Enthusiasm at the sound of your voice
Eagerness at the sight of your face
Fire at the touch of your hands
To good to be true
Altered Ego
Awkward sittings
Partial happiness
Hostility placed where it should be
Deceived by alluring intentions
Hoodwinked by beautiful words
Clarity at last
Now dispassionate

Seeing is believing
With meaningless words flowing through air
Stagnant in the maze we call life
Devoured by remorse
Pleading but not Wanting
That lifetime of battle
Who shall be victorious
You be the judge

Opening the doors to paradise
Stepping out being kissed by the sun
Inhaling the salt in the air
Sounds of sirens disappear
Taken over by sounds of  waves crashing
So creep up behind me if u dare
Hold me from behind
Join me
If only for a moment in time
Can you guess where we are
Shhhhhh whispered softly
Keep it between us

I have come to read your words
Full of sorrow as my soul wanders
Searching sites for answers
Yet it's always the same
Still no change
Complete unmotivation at every turn
Backed in a corner
As I suffer in silence
My walls have become my comfort
When asked how I am
A smile on my face and reply I'm fine :)

Entered the brain and planted your seed
Visions of the most beautiful creatures i'd seen
Temptation in its greatest form
Aroused by the grinding and scratching
Transformation i see of what lies before me
Disturbed by the touch
Until my angels hands i see
Turn and look upon your face
You save me From the Incubus upon me.

Drowning in my own thoughts
I will not be your shadow
Screaming in silence
While grieving the past
My thoughts consume me
Love ceases
Nothing makes sense anymore
Your focus misplaced
Anger and Confusion Escalate
Nothing will ever be the same

Seduced by the words floating in my brain
Time to set them free
Disbelief consumes me
Expecting the worst
Lies or Vanishing
And nothing
Laughter
Happiness
Love
Passion
Lots and Lots of Passion
Affection and Attention
So why the disbelief
Am I not worthy of feeling free
Good Question

How a single song can trigger mini movie clips
From Ne-yo to LL Cool J to Creed
I open my eyes and I am in my car
Laughing and Smiling by myself as I think of you
It smells like summer
So vivid I feel the warm breeze
On to the next song
I Jump on you full of joy as I look in disbelief as you creep up on me
Wishing I could pause and live there always
Living my mini movie clips on the daily
Blessed to have sunbeams light my life daily
So I will not pause
I will not miss out on making more movie clips that only we share

Seems to be too good to be true
The perfect life
The perfect house
The perfect town
While slowly dying inside
Your inconsistency consumed me
All alone in a crowded room is me
It's who I have become
Clawing my way to the top
But still dragged back down
No way out
Salty tears drank at all times of day
Nowhere to run
Not a soul to speak to
Swallow it all
To do it all again tomorrow
So Lost

Standing upon your door
Enter
Here for the tour
You are my guide
Hotter than the sun
Moans, groans, and screaming
Dark empty eyes of what once was
On borrowed time
Escort me to the exit
I am not yours to keep
Let go of my hand
You are no longer my guide

Amusement at the sorrow of another
Words flow with the breeze of nights air
Summoned in front of a trifle jury
Weep for the audience
Stand an cheer
Allow me to introduce you to the reflection in the mirror
A mask suits no man

Fantasy turned reality
Lost souls adjoin
Sounds of rain on a tin roof
Thunder and lightning please my spirit
Devoted to destiny
Needing to savor every moment

in darkness regret follows
in darkness anger follows
hollow within
without breath
silence
betrayed by an angel as beautiful as the sun, stars and heavens
too blind to see the light
battling for freedom
awakening
leaving darkness behind