I always thought of you as my angel
I held you in high regard
I held you up
And you shot me down

I hung onto your name for years
Hoping that we could meet again
When the chance arose, you left me behind
Just like you did all those years ago

I failed the first impression
I guess I didn't meet your expectation
You ran towards fantasy
But, ended up running away from reality

Without explanation you left me be
Away from me you flee
You're fond of the memories
But, you're no longer fond of me...

Cody Shull, 2016

I'm an emotional coward
Gathering up the fear
Of trying to pursue you

Dying to pounce
But, backwards I bounce
Speechless whenever you are near
Without words I lose myself within your eyes

Maybe how I look at you...
Will answer your confusion..

I'm caught in frustration
Trapped in imagination
Drowning in fantasies
Shying away from reality

With me there's always something to fear
I live in doubt
Shutting the outside world out
Silence is all I ever want to hear

Screaming inside
Uncertainty consumed
This desire will never subside
Despair entombed

Cody Shull, 2016

I saw you standing near the edge of my garden
Peering into my refuge where I made myself captive
Curiosity flooded your mind, anxious to figure me out
Vines around my face, covering my lips, unable to speak
Constricting my expression, squeezing my life away
Helpless by my own doing, only have myself to blame
Shrouded by the undergrowth, unable to ever know
But, there's nothing worth to mention if you asked about me
I'd still be encased in this prison of mine if you asked for me
Sunlight barely touches my skin, which has turned cold
Never been kissed, never reached a level of normalcy
Always running away from something that was common
Always thinking there was something much more
Guess I was just waiting for death

Cody Shull, 2016

An old soul in disguise - she said to me elegantly
Gentle and kind - she was to me
Her soft eyes - lost and mesmerized
As she holds out her hand - loneliness dies

Within her - I found comfort
Within her - I found peace

You seem miles away - she said to me with sadness
That I was lost amongst a world so cold
Frozen emotionless, lacking pride
She said, "Within me, you can confide"

Within her - I found tranquility
Within her - I found serenity

Within her I buried myself
I drowned in her affection
Tears of joy at last
Which floods the loveless void out of me

Cody Shull, 2016

I always shut myself down
Whenever you're around
On guard every second
Whenever you come into view
It's a problem that I face
Almost everyday
Maybe it's the ****** frustration
That's getting in the way
Maybe it's because you're extremely pretty
And it discourages me to find the right words to say
I've grown to adapt to my social flaws
I feel inadequate and inferior
I lack self-esteem
I am something, but feel like nothing
Nothing is what I have made for myself

Cody Shull, 2014

It has seemed like centuries
And it still does now as I stand
Standing emotionless still
Dead inside the heart of a dying man

Love wasted by waiting on myself
Waiting for a change to take effect
Searching for normalcy
In a world so lost

It feels like a century has gone by
Time did not wait for me
It charged on forth without hesitation
Without mercy it slain me

And here I am now, older
But, am I wiser?
It's hard to tell
When there's nothing to reflect on

Cody Shull, 2014

A look into your eyes
All secrets are revealed
They are all safe with me
I will not tell a soul
I promise you this

Deep inside I feel you
Blackness cast upon me
Your secrecy brands me
Anointed with your blood
I'm sworn to your darkness

Channeling searing pain
Feeling every heartache
Feeling every regret
I become one with you
Two souls burned into one

Cody Shull, 2016