i used to listen to flatsound's album
scotland, i wish you had stayed
in the passenger seat, back and forth
between home and the place i wanted it to be
where i couldn't ignore the winter
and the dull pulse of abandoned laughter
throughout houses that look like
what i feel like on a bad day
and today was a bad day
i want to travel backwards
to a time i can remember actually trying
walking the few streets home from school
anticipating telling you how my day went
so you could call me and say,
"i'm happy for you, princess"
i don't try anymore and
it's been a long time since
you have been happy
about anything except
******* me
the title is the last song on the album, i wrote this while it was playing.