Our love is a tranquil song
Rising and falling in a sweet melody
The soft notes enfolding us
A slow dance
Turning, turning
A never-ending circle
The music of my dreams
This rhythm beats inside us
Our hearts keeping time
Let the music play on

Alone
I am broken
A fake laugh
A forced smile
An empty shell
Together
We are luminescent
A miracle
A wave
An endless swell
Crashing down upon me
Rolling, turning
Tossed from nothingness
To melodious perfection

Running a fever
But not from sickness
This fire rages furiously
Against all hope for survival
Your voice comes tome
And like a bellows,
Spreads the fire
But with the warmth of your breath
The flames change
With a new element of light,
The blaze fills me
Obscuring the old ashes
And transforming me
From the victim of destruction
To the follower of love

We could lie here all night,
Forever
Breathing each other's breath,
Twisted together so that we two
Become one tangled body
With synchronized heartbeats
Like raindrops on a window,
Running alone until joining together
If we had our way,
We would lie here all night,
Forever
My fingers moving gently over your skin,
Writing messages known only to me
In large swoops
Hoping, in my secret way,
That through my abstract lettering
You know exactly how I feel
Learning to speak without words
Lying here all night,
Forever.

A thousand tears for them
The lost, the heartbroken
The angry, the neglected
A thousand tears for you
Plus one more
For being all those things
But never giving up
As the tears fall,
My love for you grows stronger
As I lay with my eyes open
They fill and finally empty
Leaving me,
The tears are my emotions
Kept inside for no one to see
But for my pillow to absorb
Until the next night
When I think of them again
A thousand more tears shed
And then,
A thousand plus one more
Because you are strong
And I am not
But I will be strong for you

There they stand before a wall of darkness,
Hands clasped, begging for amnesty.
So long they have been heedlessly running,
Assured in their security –

Shadows now loom over them,
Children weep as their fathers curse
And mothers sit in resignation.
Here I am, no longer part of this world.

Warnings meant nothing,
Outspoken worries provoked only jest,
Murmurs and judgments.
Here I am, no longer part of their world.

The moment of superior judgment has come,
Finding them in a state of desperation.
Mere flecks upon the earth
In the larger scope of the universe.

They sulk in their helplessness -
The bravest of them are now gone.
Prayers are their only consolation.
Here I am, no longer part of their world.

There she stands, eyes trained upward
Her eyes red, hair unkempt
Arms clutched around herself for warmth -
Here I am, no longer part of her world.

Prayers reach me, to no avail
I can be no help to them now.
As the darkness finally overtakes them,
Here I am, no longer part of that world.

Taking time to glance in the mirror,
I saw myself always the same,
My appearance unchangeable.
Tired eyes, forced smile,
Pale cheeks
Always wishing for more, I’d turn away
The cracked veins of my reflection
Leaving a hundred images of my broken self
Imprinted in my mind
Every glance a reminder of my past,
But all that I could see.
Countless days, endless months
Smiling into the shattered mirror
Until my eyes sought yours
And saw in your stare a new reflection
Of gleaming radiance and joy
Of blushed color, and lively movements
Again, a thousand images,
Images not of solitude,
But togetherness – a union of sorts
That fills my entire being
In your eyes I see my future
Our hands interlocked
With no key to be found to separate them

Hatred
And lies
Constant lies
You said you loved me
And I loved you, too
Why would you lie to me?
If only you could see that
I would die for you
As you lied to me
You are a vicious beast
With a smile on your face
And scandal in your heart

You've come to the place I go for solace
Left your mark -
I see you.

Pain is not my goal,
It seems to be my friend

You've made your message clear
Left your mark -
I see you.

I would stop the turning of the world
The ticking of the clock
The beating of my heart
If only for a kiss -
If only for your love

I am losing myself
Little by little
With each passing day.
I sit in the corner
Grasping to everything I hold dear
But however valiantly I fight,
I slip through my own fingers
So I am left with only my body,
Which I never liked in the first place,
And the corner where I remain
To hide from the life
I have lost sight of.

Night calls to me,
Bids me welcome
Into its suffocating embrace
When light shines on me,
I long for darkness, sleep
I imagine the soft sensation
Of my eyelids pressing together
Slipping under –
But when I find myself under blankets,
With the whole night ahead,
Sleep stays outside my grasp,
Dancing between my fingers, outstretched
Laughing at my bloodshot eyes
As he watches the darkness take over.
Night, it tortures me,
Despite my fond hopes
Of finally holding security
Of finally discovering rest
I shiver under cold fingers,
Afraid of shadows and demons
Until the morning arrives,
When I yearn once again
For the torment nightfall will bring

At midnight, I rose
Haunted by a longing to see the night sky
Wrapped in a blanket,
I closed the door behind me
And stepped into the grass
The moon bore into me,
The stars were its companions
And all I could think of
Was everything that we are,
You and I
And tears far from sorrow
     welled in my eyes
Falling from my smiling face,
They dropped to the grass
To be obscured by the
Morning dew

Fierce wind, you whip
Against my windows
Singing high melodies,
Making the trees lash 
In accompaniment

Dear wind, you force
Through the cracks
Intruding upon my warmth,
Making me shiver
In loneliness

Oh wind, please take
This kiss from my lips
Carry it to my love -
Sing your sweet ballad
In his ear, and 

Touch his lips with the breath
That stole mine

I usually avert my eyes beforehand,
Let the steam block the reflection for after.

Today, I took the time to look.

I stared at the body I hate,
The one others tell me to love.
I brought my hand to my chest
Wanted so badly to mutilate myself, my reflection
So that no one else could ever love my body.
My scars on the inside
For no one to see -

I turned from the mirror
Wishing that I had never looked.

We are travelers of this dream
The wishes of so many,
Yet accomplished by seemingly
So few.
How are we the lucky ones?
But then,
Do dreams really ever make sense?
I smile as we fall,
Tumbling together,
Landing in an embrace full of laughter
We take our time,
Treasure every second,
And as the day falls tired,
And closes to night,
The moon illuminates this vision
Our skin shining silver
As we kiss under the stars
A promise sealed,
I’ll love you forever
In this sweet dream
That just happens to be reality

I feel you in the wind that kisses my cheeks
As it enters the window of my heart
The breeze blows my hair back
The same way that your fingers push it
Behind my ears.
I feel your breath on my neck and
Hug myself tighter to sense your embrace
Lean in to the emptiness,
Not expecting solidity…
Appearing from nowhere
In the time that I need you –
The wind’s kiss is nothing
Now that you are here.