I've always been told I'm worthless. That I'll never amount to anything
I always thought maybe I'd change that.And grow up to who I wanted to be.
But then you can around and confirmed it. Told me everything they already had
And in my mind I guess I gave up. And planted my seed away as it being bad.
I let you treat me like the **** I was. Broken and crumpled upon your floor
I held in the tears and the cries all night. But now it's time for no more.
I'm not the child I used to be, I'm a woman who is strong and true
No more will you beat and **** me. I am steel through and through.

You make me smile, and make me laugh
No matter my day, its worth the path
A chance to talk to you, every day
makes living my life, pretty okay
There's only one problem, it's pretty bad
You're not mine to love,not mine to have
I'm already taken and you're so far away
But I pray that you'll be mine. Someday.

I'm lost yet I'm here, screaming without sound
Blind to this world, yet I see it all around
Why can you not hear me, as I scream out your name
Yet you go about your life, like it's all the same.
Stop, look at me, please, don't look down
Please can you listen, I need to be found
Help me I'm lost, My words make no sound
I plead for your eyes, but never are they found.

Somehow I'm lost in your words and your phrases
Words that haven't lost meaning even through the ages
I love you is simple and can mean quite a lot
But it's such a used phrases it's a long shot
But with you when you say it I can't help but know
That the age or the usage doesn't quite show
The words come alive and play through your eyes
And I know when you say it there are no lies
So tell me again how you love me just so
Because I always want you to let me know.

This darkness is over bearing I'm clawing just to stay true
The air is so lacking I struggle to gasp my way through.
You promised you're faith, you'd find me somehow
Where did you go I'm reaching for you now
Yet all that I grasp are thorns in these weeds
Ripping through me as you watch me bleed
I'm falling now into this dark, the world unknown
Falling into the darkness, where the weeds are sowen .

It's a strange feeling, with the wind in your hair
The drop of your stomach as you gasp for air
Is this going to be it, the end of all days?
But you can't really think, your mind is a haze
You watch the blurs of colors as they pass
Watch your impending doom It never hurt less
You don't think of the past, or anything at all
You just take it all in, the beauty of the fall.

Hatred is what I feel
Not for you, or for him, but for me
I hate what I've done
I hate who I am. I hate who I might turn out to be.

The noise oh the noise there's something in my ears
Or maybe it's in my eyes hiding behind these tears
Your words rip through me like a blade to fresh skin
And nothing I do can stop them they just keep setting in.

The noise oh the noise, there it finally stopped
I just had to drink enough. And there's not a pop
I cannot stand now, but who needs to go when you're finally free
There's Nothing left to listen to, nothing left but sleep

This floor will be enough I suppose, not much else around
But I just can't seem to get comfortable upon this hardened ground.
I hear your footsteps still far away but close enough to fear.
My heart skips a few I need to be sober for when you're near

It's too late as you turn the **** and open up the door
To find me whithered and broken, lying on the floor
You should be calm and pick me up, carry me off to bed
But you never have been calm my dear, instead your ears turn red

The noise oh the noise it's all the  ringing in my ears
The blood and pain of course bringing back the tears
I can stop it with a scream but I won't give you that pleasure
I just hold it all in as you pound me to your leisure

I can go about my day and lie about the bruises
Fearing going home to you with your boozes
Your words are fearful enough bringing me to my knees
And your fists finish me off, completing the defeat

I'm not sure how much I can take day after day
There comes a point in life when it's all you can take
So I run now as far as I can 2,000 miles away
And leave you with no words nothing left to say

The noise oh the noise the constant ringing of this phone
Your simple texts and messages. Where the hell have you gone
I'm done, I'm out, another beep on the line
I'm sorry, I love you, but this is good bye.

Listen and walk. I  try to hold up the conversation.
1.2.3
The cracks in the sidewalk distract me. You frown. I swear I was listening.  

It's dinner the food the dishes all Laid out. It looks delicious.
1.2.3.
I have to clean them. You frown. No I'm sure you did it right last time.

The movies on date night. The popcorn in our hands
3.6.9.
No we can't sit here. You frown. It's good. Just one more back please

Numbers you used to think were cute and okay still
1.2.3.
How many months it took for you to get tired of who I am

But you ask me to leave and I can't seem to see why.
1.2.3.
Reasons I can think to stay. But I can stand to sit here and watch you cry

Years have passed and I still am stuck on you. Your laugh and your smile
1.2.3.
So many reasons to love you and it doesn't stop for a while.

crying out to you now I hear no reply
As Im listening to your silent goodbye
Your eyes are pleading for me to let go
Yet somehow my heart it still says no
How could you want me to ever leave
When all I want is your heart on your sleeve
please say something. Anything I beg.
but you just let me go with a turn of your head
I'm nothing to you and you want me to know
That whatever this was it was not but a show
So I'm turning now with these tears in my eyes
As I wait all I hear is your silent goodbye

My world came crashing down yesterday
As you took my hand and let the words fall to place
Feelings I had submerged for years because of doubt
come from your lips they're all flowing out.
But it's too late for me as you stir up these urges
I've married another and have worked up the courage
To love just one man who loves me right back
Who will never leave me, and never lay traps
A man who I promised to love for forever
And never have doubt or fall for another.
So I beg for a stop, to remain friends my dear
For my path is chosen and remains very clear.

Stop and listen to the silence all around.
The soft and steady nothing that lies without sound
The dew on the grass screaming it's hello
Silent on its words but strong in its show.
The fresh morning winds wrap around your face
Saying not a word, yet leaving you a trace
A Trace of all around you a beauty without sound.
So close you're eyes and take in the silence around.

Everything hurts under this cover of black and blue
Who would have thought this could come from you
Your anger was so wild, your punches were so strong.
But the past is the past, you say we should move on
You say you're sorry, like so many times before
And you tell me you promise there will be no more
I don't know if I can believe you, but baby do I try
I just can't imagine leaving or telling you goodbye
So I cover up this pain that's under this black and blue
Wear long sleeves and pray that on one can ever see through.

Blood runs down my arms and my legs
as i remember those terrible words that you said
"I own you now. You're mine." you crack
as you carve your initials into my back
I try not to scream, but the pain's overbearing
as I hold in my breath and listen to your swearing
as you beat me and **** me, and hold me down
I try to seek out any other sound
anything to pull me away from your breath
as it sends shivers down my neck

How joyful I am to hear of your news
Especially since the order fell through
How afraid I have been to return to my home
Knowing that is where you choose to roam
But you've taken it too far you can't go back
You've taken a life and that's a new kind of track
I waited for a year to see what they'd say
For how long you would be locked away
Forty years for the ****** on top of your charges
And freedom for all who fell to your urges
The world is safe of one more ****** and killer
As the law rings it's bell and you're off to the ringer.

Hurricane



Darkened skies bleed as they prepare
Matthew is said to be quite a scare
With so many lives destroyed elsewhere
What hope do we have for Florida but despair
The wind is picking up now the trees how they bend
With branches and fences breaking without mend
Waters break through barriers flood our streets
Sand bags have no aid there is no retreat.
The storm is raging the winds are fierce
And with the destruction come the tears
The skies are clearing now the winds die down
And with the all clear we can walk around
To witness such chaos is a sight to behold
Entire neighborhoods lost to the cold
The cold water covering life like a sea
Bringing out with it pain and misery
the skies may have cleared the rain is suspended
But the work in Florida begins as it starts mending.