I'm numb
from feeling
I feel dead
I'm not healing

Stop being so selfish
Smile you're here
Give me one good reason
That you shouldn't be

You have life
You are free
Get over yourself
You're ignorant, please

You're not numb
You just don't try
To live the life
You've been given

You are alive

Now numb is not feeling
From head to toe
Get over yourself
What more could you want

a life, a dream, a goal, a friend
You have it all
It never ends

Pick yourself up
Of that ***** old floor
You have the power
And yet you want more

Get over yourself
You have more than you see
There are people out there
Craving your dreams

So stand proud
On your two good feet
Get over yourself
Or yourself you'll defeat

My heart is beating
I must be alive
My pulse is racing
I must've survived

My head is pounding
At least I'm alive
The paranoia
Am I going to die?

You say I'm fine
Don't have "real" symptoms
You don't see my mind
I may be a victim

I sit and wait
for morning sun
Contemplating
Time can't be undone

Every second I remember
Analyse
Now I surrender
To the moon
Or so I think
The thoughts won't allow me
Barely to blink

Goodnight my love
Enjoy the rest
The break, the time
I'm envious

Goodnight my dear
Sleep well
At least I'm alive
As you can tell

I can feel the butterflies
I hope the never fly away
I can see it in your eyes
When we hold that gaze

I try to catch my breathe
When my thoughts run wild
I try to hide what's going on
I know, I am a child

I want to know where your mind is
Cause mines straying, getting lost trying to find it

I'm getting cold here on the outside
Just let me in confide, confess
Let me by your side

Cause I haven't slept for several days
And my mind is kept preoccupied by the thought of you

Am I out of depth, have I fallen to the sea
That I've wept?
I can't breathe

Cause I and I and I am lost for words with you
And I and I and I am g

I feel it seep through my bloodstream
Infatuation creeps upon me and I can't seem

To let it pass, I do it to myself
Calling out for help

I stand frozen
I watch as the tap trickles to a halt
I wait as the bath fills
They represent my tears
The ones I try to pretend aren't falling

I shake
Shake like the ripples that have created
I stand before myself
The scariest thing I have done
And I don't even see myself
Who or what have I become

Life is something you should crave
A gift but you don't know how great
Until it's just too much too late

I almost returned my gift
I almost said no thanks
I almost missed those moments
I almost missed myself

It was all a mistake
But mistakes can cost lives
You chose to sneak
To undo and hide
To put it simply
You lied

You underestimated the power of love
Be a man
Admit when you're wrong

I know it must be hard
And I know for me it was
The nameless face
The one who takes

The man behind the ******

I know that is a strong word
And to an extent false
But in the eyes of a little girl
Grey isn't in your clause

It's black and white
Right and wrong
Life and death
You choose but one

I just need a little time
To myself

I love and I live
I need help

Come home to me
I am home

Come home to me
I'm alone