Christy Pavoncello

Christy Pavoncello Apr 2012

Reminder

Sometimes it takes the silent tears
when I'm lying alone at night
to remind myself that I am alive

Christy Pavoncello Apr 2012

There may be days like this,
I must remember…
Days that my heart will ache
Without mercy
Days when my lungs simply
Will not fill
When a smile refuses to land
Upon my face
There may be days like this
Where I wrap myself in blankets
As tightly as I can
Wishing that we were lying together
Curved to each other’s shape
There may be days
When I sit in silence
Wishing to hear your voice
And feel cold around my waist
Where your hands would
Warm me
There may be days like this,
I must remember…
Days that I must endure
Without you

Christy Pavoncello Apr 2012

Musing

Hatred
And lies
Constant lies
You said you loved me
And I loved you, too
Why would you lie to me?
If only you could see that
I would die for you
As you lied to me
You are a vicious beast
With a smile on your face
And scandal in your heart

Written about four years ago after a breakup with an emotionally abusive boyfriend. The words are simple and the form is far from complex, but it is also probably the most honest and angsty poem I've ever written.

Christy Pavoncello Apr 2012

Wind and Kisses

I feel you in the wind that kisses my cheeks
As it enters the window of my heart
The breeze blows my hair back
The same way that your fingers push it
Behind my ears.
I feel your breath on my neck and
Hug myself tighter to sense your embrace
Lean in to the emptiness,
Not expecting solidity…
Appearing from nowhere
In the time that I need you –
The wind’s kiss is nothing
Now that you are here.

Christy Pavoncello Apr 2012

Rising on Renewed Wings

On renewed wings,
We are carried by the wind
To a hillside under a great sky
Where many have lain before
To gaze upon the stars
And change the world.
Victorious, you and I,
Holding each other as we rise
On those wings
Into the shimmering blackness.

Christy Pavoncello Apr 2012

Changing Me

You found me in my sleep
You kissed me while I dreamed
You took my state of darkness
And turned it toward the light
Where I once reached for the moon
And everything between,
You held me close
And my vain aspirations surrendered
For now and forever,
What I need is your arms,
You heart and your face.
The moon can disappear
And I will turn from the sky with a smile
Because I will have your company
My immortal shining sun
To dry my tears
And bathe my skin with light

Christy Pavoncello Apr 2012

Fever

Running a fever
But not from sickness
This fire rages furiously
Against all hope for survival
Your voice comes tome
And like a bellows,
Spreads the fire
But with the warmth of your breath
The flames change
With a new element of light,
The blaze fills me
Obscuring the old ashes
And transforming me
From the victim of destruction
To the follower of love