This is just how life makes me feel at this present moment..

I feel like im being swallowed in.. and the world just doesnt want to spit me out...
im drowning in negativity..  and held down by hate and jealousy from others..
seems theres always a dark thick grey cloud above my head.. whenever i get some sun in my life the cloud creeps in..

feels like im going no where.. yet my passion and determination is still there.. to move forward no matter the world..

i truly feel alone like theres nobody who gets me.. im usually the one who understands others but have never had someone genuinely try to understand me without an agenda..

i always tell myself its okay...you have a dream... a goal.. and i can and i will reach it never mind the world..

i have a little boy.. my son.. who i always  say to "i cant is dead" it sounds a bit harsh but he inspires me, he lives by that saying better than i do.. he really looks up to me.. and i want to play through for him...

i can! i will!

nevermind the world.

I just met you once..
And already I'm thinkin about..
YOU & ME
Just gazed into your eyes once..and knew that my heart was yours..
I wish it was considered a normal thing to do,you know..kissing someone you fell inlove with on the spot hehe..

He had this thing about him that just made me block out the world and just stare at him with the burning desire to hold him..feel his skin and
Plant my little hands in his..and feels his warmth forever..
He stands out to me,he's not perfect but **** he's that and more to me..
He's a bit loud mouthed.. But Beautiful smile slightly crooked teeth,sunkissed skin and the friendliest eyes..  He's not what I'm used to in terms of body shape he's a little bit skinny,could care less I just wanted to wrapped up in those arms..
He's soul is beautiful it shows on his face..
He's touch is gentle I saw it on his hands..
He's mouth speaks only truth and love.. I saw it on his lips..how can you make me feel this way..its so amazing I don't want it to end.. **** how is it possible Sir?that you have my heart
Though I Only Met You Once.

Sweet taste of independence..so near yet so far.. Most of my life has been a constant battle of fighting off the obstacles in my path...yet through it all **** I see the sun..
Obstacles...
No.. Food..
No.. Home..
No money..
**** I still saw the sun..
My son mommy loves you don't cry for you are the reason I'm fighting off these obstacles who force their way into our lives minds ..obstacles you will not take my soul..my heart. Cause **** I still see the sun.. So bright it burns my eyes..
My son I'll be the best for you...
I'll be strong for you..
I'll fight for you..
Cry for you..
I'll love you eternally for you are the reason I see the sun..