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 Jan 2014 Christine
Sam Lauzon
Its so warm in this room
But why are my limbs trembling?
Tears are rolling down in this bright room
The hysteric's kick in and rushing

Searing pain in my chest
And gasping for air is getting difficult
Locking myself in this bathroom while i'm getting so stressed
Family is on the other end of the thin wall remembering my thoughts are not so innocent

It wells up in my head what everyone calls danger
Then there is no more reactions, completely disconnected
My body is now like a stranger
The worrying thoughts targeting my daily life as expected

Trying to keep the world out with music
With all the maddening loss
What is with this endless panic?
Its just another big anxiety attack I have to come across
 Dec 2013 Christine
EJ Aghassi
the craziest part
is that when you really think about it

everything is different

compassion is scarce
and good will is now commodity

it hardly seems real

even then
hardly likely

the more you try
and wash it down
forced feelings
project out of your mouth

senlsessly you agree

disregard

fabricate

absorb

act

fail

regret

regress

but it's okay

life is all about sorrow
life is about  pain

life is all about being human

and how you still manage to make each day better than the last
Slipping off the luscious ivory 
Tumbling fingers melting to nature's symphony 
A dip here, a hustle there 
The strings bent in their own misery 
But a gentle uprising, still beginning 
Coursing
            Burning
                      Waiting 
The pulsing anger in the soulful sound 
Ebbing away gently to be bound 
By the shackles of self, isolated limitations 
Flowing reflectively in its melodious imitations 
A broken heart looking for solace
 But finding music instead 
Tinkles hopefully
                          Chiming
                                    Turning 
Realizing that it's too soon to be dead...
 Dec 2013 Christine
Dánï
I'm not afraid of the dark, I'm afraid of what's in it.
Your worst nightmares come true- truly horrific.

You can't escape it, no amount of light will help,
Once it's begun, it's inside of you- becomes a part of your self.

You'd think having someone beside you would suffice,
But what if they bring the dark? What if they are just someone who plays nice?

You can never be too careful,
Better safe than regretful.

Wish the time of pain and reminiscing would end without putting up a fight,
We should all know bad things mostly happen at night.

Maybe the restless days would then stop,
Maybe then there wouldn't be a time to sob.. just a thought.

Is it childish to have at my side, a night light?
Debatable.. but at least it illuminates the dark.
At least it gives the illusion it isn't melancholic hours, yet- it isn't night.
At least it aids my corrupted mind and bruised heart.
-d.***
 Dec 2013 Christine
Sam Lauzon
One
Two
Three
Four
Five
Do you still feel alive?
Did you survive?
Did you know she died?
six
seven
eight
nine
ten
You ask when?
was this how it was for women and men
is this going to go on after time and time again
eleven
twelve
thirteen
fourteen
is your number up yet?
fifteen
sixteen
seventeen
eighteen
nineteen
how long has it been
tell us all that you’ve seen
twenty
isn’t it lovely
such a mystery
is your number up?
did your tears fall when you looked up
twenty one
isn’t this fun?
twenty two
we don’t want to lose you
twenty three
will you forgive me
twenty four
why are you lying on the floor
twenty five
its not a good day to die
inspired by the famous saying ' You'll never know when your number is up'
 Dec 2013 Christine
Sam Lauzon
( Her inner thoughts)  (His inner thoughts)*                                                                                                    
                                                                                                              What is it?
                                                                                                                                Things are wrong at home
                                                                                                 Tell me something!
                                                                                                                             Just do your thing go roam..
                                                                                       Do you and me not fit?
                                                                                                                       I like another girl
                                                        I'm scared that you hate that I cling..
                                                                                                             You just need to figure me out just learn
                                                           Do you not care about me?
                                                                                                      I'm trying to figure things out
          I just feel like your on your own and i'm a dull dead sea
                                                                                               Do you want me to shout?
                                                                  I need you!
                                                                                       You need me?
                    Can't you see i've been getting so blue
                                                                               I'm scared that you'll find me weak if I plea
                              Please show me some feelings...
                                                                      Please let  me show you some feelings...
 Dec 2013 Christine
Sam Lauzon
Its finally gone
My october blues
Nothing left to dwell on
We don't need one more excuse
November is now rolling out
Its going to be december cheer
What was yesterday's homework all about?
I'll be smiling ear to ear
How are you today?
I am very glad
Don't you just want to jump and scream YAY!
It's nice to have spent these lovely months with such a dashing lad
 Nov 2013 Christine
Sam Lauzon
People say they love the sunny days
I guess I like them too in some ways
But I honestly love the rain
Even if some people see it as a representation of heartbreak and pain
I see it differently
As the little drops fall on my skin so gently
Those little tears remind me of all the great memories
Like when I was five, in my garden with all the rain drenched daisies
Or when I was fifteen and I had my first kiss in the rain after school
Because when I'm in the rain I never feel like a fool
Pluviophile
(n) a lover of rain; someone who finds joy and peace of mind during rainy days
 Nov 2013 Christine
Catherben
Depression has reduced me to a stubborn vending machine, spitting out your affection as if it were a wrinkly five dollar bill

Self-loathing shields me from your compliments,  barely any leave a mark on me

Anxiety makes me question your motives,
as if you have something to gain from lying to me

Loneliness makes me crave your attention but doubt makes me reject it

It's not that you aren't giving me enough love,
it's that I'm too broken to accept it
Having a bad decade
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