenade
Life moving along so slow
I depart from this masquerade

Inflexible to my desires
Taking cover
Inflexible to my dreams
Evacuate
Inflexible to life
For life I abominate

Cody Shull, 2016

Back and forth my mind races
Cannot decide when it's time for me
For my time to rise
Like the phoenix amongst the ashes of failure
I await the green light to shine for me
I always set myself up for misadventure
My stubbornness will be my downfall

I know which path to follow
But, I fear for my first steps
Set too much in my ways
I hold myself back
Saving myself from uncertainty

Expecting the worst
Hanging in doubt
Amateur, ******
Suffering by myself and myself alone

Waiting for the perfect moment
Waiting for the perfect answer
Fleeing from the scene of life
Seeking absolution

Even if my wishes came true
It may end in disaster
Even if my desires were met
It'll hollow me out further more

And still...nothing's different

Cody Shull, 2016

I need coaxing to come out of my shell
Move me further away from my comfort zone
Take me by hand to wherever is good
Where you and I can be alone

Itching to be free
Lost within myself
Give me a little push
I need your help
I want to pounce
Lacking courage
Not even an ounce

Let me be your entry level lover
Invite me in with your eyes
Give me a chance
Whether it's a kiss, a dance,
or just some old fashioned romance

Suffering in silence
I yearn for excitement
Wasting the best years of my life
Missing out
I live in doubt

Desperate to be freed
Break these self-made chains
And grab what's been waiting for me

Let me be your entry level lover
Invite me in with your smile
That's all I need

Cody Shull, 2016

She seduced me
With every part of her
She tempted me
To delve deep into her essence
Indulge in the sweetness
The sweetness I desired
The sweetness I was lacking

Savor the flavor of temptation
High on this natural ecstasy
I kissed her from her feet
to her pretty face
Her lips I want to taste

Losing myself in her
Was the easiest thing that I could do
It was second nature

Refuge from the dark
Into the light of her bliss
Shining bright as the brightest
star in the darkest night
of her soul

Fire licking our hearts
Passion running wild within us
Shining as bright as Hell
Sparkling beyond belief

Cody Shull, 2016