the sound of your heart pounding
with my head against your chest
my breath caught in my throat
as your hand grabs mine
is the most relaxing thing
that i've ever experienced
because the fact that i
make you as nervous
as you make me
is a greater comfort
than i've ever known.

i cannot help
that i cry a lot
this time of year

there is nothing
that i can do
to make it stop

so please
won't you
let me
cry
in
peace?

i have found
that it is much easier
to be not good enough
than to be the best

and i've been told
that if i could only see
the best of myself
i would be happy

but it's funny, this feeling
it comes not from a lack
but from a surplus
i am a surplus
of "not enough"s
and it's not that i don't see
the best in me
it's that i see
the best in everyone else
and it's better than my best