I get straight A's,
You worry I don't have a social life.
I hang out with friends,
You never see me any more.
I spend time with you,
You worry about my grades.
The sad part is,
I keep trying.

I keep to myself,
You worry I'm depressed.
I come out of my room,
You get sick of me.
I'm quiet,
You worry I don't care.
I say how I feel,
You ignore me.
The sad part is,
You don't try at all.

It's happening.
I'm in your thoughts.
You've always been in mine,
But I never knew.
And now you feel the same.

How?
It doesn't make sense.
No one thinks about me,
But you do now.
How can you?

You called me beautiful.
I laughed,
But only because I'm scared.
I'm scared that you think about me.
Because you can think whatever you want,
But I don't want it to be about me.

You say I'm beautiful.
I can't believe you.
I want to,
So badly,
But I can't.

If I believe you,
Then I can't hate myself.
Then I couldn't hide.
I can't believe you,
Because I'm scared.

Why is it so hard?
My thoughts were always safe.
They were always there.
Always mine.

Why can't I think?
I ignore the confusion.
Push everything away.
Convince myself I'm alright.

Why do I cry?
I'm lost, confused, hurt, broken, and scared
Just me.
Is that why?