I am alone in how I feel
My knees buckle and my blood runs cold
My heart drops to my feet
The words that I repeat in my head are the ones I wish you’d say to me
But I am alone in how I feel
The scenes that play in my mind are not real
But still I act them out as if the past can be changed
As if I can undo time
As if I can change your mind
Again I am alone in the way I feel
This love is a fabrication
A simple miscalculation
That has been synthesized
To soften the blow of rejection
When I am nothing close to perfection
I am alone
Because I am afraid to bare my soul
To tell secrets that cannot be untold
A burden that I must hold
Love has turned me to stone
In the darkness I am alone

I am fighting wars and winning battles
All for the sake to claim the heart I lost to shadows
Raising fists and raising arms to beat back the rising dark
Calling all who will defend and all who will fight to the very end
Looking to the heavens
Looking to the stars
Searching for the faith I lost along the way
Searching for the light to guide my feet
Marching with fierceness
And marching with fire
Scorching the ground with one desire
To hold what used beat
Inside my chest
My body is in a state of unrest
So build your armies
And your walls as high as the sky
I’ve come to end your reign
Over my mind and over my heart
You will not be the end of me
My king of nothing

White horses come to take me away
From the hollow song that repeats on and on
From the whispers that echo throughout the air
Spilling from mouths without a care
White horses come to take me away
From the many lies that I told myself to survive
From the hollow words that were promised to me
Crumble to pieces as they lose meaning
White horses come to take me away
From the sun that used to shine so bright for me
Now all that is left is a dreary light that fades to grey and hurts my eyes
White horses come to take me away
From the ones I loved the most
They hurt me more than they will ever know
And to them I am like a ghost
Cold and invisible
Although white horses come to take me away
The pain will still remain
In my heart and in mind for all time

I can't let you leave alive anyways
Cause in the back of my mind
I know you'll always be there
Hiding somewhere deep in my thoughts
Twisting, bending them until I break
And submit to you and your will
You are the dark
and I am what's left of the light
Trying to fight
but losing the battle
Trying to hide
but lost in your shadow
Trying to run
but continue to stumble
Everything is taking its toll on me
Everything is just what it seems
Your face, your eyes
Your deceiving little smile, your lies
My life was never what I thought it would be
But your death will always be
The day I let go and love myself
And the day I climb out of this hell

Broken heart
Broken mind
Falling stars tear the sky
Ask me anything
I bet I'll lie
To hide what I know to be true
From me and all of you
I hate me
Bury me, Bury me, Bury me
I can't breathe
with all this dirt surrounding me
I don't know what to say
Life is hard
my life anyway
Take me, break me
do with me as you will
I don't care
I don't care
I don't care
Life is unfair
How can you leave me here to die?
How come I can't reach the sky?
If you won't lift me
I'll just lie here bleeding

Old life dies as new life begins to breathe
Rising from the ashes of my former self
Becoming much more
than I ever expected to be
Transcending
Reaching the heavens
Screaming out all the pain
Living, never regretting past mistakes
Receiving
Believing in what the white light sends
Standing, fighting until the very end
Hoping when everything is all said and done
I will soar disappearing into the atmosphere
To never return again
Like the phoenix
I will never die again

I don't know why I always relapse
I just want to touch the sky
and never come back
I hate me
and every breath I breathe
Can't shake sudden urges to fall apart
My mind's cold
and my heart is the frostbitten snow
Rage consumes me
and thoughts of happiness fade
Into a world of my own
where dark spirits invade
They reign deep within me
I pray for death
but he won't accept my plea
Stitch back together my torn spirit
Make me whole again
But how can I ask such things of me
When I love the misery
Within me