Christy Pavoncello

Christy Pavoncello Feb 2013

Wingman

I have walked blindly
Far too long
Wishing for the impossible,
The undeserved
I was a lone bird
Flying through endless clouds
Oblivious to my surroundings,
My blessings

I never saw you,
My wingman
Pulling me to safety, familiarity
Until I was too tired to fly on
And you caught me in time,
Mending my heart with your
Tenderness

Christy Pavoncello Jan 2013

Dreamcatcher

Quietly hanging above my head,
You protect me from myself.
The shadows, escapees from my darkest thoughts,
Get trapped in your web,
Unable to disturb my sleep
Your feathers shift with the sweetest dreams
Of love and flight
Granting them passage into my slumber.

If only it really worked this way.

Christy Pavoncello Jan 2013

All Roads Lead to Home

You never say a word
As I stroke your skin,
Tracing the veins along your arm -
Just watch my fingers
Traveling the road map of the blood
That courses through your body.
I have tried so many times
To find a different path
Discover a detour
But I have only found a common route -
Whatever vein I choose,
It leads to your open hand, outstretched
The only place I feel at home.

Christy Pavoncello Dec 2012

Moonflower

The way a moonflower shies from the sun
So I shied from you
Turning my face away,
Placing myself in shadow
So that your light would not penetrate me.
In shadow I remain, until the night arrives
When I look to the sky,
Reaching for the moon and
The only light I can grasp to,
Wanting to scream into the torturous quiet.

Christy Pavoncello Dec 2012

Tears

Have you ever watched someone begin to cry?
The realization of pain,
The fleeting denial, momentary battle against emotion
Then submission,
Tears brimming as the eyebrows tighten
Involuntary grimaces,
The drops searing paths of cold pain down the cheeks

The ugliest view of beauty one will ever see.

Christy Pavoncello Dec 2012

Thoughts Before the Mirror

I usually avert my eyes beforehand,
Let the steam block the reflection for after.

Today, I took the time to look.

I stared at the body I hate,
The one others tell me to love.
I brought my hand to my chest
Wanted so badly to mutilate myself, my reflection
So that no one else could ever love my body.
My scars on the inside
For no one to see -

I turned from the mirror
Wishing that I had never looked.

Christy Pavoncello Oct 2012

Missing You (Sonnet)

I miss you every day
Your smile, your laugh, your voice.
So much I want to say
If I just had a choice.
You walk beside me now,
An angel in my breadth
I only wonder how
The memories can be kept -

I wasted so much time,
When every minute counts
Forgive me for my crime
I pray as I lay down
To see you once again,
If only through my pen.