Jack ***** and hypocrites,
Wanna be's with no common sense.
Wealthy men and beautiful women,
Sell their souls although they shouldn't.
Back stabbers and manipulative ******,
Plucking and pulling with kaniving tricks.
What a disaster this world must be,
We're all trapped behind bars;
Confused as to what it means to be free.

I've
done
nothing
for the
past six
months
but be
lost in
you.

Gin. That’s where it starts.
The squinted eyes and mumbled speech
I go too far I know
I can barely see where I am going
and you cannot understand a word I say

But these are just a side effect of my confidence
which happens to come in a bottle
Do you think I’d be talking to you,
kissing you,
loving you, without the gin?
Of course not

Falling in love with strangers is the love I feel
So yes I need the gin.
I need the gin to be able to converse
and kiss
and go home with strangers
So I can feel something

You go ahead and find a nice boy who will romance you
But me, I’ll be leaning on a bar,
flirting with boys who buy me drinks

You go ahead and make love
i’m content with my one night stands.
I’m sure he could love me if he knew me

You go ahead and fall in love and get married.
I’m lucky, because you fell in love once
I fall in love every Friday night,

Saturday night… sometimes Wednesday nights

You see, for me, gin is love

If I imagine for too long
remember to linger
imagine to taste
taste to suffer
i'll only remember you for what we were
and we were never who you were
you're so much more
much more so than I was to you
and we to love
its potential surpassing
any sort of practical comprehension
especially that which emit from us
so, i'm sorry
for being in love
but not loving you.

i'm dreaming of big things
im dreaming of experiencing things with someone in which I care deeply
someone in which I love freely.
not easily
but truly.
i'm dreaming of an indie movie
those scenes where a catchy track is playing
and they're blissfully ignorant to the world
yet so desperately in tune
so deeply holding on
to that moment in time
when not everything was okay
but it felt it
when not everything was fine
but it didn't matter
those moments where you're so close to heaven
you can feel yourself falling.

I don't live for these moments
these moments live for me
so I can remember that heaven
is with you and me.
whoever you are
whoever you may be.