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Jul 2013 · 1.3k
[People], Cattle?
The crowd swelled and billowed out
a thousand panicked footfalls
pushing, stamping, trampling

Some one had set off firecrackers in the foot tunnel
on the 4th of July
and they even had a friend fall backward
so it looked like a gunshot
hell, it sounded like a gun shot

The wave of [people]
fled for their lives,
as if they had ever been in danger

A man broke his leg
someone fainted
and people vomited, screamed, fought

But me?

I saw the kid who did it.

Some laughing ringleader
starting **** all night
Fight or flight response- in an adrenaline haze,
they had all chosen to flee
but me?
I almost reached out
and broke his nose
Jul 2013 · 264
The Issue
It only hurts so badly because
the only person I have ever let in
and really let in
that has loved me
and I have loved back with the same fervor

It only kills me so well
better than all the other things I have tried
is because I love him so
and he! He drinks!
and seeks to change me!
To get me to accept that!
I cannot
I know that I am mad for keeping such an ideal,
but I fight for it.
And he wants me to lose.
Jul 2013 · 798
The Fires
Look! The sky is alive!
A writhing, spitting monster
marking off the years
Hosanna! hosanna!
The gay and massive celebration
swelling in the sweltering streets
hurling fire
and music
and the smell of fresh ribs off the grill.
*Good God! Hosanna!
Jul 2013 · 341
Clean Curb
Last night was terrible
my own words cut my tongue and the ears of the man who loves me
He clung to me, trying to hold me together
but I was splintered well before he got to me
so all he could do was bleed.

But then
the sun
came
up.

That's what I wait for;
the next day.
As my Nana says,
the garbage man takes away everything that hurt you
but you just gotta wait till morning
keep pushing till the morning
So I did.
Thank you, sunlight
and to the birds outside
thank you to that man
and to my friends
The dawn crept up over my face,
and the broken windows were swept from the street
clean curbs.

I was broken glass last night.
But today, I start as just a girl.
Thank you to everyone who pulls together and saves me. Thank you so, so much.
I don't talk about this
you'll think I'm crazy
**** me, **** me, **** me, **** me
the drinking and loss of it all it clouds everyone's view
and no one, no one thinks I'm right
because I'm not
I'm ******* not, of course not I'm crazy
I want to die
**** me
I want to end this
no one thinks like I do
I wanted to find one like minded person
and there is no one
no one
because I'm crazy
and the feelings won't go away
I want to die
hand myself
poison myself
something
I don't belong here
someone
god, someone
I'm crazy
no one will accept the way I think
because I'm wrong
and I know I'm wrong
I'm wrong
you disgusting pigs
and your need for pleasure
and and
and
I'm crazy
no
stop this
**** me
someone
someone
Jul 2013 · 2.2k
Peaches
My lips part eagerly
as a welcome party for the peach
so juicy and ripe
and in its own way, eager for  my mouth.

The juice mingles sweetly over my tongue
and slides down
shocking my mouth
with the sweet growth of sensation
my mouth full of the sweet water of the flesh
so wonderful,
so sensual,
so much like love

I miss you
Jul 2013 · 300
Untitled
I speak
English
Japanese
and
Chinese

Those are in order of my skill level.

He speaks
English
Japanese
and
French

I wish I could baffle his ears with such sweet sounds as French,
the music that it writes as he speaks
I will find something
that will amaze him
but there is no real language of love
Jul 2013 · 1.0k
Rye
Rye
There's something black inside of me
rising like gall
sitting on the edge of a cliff
and I would love to be some Catcher in the Rye
but I'm not that surly
I there aren't any prostitutes round here for me to hug
Jun 2013 · 406
Fleeting
I skipped away
from a human request
a work titled "I Need Your Help",
just clicked away, like it was nothing
I tried to click back!
I tried!
But the address had expired
and my humanity with it.
Jun 2013 · 652
Brands
I have scars on my ankles and my hips
but I refuse to wear jeans in summer.
So many girls, covered in marks of their sorrow,
they cover themselves up
out of shame.

Don't.
They are beautiful.
Not that one should endeavor to make more,
and if I could, I would hold the hands of any one who ever wanted to sink something into their skin
out of loneliness, fear, misery.
If I could, I would kiss the marks and make those dark times go away.

But I cannot.

Those events,
carved out in history and your skin,
they are you,
your sorrows, your tragedies.
And they are a brand of courage, screaming
I was there,
and I made it back.  
That is important to show,
and when my children ask why I have so many little strands on my creamy white legs,
I will tell them just what happened
so they can learn from their mother
and they maybe,
just maybe,
can hold some one's hand
and help them through the times
that they were lonely,
frightened,
miserable.
Stay full of **** and vinegar, my friends. It's all we have.
Jun 2013 · 496
Lifeless
The funeral really was an abysmal proceeding
as it should have been.

Closed casket.
The car that had hit him had nearly torn off his face
and no amount of mortician magic would make it lay straight.
Only his dog had been able to recognize him when they wheeled his body out of the ambulance for ID.

His parents wept,
well, his mother did;
his father did that thing real men do,
where they try and hold it together
so it looks like they're constipated.
I felt for them.
I did.

But it occurred to me that, what, what, what,
could anyone put in this boy's eulogy?
He had been an average student, which was fine,
he had been average at sports, that was fine.
He was no more or less boisterous than other kids in class-
oh, and the whole class had shown up to his funeral, though
if you asked,
I bet half of them wouldn't have known his last name.
At least,
not before it had shown up in the papers.
He was like the rest of us,
so there wasn't much to say.

It made me sad.
The only thing he had ever made,
the only thing most of us had ever made,
was a parade of poorly worded statuses and tweets.

That was it.

That was his legacy.

The preacher said he was devoid of life.
We knew we had never lived.
This is fiction, but inspired by a torrent of similar events and every day home room musings. I don't know. Maybe he had made a paper airplane every once in a while, which is almost hopeful.
Jun 2013 · 484
The Ax and my Generation
The ax is blunt
but sharp enough to help with the job
on hot and sticky mornings like this
when my  dad has me working around the house
few things so satisfying
as sinking blades into drywall
disassembling the mistakes
the previous owners laid down

Still, the ax is blunt
and makes me swing harder
so the muscles beneath my soft arms
jiggle and pull taught
I always wanted to fix the goof ups of the past
but work?
I didn't know I would have to work
I'm sweating, sticking, coughing
more than what I bargained for

This ax is too blunt
and I retreat inside
to the comfort of the air conditioning
that the last generation installed
I want to make a change, I do
but come on!
the tools are too weak
or maybe I am
Jun 2013 · 1.8k
The Geography of Excitement
Tonight!
Oh what sweet splendors
of travel that pour themselves out and over me!
Not to exotic lands,
but to those far better
the square foot of land that lays beneath us
when I am wrapped in your arms!
My bag is not packed,
there are gifts to be made,
things to be set in order
But just 10 hours!
10 hours after two months!
And I will be yours once again

The excitement,
the rapture,
one week of playing house with you
in the hot summer breezes
of Western Ohio
flat land,
so different from my home, from what I like
but what does it matter?
In your arms, the place could be bent and folded
painted in the wondrous colors of strata
Rose, gold, deep blacks and shimmering veins
of ground water spurting forth.
Pretty shell fossils
and pink quartz
they all exist in your eyes,
in your arms,
in your kiss
Jun 2013 · 721
Planned Obsolescence
The roomba gets stuck every once and a while
I come and set it right, but,
I have to let it struggle a bit
like watching a cat stuck in a box
and only after I've had my laugh will I fix it.

It's times like that that reassure me
the man kind  
isn't obsolete.
Jun 2013 · 503
Bowie
There are little habits
that hold us together
little things that make the world
keep spinning
like washing our hands
kissing each other good morning
and,
for me,
wandering around the house in the mornings
wearing unders and a nighty
dancing like an idiot
and singing a song that played in my dreams
just the night before
other wise,
it'll be stuck in my head all day
I thought you died alone...
a long long time ago...
*oh no, not me....
Jun 2013 · 1.3k
Skinny Dipping
The lilies
they formed a curtain
as they crawled far up above the water line
white, light pink flowers
bursting off the green pads
and they, in turn,
bursting off the sparkling waters

The sun was just starting to set
glinting orange blades from
teeny tiny swells

The girl's skin was cream
nervously twitching as it sank into the water
She bit her lips
hoping not to be seen
though the curtain was too think to be penetrated
by anything other than her own kayak
It was a welcome relief
and as she waded further in, slowly, slowly,
silver fish darted away
from her wide thighs
water
at last
Jun 2013 · 619
frozen leaves
I watched them fall
motionless, downward,
arms cast up
waiting for time to start
but time won't move
a clock never ticking forward
Jun 2013 · 591
The Cliffs
Oh the days when I used to go outside!
Scrambling across the rocks of the cliffs
threatening to toss me into the creeks below!
You found things down there
things long lost
the bones of a thousand pets
that the neighbors had chucked over our cliff,
the skulls of Mr. Mittens staring back at me
the death didn't get me
but the low howling of the wind
echoing up from the highway
moaning like a thousand survivors
of something that they should have died for

I was thrown from them only once
and I was trapped for half a day
in an abandoned wine cellar
no one had been in, my dad said,
for at least a hundred years
the mill stones twice my hight
and barrels smashed
ribs of dead behemoths
I was sure I would die there
and some other little girl would find my bones
looks like someone had a monkey for a pet!
and the moaning
it screamed in my ears
until I wanted to join in the chorus

my dad saved me
at half past seven
when the sun was nearly down, his hand plunged through the broken wooden roof
I clung to this grizzled man
like a circus monkey
worst I got were some bug bites
but still I'm wary
of the moans
Jun 2013 · 853
Ethan
My baby brother's gone off
on a plane
to way, way down South
He left too early for me to realize
that I
was worried

I've flown alone before
but he;
he's so independent
and that sort of thing can lead to trouble
So now he's off and away
learning how to shoot down jets in Alabama
I hope my air force kid
doesn't get lost
Jun 2013 · 881
poison in the coffee
There was poison in the coffee
and i was too shy to tell
there was poison in the coffee
was it my fault?
i can't quite
can't quite recall
suddenly spouting lies
like a whistle
high and shrill
pointing fingers
is that what this poison does to us
first thing awake
it's just the falsehoods of porcelain dolls
and i sure hope that it was
poison
and not just who we are

i was so true last night
my lips formed perfect words
and i was harsh and charming
i meant every thing i said
since the morning i am a liar
and i do not wish to be
but look!
it spreads like a plague!
is it on the wind?
or in the water
like typhoid
carving up our innards
and turning the devil out
please,
let it be the coffee
that much we can cure
Jun 2013 · 421
Self Help
My palms are spread wide
and flat
I'm here waiting
is someone coming to save us?
Or do I have to be my own messiah?
Jun 2013 · 684
Chimney Sweep
I often wonder
what is in my chimney
I know that it's just
bugs
and smoke
that's it
but I expect to see a body
or something nicer
if I  were to push up there
maybe a postcard
or an entire time capsule!
from fifty years ago
saying
Hello!
It's nice to meet you!
With a return address.

Maybe I would find her
the old woman and me
and we would sip lemonade
and sing the songs of June
until the sun went down
and it was time for me to go home.

We would be the best of friends
she'd show me paintings,
I'd write her songs
and we'd both camp out by the rivers
and paint fish and people and space invaders
and laugh when people asked if she was my grand mother
No she'd say
We're best friends
And we would be!
And the Summer would be full!
And I would make her days so much better;
a lonely old woman no more
but my friend.

Anyway.

Any time I stick my head in there to look,
all I get
is a black soot covered face
and a little more jaded.
Jun 2013 · 698
Old Soul
You have an old soul
I can tell
your blue eyes look youthful, they still have a sparkle,
but they crack around the rims
like an old woman's,
and behind your smile
I see the skepticism
of a divorce
and your tongue laughs with us
but I know
and you know
that you're holding back sick venom

but there's something else
some of those smiles are still real
some of those laughs come from your belly
you have an old soul
but you still have hope
Jun 2013 · 1.1k
Black Coffee
If I were a drink, I would be black coffee
staining your breast pocket and whatever else I see
is fit to corrupt with my sugar free kiss
Now amount of clouded creamer
has ever passed through my lips
just the truth
and love
compassion is not a lie
and I'll wake you up in the morning
but please forgive me if I'm a little bitter
at least, I am told, I have one hell of a *zing
Sitting in a subway
(I mean the restaurant)
writing poems like...
well..
for me to really count
as a hipster *** hat
I would need to be in a coffee shop.
So I guess...

I'm writing free verse poetry
in a Subway
like a chick writing free verse poetry
in a subway
I write far too many
*******
run of the mill
every day
emo poems

But guess what?
I follow in the footsteps of Andy Warhol,
a hero of my city.
You want this crap?
Okidoke!
Jun 2013 · 581
Candy Bird
Little bird
his back turned down in his cage
the fluffy down beneath the feathers
reminding me he was once a chick
and not so long ago
(though far away in bird years).
The stillness of him seems
like it should dash away soon
and he will flip himself back up
and start fluttering
and calling in that way
that zebra finches do
saying "hey, hey, hey, hey"
As his feathers fall into place, though,
the stillness sets in
slowly
like pouring syrup on your pancakes
Death, sickly sweet
crystallizing over his beak and legs
orange and stiff
like hard candies my great gramma used to eat.
And suddenly, even the movement of death stops
and there is nothing left but death.
Frozen as a candied bird
Oh, little bird
I'll be there soon
Jun 2013 · 1.2k
Desperate?
Desperate
I ain't desperate
I am just reaching for the light
*** I haven't seen the sun in four whole years
and now it is glinting favorably
in a hole up above

Desperate,
I'm not desperate
just torn up inside
you see, the unicorns in my imagination
went on strike
and it ended in riots
the papers said so.

Fact is, there is a difference
between being desperate
and impatient
Jun 2013 · 1.3k
Three Legged Race
He just broke
right
down
Lips pushed up against the speaker
leaning up against my heart
I tried to crawl into the phone
but the holes were too small
and here we are now
feeling like we both went through a cheese grater
and no body said 'when'
when the waiter came.

It spreads, it pops,
and the blister hangs dry
stinging like a *****
so you can't quite put your foot down
Well, neither can I
so let's tie our ankles together
and we'll wander on like kid foot races
lean on me
lean on you
lean on me
lean on you
see, we'll make it forward
that shining city is just three years away
we'll be together
just remember
the first aid kit
Jun 2013 · 2.2k
A Song for Bravery
I know that you are scared
that your father will do nothing but scream and scream and scream
make you into a speck
decimate you
but, my Love,
let me bring you bravery
even from across the phone.
When the sun rises again,
it will be there
Can you see it?
The fire in your heart
I'll lend you mine and hold your hand
I will be your shield
if you provide the sword.
If you let me, let me be your courage
and stand there for it
Even from miles away
let me be your lion.
And we are not flinching.
Jun 2013 · 242
Well, You Found One
The
butter
has
stopped
flowing

                               ** But the clogs are still there.
Jun 2013 · 1.6k
The Suburbs Got Me
Bees nest chucked into a limousine
OCD's introduced to the filth and strobe lighting

I used to be a good kid.
But the suburbs got me.
Stripped away my hope, my individuality
crammed me into a high school
with 45 blacks,
20 Asians
and only about... 3,000 white run-of-the-mill
Shaler-Bubble kids
(All of whom thought, by the way, that being Catholic
was exotic) ,
and made to eat the **** of nothing to do.

It came out in nightmares
their bad behavior
that I stood for
touched and beaten by boys
I bared it
ostracized and devoured
last year I came into my stride
but do you have PTSD?
Can you look into the eyes of another man
without wondering ******* him?
Do you want to hurt the people you love
because you fear,
no, you know,
they will **** you?
A whirl wind of insanity.
What was precarious
was pushed.

No ma'am,
the suburbs got me,
and I'm a burn out by the road
fingers dripping with paint and my own blood
and smudged with ink
I'll drink in your pity
whiskey on my mind
thank you
pass another flask of it
no drug makes me feel alive quite like asprin
maybe love, I guess
don't know how I got that, ma'am
the suburbs got me
maybe I can get out.
The first calls of the katydid
It's a mystical affair
One that marks the summer
and swells through the air
Like a thousand tiny whispers
forming one booming voice
So nice to hear the summer night
Embrace the stars and rejoice.

Sticky humid evenings
where the ceiling fans hum
and the moths dance around the bare bulbs
and my eyelids start to strum
It's a wondrous cacophony
of love, of muse, of hope
One I could not describe to you
The sheer inhuman scope

I am a girl of two lives
One tortured, one free
Somewhere between rich wilderness
and a fairylit city
And you can always join me
If you're ready for the ride.
In an odyssey of summers
where night and dreams collide

The sleepy call of firelight
It crackles through the gloom
Lights our eyes rich amber
as they reflect the golden plumes

If I could spend every night
in the company of friends
A novel or a notebook
What comfort that they lend
Some days I live for Summer
And anxiety's reprieve
Where all my worldly troubles
pack up and take their leave
And dash off on the frost
scattering to leave the room
Until next September
but that won't be coming soon

If you would like to join me
You can always find me here
I want to lend you my hand
I want to lend you my ear
I'll always be there
when you need someone near
Cause I've been there
And I'm here, I'm alright
And if I can make it, you can
Just wait for the summer nights
This is something I wrote for my band :)
Jun 2013 · 1.1k
Lips
There are lips between me and the sky
whispering down to me
spread your arms!
feathers will grow!
You will be an angel and you can soar
you can fly.

But if I listen hard enough,
I can hear them whispering
heh. I told her she can fly
What a silly notion
a spider
*that thinks it can fly!
Jun 2013 · 602
Mr. H (or the romantic)
His days in the saddle long ago spent
and grand children in school or on vacation
(he could never tell which)
Old Mr. H took
to gardening.

One day, he was bent over with a rake in hand
over some big bulbs
peonies or tulips, he wasn't sure
and then
he just
stopped.

The world was not as he had known it.
It is the curse of age, he supposed.
And he was lonely,
people so far away
his wife three miles over and six feet deep.
She didn't bother him much.
After the first ten years, the pain had mellowed out
and another ten,
while not forgotten,
it was dulled.
Still,
there was not a magnet on his fridge
and no new smudges on the front welcome mat
'side from ones from his own boots.
The flowers kept him company,
but they weren't much good for talking.
And all the while
the sun would whisper things
clicking like a clock
till his own last day.

Mr. H,
he lit a cigarette
picked a flower
and walked next door
where pretty Miss Diane, widowed for fifty years
sat with some sweet lemonade and a floral mumu.

Excuse me, Miss
*I think these are for you.
Jun 2013 · 311
The Reader of my Stories
You are the only one who can see the fireworks in my imagination


and the graveyards of my discontent


You are the only one who ever has, who ever will


and I, in turn, can see your stories and your ambitions


I want to see all of you


I want to touch all of you


and be as one


that is all I want
This is from a conversation I had with boyfriend. So taken was I with longing that this trickled off of my fingers. I took pause and read it again and realized...Jesus Christ, I am corny as hell, haha.
Jun 2013 · 1.6k
RX
RX
It is so hard to swallow pills whole
they fight you at every effort
and when the day comes that you have swallowed too many,
your tongue will try and push them out
begging you
to please stop,
to live with the headache, the stomach ache, the pulled muscles and joint pain.
Refusing to be sixty at seventeen, you ignore it
and force yourself to swallow.
Anything to stay loose
and to stop the pounding in my head.
Stomach ulcers, blood clots
Doctors say I'm a hypochondriac
I know that I am
but the pills help
they do
all the asprin and ibuprophin
I think my body is half Clariton
Reverse bulimia
I make myself swallow
Jun 2013 · 324
The Girl With Hell Inside
I yelled at him last night
for no real reason
I was happy and then a shot gun champagne cork
it just happened.
He recoiled, afraid.
Had I not just been laughing?
Joking?
And suddenly Hell reared its head
for a second
just long enough to snarl
Shut up shut up SHUT UP
He took pause, and I apologized profusely
I wasn't expecting
this wasn't your fault.
He just held my shoulders through the telephone
and pulled me to him
whispering softly
I am never afraid of you

Only afraid for you.
I grew up a girl of the cliffs
where the houses would hang on for dear life
and those wild ones hang on behind the trees
glaring down from yellow lit windows
as if wondering if it's worth it to succumb to gravity and pounce upon the cars below.

I grew up with my feet in the creeks
loving how sharp rocks felt beneath
we are the kings of those mighty rivers
but every so often
they reach up and bite us
sweeping us
till only the wilds remained
and we have remained!

I grew up a girl under fairy lights
with towers rocketing up above holding my breath in long tunnels choked by sweat
and battling mountains.

We all know how our city speaks
wild and loud, a sort of twinge
voices are a different language to those who
do not already understand.

We are the wild things
crawling, running, laughing,
where really a city never should have been
Still it stands,
old as the nation,
no, older!
Waiting

look through the trees
glaring with golden eyes
with smoke stacks
with steel mills belching fire
bridges like reaching spider legs
holding music and art and Oh! These lives!
We are Kings
and we wait to pounce.
Jun 2013 · 479
Carol
My Grandmother loves cussing
she loves laughter, and artwork,
she used to be a Nun
and her Catholicism runs as thick and deep as the veins of coal beneath the city.
When the pope was named, she wept for joy
"A progressive! There is still good in the church!"
The dinner she made that night,
Kielbasa, pirogies,
my atheist parents sat by nervously.
My Grandmother cares not for your faith, though
she cares for your soul.
Jun 2013 · 444
Afraid of the Dark
Moon light
how close it is to who you are
floating gently over me,
smoothing out my mind.
I am afraid of falling asleep,
but I know you are always there
standing guard.
The moon light kisses me all over
the floating strands of your love
cast to me from so far away.

Just last night, I woke up again
and heard all the noises in my house
a childish fear, but, if I had slept,
the leather man
the skinless man
the rapists and the rest
would
would
would

The moonlight was there to hold my hand
and I could almost hear your voice
That I needn't be frightened
That you were there.
God, I can't wait till that's true again.
Jun 2013 · 693
My Last Summer
There are few sounds so grand
and that of a hot dog splitting its casing
as it heats on the grill.
Even as a vegetarian, I missed hot dogs.
And yes, I know what we don't know what's in them
and yes, I know the barbarism of eating them
But do you know something?
It is a perfect summer evening
I am leaning over the grill
and the afternoons are long and hot.
I have one glass of pink lemonade, and,  I swear,
it is sweating more than I am.
It is a perfect summer day
and this is my last summer, really;
next year it's college,
and then work and a family
and all those grown up things
and by the time I can really enjoy a summer day again
is when I am weathered and bent
and can't leap spryly at the chance.
So I will eat my hot dogs
and my coke-cola
and everything that I am already nervous of,
and I will slide down the waterfalls at Fall Run park,
and talk to my beau until four in the morning,
and throw parties with my friends around the camp fires,
and go to plays, and base ball games, and concerts.
I will do it all and more
and revel in the sound
of snapping hot dog cases.
Jun 2013 · 413
Views of Granduer
When I write, I ******* words
same with when I paint
or sing
or speak
spurting them out, splashing your overcoat and making you pause to think
ever so briefly, in the space of the breath of a moth
and then flutter by.
Spouting feeling, as I do, is good enough for many
true! it is good enough for me to make a living
and I sell these paintings
as a ******* her body
but insisting I will be a star some day.
I can achieve that, though, only if I stop spouting
and start pushing
I want my feeling
to be a pressure washer
cutting off that suit
and wounding,
and shocking,
and caressing,
and kissing.
I want you to leave different
and to remember.
So for practice, I will spout until I sleep.
Pass a tissue, please.
Jun 2013 · 714
Corbett
The teachers are striking
those were the facts.
And the parents grumbled, and the students sighed,
and the school board rolled its eyes
and laughed
Two years,
no contract.
The governor, he has given to political friends, to his campaign ads
to the prisons.
But the schools!
No, this budget-slashing man
this well intentioned
but selfish man
he makes it so my textbook in health
still calls them "VD's"
and that my friend Lauren
has to sit beneath the drip drip drip of a leaky roof bouncing off the desks
So the teachers are striking
and the board can do nothing
less money
and **** poor planning
that's all


Well,
I hear at least
prison quality has improved.
Jun 2013 · 900
Walking Shoes
My boyfriend is my lap top computer
Yes he exists
Yes I have met him
I have met him time and time again
touched his face, tasted his sweet lips, and heard him humming me to sleep
I have done all of that
and I have had him ripped away
across rivers
and mountains
and state lines
State lines carved in our hearts deep as French, German trenches
and as wide
as that song they keep playing on my Pandora
and I would walk five hundred miles...

So
My boyfriend
is my laptop.
When I cannot see his face
there are his photos
and a few youtube videos.
When I cannot hear his voice,
skype sends itself to me.
And when I long to hold his hand,
I can push up to my laptop
and feel the whirring warmth
of a hot hard drive.

Is it the same as his chin on my shoulder?
How he's shorter than I am
but he still rests there
with a little difficulty
and so much love.
Can I feel a laptop
breathing softly on the back of my neck at night?
Can a laptop
stop my nightmares?
Surf the roaring waves of behavioral disorders?
Or even really hold my hand?
No.
It is not substitute.
So I will wait.
I will wait for my love
just until I have the time to last up my shoes
*I would walk 500 miles...
Jun 2013 · 316
Untitled
Fajitas? For Breakfast?*

Well

I still feel pretty.
Jun 2013 · 391
Snakes
I found a nest of snakes
One black, one gold, one green
(the green one looked a lot like me)
And maybe the gold one looked like you,
I don't know
No
It looked like someone I used to know
I tried to stop it, but
the black snake ate me
and the gold one just watched.

I threw the gold on over the hill,
treacherous little wretch
and the black one, I just picked up
and stared at
Hello,
are you still in there?
Jun 2013 · 401
Various
There are days when I write
that my thoughts are black and sticky
tar on the windshield on a January
It drips down my pen or gunks up my keyboard
and I sob at the mess that's slowing my down
always slowing me down

There are days when I write
and my thoughts are ghosts
they just want to lay down, but the shadows make them jump
possibilities alien or needed frighten them
and their only artwork
is a plea for help

There are days when I write
and my thoughts are spiders
and I work feverishly
my paintings and poems smeared by eight long legs
angry, violent, (secretly scared)

Those are what people like.

There are days when I write
and there is absolutely nothing wrong.
what a lovely morning...
*I think I'll write a poem
Jun 2013 · 506
Can I Be All Four?
It occurs to me that the only people who want to be God
are Super villains
are Cult- Kings
are Homeless People
are...parents.
Jun 2013 · 370
Escape
there are mornings when I wake up
and the dreams the night before
are pools in front of me
distorted clowns of people begging to be mingled with
so much better than the dead insects on the shore
but I know in my dreams I am a quiet God
I do not trust myself with such power
so I force myself to stay away
with the socks draped over my hamper
and the bugs kicked off to the walls
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