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7.8k · May 2016
Naiinis Ako...
Claudee May 2016
Sa pagpansin mo sa iba
Sa pagyakap mo sa kanila
Sa pagsalo mo sa mga luha nila
Sa pake mo sa iba **** kaibigan
Sa pag-ibig mo sa kanya

Sapagkat akong sinabi ****
Matalik na kaibigan

Lalapitan lang pag wala na sila
Di mayakap pag kailangan ka
Pinapanood mo lang sa pag-iyak
Naaalala lang pagkatapos ng lahat
At mamahalin na lang siguro
Pag ako na lang ang natira.
05/23/16
5.8k · Feb 2017
Pagtahan
Claudee Feb 2017
Dalawang kahoy na upuan
At tatlong libong katanungan
'Yan ang ating distansya.

Mahihinang muni-muni
Sa lagas nang espasyo
Kasabay ng maingay kong pagkabasag.

Masidhing pagpindot ng telepono
Dahan-dahang pagtakbo ng luha
Ang bumuo lamang sa ating usapan.

Wala na kong masasabi
Wala kang balak sabihin
Wala nga talaga tayong sinasabi!

Sa patuloy na ingay ng kalsada
Umalis akong walang balak bumitaw
Nagpaiwan ka bagaman matagal nang lumisan.
09/22/16
09/30/16
4.0k · Aug 2015
Isang Taon
Claudee Aug 2015
Isang taon na mula
Noong una kitang makita...

Noong pinili ka ng aking
Paningin kahit na sa
Totoo lang, marami kayong
Naka-itim na pantaas.

Noong naisip kong
Handa na, pwede na ulit
Akong mabaliw sa saya
Diba, parang tanga lang?

Noong naisip kong
May gaganda pa pala sa
Paborito kong pelikula.
Hay, ang mga matang iyan.

Pero, mayroon akong mga nalimutan.

Sana nakita ko rin
Sa araw na iyon lahat
Ng di ko pa makita o
Mga iniwasang makita.

Sana nakita kong
Di na naman ako mag-iingat
Tapos saka mahuhulog
Nang tuluyan.

Sana naisip kong
May mga damdaming
Marinig man, ay hindi
Nabibigyang kasagutan.

Sana tinanggap ko agad
Na maaaring ang mga
Kaibigang tulad ko,
Kaibigan lang talaga.

Wala namang kahit
Isang dahilan noong
Magustuhan kita. Kaso naman,
Andami palang rason
Para mas mahalin ka.

Kaya ayun, isang taon na.
Isang taon na palang
Pangarap kita.
Salamat pa rin, August 18 of 2014.
3.9k · Dec 2016
PANGALAN
Claudee Dec 2016
Malalim na ang gabi at di ko na yata
Mabilang kung ilang beses mo
Akong tinawag sa pangalan niya
Ha ha ha ha ha ha
Natatawa na lang ako sa katangahan.

Iyang tula sa itaas
Naganap at nasulat ilang buwan
Na ang nakaraan
Pero uy alam mo ba
Ngayo'y kaya ko nang ituloy tapusin
Ituloy muli tapos tapusin na.

Walang patlang walang ibang tanda
Walang pahinga puro tuldok lang
Kung paanong ilang beses mo akong
Tinuldukan.
06/01/16
3.3k · Apr 2015
Bulong
Claudee Apr 2015
Isang damdaming nakatago
Ang sa aki'y nahanap mo
Na pag iyong nahawakan, alam ko
Siya ring bibitiwan mo

Mga salita kong ibinabaon na
Bakit nais na marinig pa?
Kung ang lagi mo namang akala
Ang mga ito'y para sa iba

Isang ngiting di para sa akin
At mga matang di naman titingin
Ika'y ihip ng hangin
Na ako'y lilisanin din

Kaya tanging hiling, patawarin
Ang inalagaan kong pagtingin
Di ko yata kayang naisin
Na ang pagdaloy nito'y tapusin

Anuman ang iyong nalaman
Sana ay makalimutan
Itong tula na lang ang iiwan
Ang bubulong ng aking nararamdaman.
2.0k · Mar 2017
Piling
Claudee Mar 2017
Paano ba simulan ang isang tula?
O dapat ba ito'y hayaang ilapat ng tadhana.
Tulad ng isang gabing mahiwagang
May simula kahit di sinimulan, magkakawakas nang di winawakasan.

Kung saan sana'y di na nagtitigan kasing lalim ng kalawakan
Di na nagtawanan sa gitna ng Univ. Ave.
Mumunting pigurang di umiilag sa sasakyan
Ngunit patuloy ang pagbangga sa isa't isa.

Kung saan sana'y di na hinawakan itong kamay
Kung sa pagbitaw, mas matinding kapasuan.
At sa mata ng buwan, sa baba ng tulay sa Philcoa
Di na sana hinagkan na parang tayo'y sa isa't isa.

Paano nga ba sinisimulan ang isang tula?
Bakit ito'y mahirap kumpara sa pagwawakas?
Maaaring madaliin pag nais na
O basta na lang iwan sa kalagitnaan.

Pero ang mga tula, ay mga marka.
Itatago ko't babalik-balikan
Parang noong gabing tayo'y naglalakad
At andiyan ka pa.
02/08/17
1.5k · Aug 2015
Green Umbrella
Claudee Aug 2015
cold pavements heard
my heart's song when
you waved a hand and made
music out of the raindrops

the green umbrella you held was
witness to the smile i can't help
when you laid out an arm and
pulled this fool closer

and alas, in that moment you
looked, i learned why the clouds
have been crying. they were robbed of
their stars and put in your eyes

but rains stop and songs end
and the umbrella you left,
i wish i could leave on a bus seat

green umbrella, he won't be back
the rain has gone, let me drop you
Claudee Feb 2017
Gawan kaya ulit kitang tula
Tulad noong ikaw lang ang nasa gitna?
Noong ako'y lumulutang pa
At di pa nalalaglag.

Gawan kaya kitang tula
Parang dating bawat sulat-kamay
Isang direksyon lang ang tinatahak
Mula sa 'yo at pabalik patungo sa'yo.

Noong di kita matingnan nang tapat
Di man lang makausap nang di nanghihina
Di matanong tungkol sa mga tula
Dahil, ano ba, ikaw kasing paksa nilang lahat.
01/31/17
966 · Jun 2016
Paglagas
Claudee Jun 2016
sa paglagas ng mga rosas
sasamahan ko ang mayang
naghahanap ng pulang pakpak
sa ereng iyong nilisan

sa paglagas ng bawat pahina'y
hahayaang dahan-dahang lumuha
ang plumang nalipasan na
ng sandaang trahedya

at ang huling paglagas
sana ay sariling paglagas
mula sa
832 · Jun 2016
1:28 PM
Claudee Jun 2016
Humampas ang ulan sa aking braso
Sabay ng pagbalik ko sa panahong
Ika'y ambong kinatakutan
Kong maging bagyo
05/31/16
634 · Feb 2017
Untitled
Claudee Feb 2017
The moon shone bright
On the day you told me
You believed in me.
10/14/16
571 · May 2016
Untitled
Claudee May 2016
Kung wala ka talagang ideya
Kung saan ako may pilay

Alalayan mo man lang ako, putangina.
528 · Apr 2015
Cloud Skater
Claudee Apr 2015
There was once a girl skating on clouds
Clouds made of honey
Clouds so sticky
She was trapped in the skies.
So I once dreamed of becoming a figure skater. Once.
And I dreamed of becoming a cloud. And, I guess, I still do.
Claudee Apr 2016
She's not gone but losing herself rather
Slowly, badly
In pains she can't stop and
Screams she can't let out.

From a daughter who wished someone knew.
441 · Jul 2015
F C Dm Bb C
Claudee Jul 2015
Stargazing with you, I wonder
Which stars do I look at?
Those up in the night sky
Or the ones deep in your eyes?
Titled after the guitar chord of the song Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.
439 · Jul 2017
Untitled
Claudee Jul 2017
ang huling beses
ay mahinahong lason sa lahat ng unang beses
sa una **** mga hakbang, ang huli kong pagtapak
at sa huli kong kahinaan, ang una **** pagkabasag

sa huling beses
hihiling ako ng mga unang beses
parang pagbukas sa bawat nagyeyelong bote
na nababawasan ma'y lunas sa mapagtanong kong uhaw
417 · Jul 2017
Untitled
Claudee Jul 2017
pluma, pluma
sinaid ka man ng sandaang mga trahedya
iluha **** lahat upang ang susunod na marka
pangungusap na ng ibang istorya

paglagas man ng bawat pahina'y
kalaban sa pagtakbo ng oras,
huwag matatakot sa muling pagsayaw
ng mga gamit nang letra

babalik-balikan kita upang lumikha ng
mas magagandang musika
ngunit bibitawan muna para gumuhit sa
literatura ng ating katotohanan

tinta ma'y maubos, bubuhos muli
papel ma'y mapunit, mapagkakabit pa rin
413 · May 2016
Di ba?
Claudee May 2016
Met when we knew no one
Got close when we knew nothing
Laughed when there was no one

I was falling, I had no idea
You ******* hurt me, you're not aware
I am crying, you ignore that
Scared of losing you, you don't feel that

Now I'll love you and you won't know/like that.
05/06/16
392 · Feb 2017
Little After Midnight
Claudee Feb 2017
Little after midnight
27th of grand October
In the infinite darkness
Mr. Streetlight, you found me.

Though the road need not two lights
Two lampposts stand side by side
Unexpectedly, quite unbelievably
A slender heart was wrapped in warm, long scarf.
10/28/16
367 · Apr 2015
Beyond Old Windows
Claudee Apr 2015
Beyond old windows,
Leaves of green
Leaves made of sorrow
No rustling sound

No sound at all.

Only the slow, painful dance
Of a muted scream
A scream of longing
Longing that would wither them down.

Still, I hear nothing.

Through the thick staring glass
Just the swaying, and swaying
And the crying of the leaves
And I'll watch and wait

Till the last one leaves . . .
335 · Jul 2017
Untitled
Claudee Jul 2017
kung ang mundo ay isang kakahuyan
ako'y kawayan sa kaharian ng mga sedar
siyang nag-iisa at dahan-dahang tumutubo sa 'king tabi
sana'y mag-abot ng sanga, kung di man malalim na ugat

kung ang mundo'y higanteng salamin
ako'y ngayo'y espasyo sa repleksyon ng iba
ngunit nakatayo ka sa 'king harapan  
di imahe, buong pigura
natutunaw na ba ang mundo sa sikat ng araw?
304 · Mar 2017
Untitled
Claudee Mar 2017
Singing breaths of cold-hearted flames
Turning into night ghosts in their bubble
Ending peacefully in a forest of what-nows
Begging Mr. Time for hands held longer
01/26/17
299 · Apr 2015
Awakening
Claudee Apr 2015
Your smile was for me
Those warm hands wishing for mine
And then, I woke up.
290 · Feb 2017
5 Seats Away
Claudee Feb 2017
Silky black hair
Curly brown hair
Heartbeat ringing
Restless sitting

Denim jacket, polo shirt
Cold, spacious hall
Lovely eyebrows, little smile
**** the distance that separates us

Slowly glancing, mildly walking
Somebody stop him
Somebody pull me up
Closer, closer, closer...

Your image gone, your shadow stands
In the end, you're five seats far.
09/20/16
264 · Jul 2015
The Moon Wrote Back
Claudee Jul 2015
i once wrote to the moon

a plea for a song
cast with the blood
of a missing tune

oh, but the moon wrote me back

held in the scarlet paper
a delicate symphony
played by your eyes

it was you all along
you're the song
i've been waiting for
250 · Feb 2017
Lighthole
Claudee Feb 2017
each day the sun is crowned
and err day She plays around
dashing in flashes sweet
till dusk comes and all is still

little She did nothing all day
except at dark when all is still
people think she must be extraordinary
full of flight and full of glee

but little She is tired and angry
for she did nothing but get away
leave a trail and cast spells
nothing to hold her but time and space

now come a time when billion years go by
and ages dawn upon the shivering sky
08/16/16
245 · Feb 2017
Untitled
Claudee Feb 2017
Across each other
Under one knowing sky
Here's two poets
Seeing one is in love
One is unassuming
Just waiting, maybe.
08/13/15
2:01 PM
204 · Dec 2016
Untitled
Claudee Dec 2016
and in this gravity you put
just let me rest let me rest
and let it rain
let it rain

till the raindrops poison me
till my breath is but a whisper
maybe then you'll hear me
oh i hope you'll (*******) hear me

so in this storm that you blessed
leave me crying for your cruelty
or give one chance another chance
to **** myself with me
10/12/16
185 · Sep 2018
The Poet Moon
Claudee Sep 2018
Oh, this isn't of the Sun!
But of all's darling, the Moon.
The poet's first love,
A paper's goddess.

Oh, Luna ate her beauty!
Saw through celestial mirror,
              a dying light
A blazing maiden in fading
              coat
Found a poet in the first
              love's first love.
11/03/17
6:06 PM
131 · Jul 2023
04/18/23 ~C
Claudee Jul 2023
Today, I'm starting with a blue pen
Starting with the date and my name
Just in case I don't finish, don't
reach the end of the page

And just in case I break down in tears
Or feel the ache eat at my heart
Or hear your voice as I write these words down
Then my signature would have sufficed
And the date above would be enough

What are you doing? Is my scent still
on your mind? Do you wonder if I
still cry at night?

You know, a group of laughing kids
just passed in front of the cafe glass
And for a minute, I prayed for
an alternate–no, not an alternate–I
prayed for another universe
Actually existing, not as an alternative
But as a world of its own

In that universe, we'd have kids laughing
in our tiny backyard, passing through
neighborhood cafes
They'd be back in time, for dinner
Rushing to give Mommy and Daddy kisses
In exchange for our hugs

In that world, talking about babies
Would be no joke, not be filled with doubts
Because there, we'd have the right love
The kind that began on a rainy month
You'd have no one waiting for you
And I'd still be the girl believing in rainy months
106 · Apr 2023
Would Have
Claudee Apr 2023
Looking at your pictures
I see us a few months back
Listening to our recorded calls
I hear you laugh your way through the avenue

Baby, I should have embraced you more
In the sweltering heat, in the cold parking lot
I should have sung more musical songs with you
In your Benz, that night in May

Baby, would  do, could do anything
Bring you back and make you feel errthing I foolishly did not
Should have hugged you even when your jokes got so annoying
Should have told you I'd stand behind you even when they throw rocks at your back

Oh, I should have cause I always would have...
09/07/20
94 · Jul 2017
Untitled
Claudee Jul 2017
anong kahon itong sinusubukang pasukin?
mistulahang tahanan sa mas mumunting kahong
kumpol ng mga padala mula ibang planeta
dikit-dikit at kakambal sa isa't isa
may kahit isa kayang doon ako'y magkasya?
91 · Jun 2023
Untitled
Claudee Jun 2023
Guess I'll have to be good with
pictures of your smile in my head
with the smell of your embrace in my bed

Remind myself of the day you texted
how you miss hearing my laugh in the office
And the day you held my hand
in the car, kissed it like only I mattered

Will this be the first and last I write of you? I hope not
Though we're only a moment in time
I hope to pour words of you throughout the avenue that is my life
01/31/23
89 · Jul 2017
Untitled
Claudee Jul 2017
may buwang di kayang abutin ng kahit sinong astronota
at walang hintong paikot-ikot lang sa bakanteng kalangitan
hanggang kailan kaya mananatiling buwan
dito sa banyagang kalawakan?
83 · Apr 2023
How do you heal a heart?
Claudee Apr 2023
Do you tell it bedtime stories or let it listen to love songs?
Do you give it to the wind, hoping it'll take a good journey?
Or do you whisper promises to it before giving it a rest?

How do you fix a wounded one?
I wish I knew how, I would've known how
I'll be the first to wrap the bandage 'round it, if only I had the right one
I'll give it promises of real love, if only I knew what they were

How do you heal a heart?
07/17/21
82 · Jul 2017
Untitled
Claudee Jul 2017
may unang beses ang huli **** pagsimot
sa natitirang boteng pansapat sana sa kulang
hiling pa nga noo'y wag munang maubos at ilapag
ang babasaging sana'y kinapitan pa nang mas matagal

mga boteng natabig at wala nang ipapatak
'wag na lang natin muling isalansan
iyon na una at tanging beses
ang huling beses...

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