Anger is weakness.
Temper is weakness.

I let it consume me for minutes
Reach the haven
For calmer thought.

Acceptance
Indifference
Strength returns to me.

What others do should not affect you.
They can do as they please.
Possessiveness got the better of me
But in reality
It doesn't matter

All is well.

I have to get out.
Havetohavetohaveto.

If I stay where I am
I will become a black hole
Absorbing negative energy just by being.

Havetohavetohaveto.



If only I had somewhere to go.

Betrayed
Belittled
Baking, burning between battles.
Blundering, blustering
Begging by bribing.
Bribing by begging.
Best?
Bottom.
Boastful, bragging baboon.

Bye.

It was mine.
MINE.
Mine
Like a toy belongs to a little girl
Who's always had to share.
Mine
Like a private journal
I accidentally left in the open.
Mine
Like the boy who has my heart
And doesn't know what to do with it.

It was mine.
I didn't want to share.

I am trying to get my mind off
The usual morbid thoughts.
The ones about
How everything is temporary
And how I won't remember any of these people
In ten years
And how nothing matters.
How the world doesn't care whether any of us exist
And if humanity slipped out of existence
Mother Earth would probably rejoice.
About how we are nothing more
Than placeholders in the cosmos
And our existence is unnecessary
And unimportant.

Because if I stay on that path
I will end up in an
Existentialist state of
Suspended indifference.
And that is not good for sales.

Sounds seem louder.
Skin feels drier.
People seem less important.

This is not ***.
This is the beginning
Of my final transformation
Into a zombie bat.

calm
d
o
w
n


not everything is about you
not everything is important
and those two aren't mutually inclusive

you are lovely
but your firehair
goes to the inside as well