This monster is deranged
A plague, faceless killing without a care
Bleeding itself dry
Repulsed at its own stare
No other hate could compare
But the words of an angel who is so fair……

Subside

A calm ocean breeze
BROUGHT IT DOWN TO ITS ******* KNEES
Only a solace alike could end all war
BUT NOTHING OF THIS MAGNITUDE HAS EVER HAPPENED BEFORE

Amazed, she is perfect and beautiful and the only
The only

One who will calm this beast
As it lays vulnerable yet not afraid of what its actions bequeathed
Bleed, it may deserve it but this monster doesn’t care
A million years pass by in a second of her stare
Unaware of what pain used to be
The rage inside did finally die
For now….

For now this abomination will continue to rest
Maybe gaining strength, preparing for the next
This harp playing angel circles him forever
Falling in love with the calm

Immortal tranquility seems so strong
Being risen from the earth so cold
Hated so much throughout his life
Who could’ve ever foretold?
“Not I” Breathed this calm monster

“Not I”

Undeniable, completion
What can be said?
I proved you wrong again and again.
Followed
Stalked, hunted, preyed upon
Forever
Forever a meaningless walk with no destination
Empty mind, forever
What are you?
Surely a creature even as feeble as you must have some goal. Walking towards somewhere
No goal, no where
Is this real?
No need for any form of sustenance, 10 days, 30 days, 78 days, 116 days later I still follow. This earth is larger than I could have ever imagined. Walking east, 2000 days have passed still walking.
An eternal desert barren of life, geographical differences, and sand
Rocks, dirt clumped too large to be considered sand
My compass is right according to the position of the sun. East is still the direction
No where have we arrived
An emptiness so lonely I am it now, the only other thing here is it. To which I continue to follow without question
Forgotten long ago why I follow this being, so long. I remember only to follow. Never looking back
If never seen this creatures face. It has the back of a ***** man. Rags for clothes, dreadlocked brown hair down to halfway its back
It cannot be human
I must observe closely so I run to it. So does it. As if it knew I was going to run the exact time I take off. Same speed, I’m not gaining a ******* inch. Stop
Breathe
So does it
Hmm…
Continue
Back always faces me, it knows I follow
It must
It seems it is always watching something.
I see nothing in front of it
I drop my water jug, as I pick it up I realize it is empty
Barren
Dry
Hot to touch.
How long has it been since it was full?
I don’t remember filling it, or even using it
I check my pack for something
Where is it?
It has been on my back this whole time I thought
Gone
My hands are empty
The jug has disappeared
What?
I have been focused on this person for so long. Have I lost need for sustenance as it?
Why?
Where have I been walking?
How long has it really been?
I’ve seen the sun set
I’ve dreamt of catching this person, reaching a destination. We fall asleep at synchronized times, as do we awake
Or do we?
I cannot remember fully the sun setting. Or raising for that matter it stays directly above my head blistering my scalp
It’s hot; the heat is merely getting to me
Continue
Wait, I panic
Pinch
I’m not dreaming
I must shout to this person
I don’t remember the last time I spoke, if I ever could. Mouth is as dry as this desert
“H-H-HELLO!” I crackled.
Someone is screaming behind me
I haven’t looked west since I started
The same being is facing its back to me when I turn around
I turn around same image, same distance.
What?
I look at my clothes, rags, barely covering my ******
The people that surround me are covered in the exact way
When I look at one then the other their hair moves in such a way as if they have quickly turned around like I just did
I move my arms as I stare at their backs. They mimic my movements exactly. There is not a giant mirror surrounding me. I would have hit it, and it would’ve showed my face. Not that I can remember what it looks like anymore, I can’t explain a ******* thing, confused, helpless alone with myself it seems
How eternal does it last?
One following the other upon millions?
I MUST BE DREAMING.
If so I will turn south
To walk side by side with them
Continue

Positive
These charges are not
Coursing energy through a million veins
Pneumatic machine pumps stamps so clean
A villainous intention, a horrible scream

Hurling past a galaxy or so
Traveling faster than a stone rock that was thrown
Inevitably stopping at something, but before it would slow
Full speed ahead

Technology is in the making
Exponential growth, reverse engineering can’t be faking
Truth is, these robots can think
More binary and cold, approaching and reveling in stink
Causing millions of crows to blink
Set a mark it is it it seeks
Pains foreshadow a turn of the tide
Feathering willows psychopaths and serial killers viewed outside
Hanging bodies and limbs on every branch that could be reached
The paranoia of conspiracies is really the same one that was preached
Different languages and dialects but always the same speech

Foreign sounds penetrate through skin
Bursting a love built within
Instilling a lust for blood, power, and sin
Which each person it’s over with a new begins
Never ending trends, population opposites the wish for it thin
Percentages calculate the numbers we know
When shown the specifics of these diseases
Minds eventually blow
Paranoia sets it, the number continues to grow

Loosely defined
A maniac, crazy running behind
Any concept that he holds true
Opposite of reality is what is perceived to you
A tree holds true to the promises it makes
Crushing the water, obliterating the wake
Movements mash monuments making morals miniscule masterpieces
Did you read that thesis?
It’s the motion that pleases, releases
Pouring elements through a cauldron of heat
Insurmountable energy grips at your feet
A smile on that faces is an admit to defeat
Wirelessly connecting the souls to a sheet

Music, I can see it played
Notes, phrases time signatures being made
Floating, flying into my eye
Tasting the melodies, turning my head to sigh
So much emotion it makes me cry
Why

The only thing that ever made sense
A truth spoken clearly from innocence
The weight of the words break the fence
Nothing can be so real, or so immense
Crushing a planet with a power so dense

Finally some resolution in my mind
The voices and spirits are no where I can find
Blind at once and all now can see
Blood dripping from my nose this is too much for me

The will of the many overpower not a thing
Suppress those emotions and morals, let freedom sting

Ready to pummel that head in the way
Altering and destroying every decision that is made
The ultimate backfire that won’t let up
This brain is failing me and I’m more than fed up
Loss of major motor skills
Walking like the dead
Lights are flickering, in and out from the faulty wirings in my head
Hearing loud noises and smelling sweet scents
But on grass of a lawn, body is forward bent
Face first in a pile of dog ****
Such a strong feeling of confusion and can’t get rid of it
I get up and start to walk
In my mind I am sitting and smoking
Blind to the reality of my body choking
Hoping for a simple escape
These drugs never wear off when I’m in this state

Free, these chains of steel
Repelled any real emotion I can ever feel
There out to get me I know it’s real
In the world where you know my body is limp
Grasping for air but brain once again fails it
Merely seven more minutes of brain activity left, I am still trapped
Memories of things that never happened
Feelings of regret and relief are more than gapping
I take a slice of that deathday cake
Never ever knowing that I’m not even awake
Fake

The end result is a losing battle for both sides
The fear encompassing has no place to hide
Bequeathing a new type of thought
Insanity, psychotic all symptoms of brain rot
Was I taught because all knowledge is gone
Using my pen to write a memoir of things I never did
Plenty of things seem to relate
In a way never before, such a feeling with power so great
This thing is now a part of me
Speaking truth in a voice of blasphemy
In each ear I can hear it so clear
Scary, pervasive, sometimes brings me fear
X, y and z you see
Just letters of dimensions that contain versions beautiful to see
Another you another me
We have spoken
They are truth
They are it
Inside my mind speaking of theories that here can’t be defined
His name is mine and we finally agree
Gained intelligence 6 and 7 8d
Cornering a thought that was chased for too long
A relief or reason why I’ve become so strong


Emotionally blank awoken by my own stank my arms are pinned so tightly to my chest
Padded room hair is sprawled in my face, ***** and feces everywhere
A man approaches plugging his nose
Force feeds me pills and speaks non sense
Then another with a hose
Cold, wet and feeling so ashamed
I wish to speak to the man from another that carries my name

Face to face I see me now
I can only hate but don’t wonder how
The destroyer of lives, has killed before
What’s stopping him now?
A method I can’t ignore
What happened before?
I’ll never tell
It lies in my brain
And I’ll see it in hell
Read my writing
Maybe you’ll know it well
Sacrificing for what
I've tried to console my self
But have anything but
A séance of reason
Is ultimate desire
It fuels my rage
But extinguishes the fire
Ingrained