It's hard to keep my thoughts
from straying far away

I try, I try not to fall back
That reality is too real for me

If I accept myself
Love will follow
That's what you said

But I've felt nothing
no longer
not even sorrow
nor pain

I feel empty
I can hear the echo in my soul
When I attempt to speak

The end is near
Fear is far
My soul is black
And oh so bleak

Too late for saving
Fold me up
Push my skin
leave me craving

Love

I sit at my window
I sit on the pane
I picture a scene
Where nothings the same

What if, how come?
I don't understand
If I just jump
Would you be glad

I would, I think
At times I wonder
Would it save me
Or be just a blunder

So much more than flesh I seek
In any one human being
In you I find something exquisite
Draws me in, makes me revisit

In moments, mere seconds
I feel the flutter
My stomach
However words remain unuttered

My love for you runs deep and far
You saved me from my mind
You didn't even know
My darling, you're just kind

I stand by a stone
That's all it is
But is means so much more
It means that you're here

I sit and talk for hours and hours
Visit this rock
Dress it with flowers

It deserves love
The love that I have
Not for a stone
But what it represents

Blowing bright in the spring
Yellow like my hair
That I didn't get from you
What did I get from you?

My stomach twists, I see them budding
I feel you spirit near
I feel protected , I feel safe
My mood lifts, light as air

So many things to get in the way
But the bond, our bond will never break
Miles and miles keep us away
But our love is strong

Smoke in my lungs
Prevents me from breathing
The air that I love

I don't deserve
The beautiful air
Yet another thing

I turn from pure
To something toxic
Pessimistics what I'm called

It's more than this one small thing
It's truth