I stumbled across a sentence today
And as soon as its meaning unfolded in my mind
I froze
And I felt my chest contract
Like suddenly being ****** underwater
And denied oxygen

                                                                                *What if he misses you too?

Hey.
                                                            ­                                                 I miss you.
What's up?
                                                             ­                                                I miss you.
How are things?
                                                         ­                                                    I miss you.
Hope everything's well.
                                                           ­                                                  I miss you.
We haven't talked in a while.
                                                                ­                                             I miss you.
I'm sorry I'm bad at communicating.
                                                  ­                                                           I miss you.
I still think about how we used to be friends.
                                                        ­                                                     I miss you.
I was thinking that maybe we could try that again?
                                                          ­                                                   *I miss you.

I change my nail polish every day
because I get bored of the color.
how am I supposed to handle
a long term relationship?

I have been in love
with thoughts and ideas,
but I have never been in love
with a whole person.
longing and loving
are entirely different,
even though I feel like
they're the same.