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Jun 2015 · 1.2k
My sister jane
Tina ford Jun 2015
For a sister so kind with a caring mind,
I could never repay,
For a heart of gold if truth be told,
I'm lost for words to say,

Your always on call, never let me fall,
You catch me every day,
We talk we walk you hold my hand,
I'm stuck for words to say,

Your incredible, we're inseparable,
As sisters should always be,
We're of four and not one more,
So listen here to me,

I wish for you, your dreams come true,
Today and tomorrow to,
Remember this my younger sis,
I always will love you.
Jun 2015 · 237
Only you
Tina ford Jun 2015
In my dreams,
I walk with you,
I talk with you,
I laugh with you,
But only in my dreams,

In my eyes,
I can see you,
I cry for you,
I'd die for you,
Only in my eyes,  

In my heart,
I ache for you,
I shake for you,
I forsake you,
Only in my heart,

In my life,
There is only you,
Always you,
Forever you,
In my life.
Jun 2015 · 455
Autumn rain
Tina ford Jun 2015
The autumn rain is not the same,
Without you by my side,
The falling leaves and empty trees,
Are pointless now you've died,

The snowy hills brought us such thrills,
But now no footprints tread,
The frozen brook, no second look,
Since you have been dead,

The summer nights and it's delights,
Are cold and dull and grey,
The picnic laughs and photographs,
Like you, gone away,

I await the spring and hope I'll sing,
Our song of love again,
I will not stay another day,
In the autumn rain.
Jun 2015 · 1.4k
The old oak tree
Tina ford Jun 2015
I long for the shade from the old oak tree,
As the sun beats on my brow,
The breeze is gentle yet full of life,
But I don't feel this, somehow,

I remember the first time he brought me here,
On a cold November day,
He said to me, by the old oak tree,
Don't ever go away,

And so a year passed quickly,
And we married after noon,
In the meadow with the old oak tree,
And we danced under the moon,

We had a beautiful loving life,
No children did I bare,
For illness came, it was a shame,
When I lost all my hair,

But he brings me flowers everyday,
And lays down next to me,
He talks and talks, I listen,
Under the shade of the old oak tree,

The view out here is wonderful,
Fields, every colour of green,
The winter snows, by far the best,
That I have ever seen,

He stares at me with loving eyes,
That fill with drops, like rain,
And in his face of weary lines,
I see his heartbreak pain,

I wish I could hold his hand,
And bring him home with me,
But I just wait and long for shade,
Under the old oak tree,

I whisper I'll never leave you,
But he cannot hear or see,
That I am there beside him,
Under the old oak tree.
May 2015 · 1.3k
Glendalough
Tina ford May 2015
Have you ever been to Glendalough,
On the Wicklow mountains tour,
Well I suggest you go there,
If you've never been before,

It's beautiful, serene and angelic,
So peaceful with magical air,
You can sense the spirits and history,
Of all who once lived here,

I walked around the glass like lake,
I wandered in its awe,
I felt the presence of many souls,
I had been here before,

I drank the waters from my hand,
I felt it rush through my veins,
I heard the whispers from the trees,
Welcoming me home again,

The settlement and graveyard, still,
No life that carried on,
Except for all the visitors,
Who called in thousands, upon,

But in my heart and eyes so blue,
I knew, I was home again,
I felt secure and welcomed back,
But things where not the same,

No family there to hold me tight,
As they had once, in my dream,
So I left my home, my Glendalough,
And the beauty I had seen,

One day I will return, it's true,
And I will not be alone
I'll walk amongst the stones and trees,
And then, I will be home.
May 2015 · 418
Carried on the wind
Tina ford May 2015
Trapped by despair and inner demons she longed for freedom,
Her umbilical cord forged from nightmares, tightened itself once more, Wrapping itself around her ornate soul,
Ignorance and want Snapped at her heels,
She lay alone on a bed of thorns, twisted and dense under her pale flawless skin, She lay...... she lay and she wished for the wind,
He promised to carry her away,
He promised her a new life,
A free life,
A sweet, serene and elegant life,
But again he never kept his promise,
Time passed, seasons disappeared along with the forty shades of green in the meadows of the island she called home, A new day arrived and she again struggled to untie her body from the wreckage of her past, People passed by, not seeing her there, or just choosing not to see her, She felt withered and fallen,
Her tears bringing the ground beneath her alive with life,
Beautiful life, all colours and aspects of life,
She longed for the moon and his gentle light,
For he was the only light that brought her comfort,
Suddenly from the glow along the crest of the treetops,
She felt the wind, she reached out her hand,
He got stronger and colder,
He lifted her, he lifted her above the bed she had lain for so long, He lifted her so strongly that her restraints became weak and shattered like a looking glass, He lifted her so high that she could see the reflection of herself in the lough of lost souls, And the strong arms of the winds released her,
She was free, she was free, she is free,
May 2015 · 1.8k
Hey special lady
Tina ford May 2015
Hey special lady,
I want to say, your name,
Hey special lady,
Your a winner at this game,

I admire you with love and grace,
Your so strong and brave and true,
I wish that I could bottle that,
And name it after you,

It would be called Linda B,
A bottleful of hope,
I wish I could take your fighting spirit,
And make it into soap,

To share and give to all the world,
So they could rise like you,
And have the strength and attitude,
That you have so true,

You are an inspiration,
That's from my heart to you,
Your such a beautiful woman,
I'm so proud to know you.
May 2015 · 353
Josie
Tina ford May 2015
She's such an elegant lady,
Her walk defines her well,
She speaks with such intelligence,
I know her very well,

She tells great stories of her youth,
I could listen all day long,
She's interesting and very unique,
Just like a classical song,

She travels all around the world,
And learns from cultures new,
She takes all things in her stride,
I wish you knew her to,

I appreciate all her company,
It's seldom we meet that's true,
And so I write this poem for her,
Just to say, thanks for being you.
May 2015 · 330
You forgot
Tina ford May 2015
You forgot your umbrella,
And it's raining outside,
I hope you find shelter,
To keep yourself dry,

You forgot your overcoat,
And it's cold out there,
I hope you find warmth,
Somehow somewhere,

You forgot your wedding ring,
It's here on the side,
You forgot to take me,
The day you died,
May 2015 · 296
The again train.
Tina ford May 2015
Like a train,
Your running through my brain,
Driving me insane,
Fast on track,
No turning back,
I hear the click clack,
Your love is whack,
Keep the speed,
For you I greed,
Your love indeed,
No sharp turn,
For your love I burn,
Emotions churn,
Like a train,
Running through my brain,
Driving me insane,
Take me back again,
Again and again and again.
May 2015 · 374
Leaf
Tina ford May 2015
Like a leaf I float on the wind,
Not knowing where I'll go,
I never stay long enough,
To watch the seeds I sow,

Like a leaf I flutter in the air,
Not knowing if I'll land,
If you can try to catch me,
Please hold me in your hand,

Like a leaf laying on the floor,
Without the wind I'll die,
So keep the wind blowing,
So I float into the sky,

Like a leaf being born on the tree,
I grow and grow each day,
I watch, I learn I follow you,
Wherever the wind may play.
May 2015 · 582
I'm a Shark
Tina ford May 2015
I'm a shark, when in a nark,
I will bite you and fight you,
And rip you apart,

But that's just the start,

I'll snap your soul,
When I roll,
Rip your heart,
Your bleeding heart,

But that's just the start,

I'll chew you through,
And spit you out,
You can't shout,

Because it's the end.
May 2015 · 1.0k
The girl in the red coat
Tina ford May 2015
She hid behind her coat of red,
It covered all her fears,
She put the hood around her hair,
To mask and hide the tears,

She wore the coat of red so well,
No one noticed, more,
That she was sad, and all alone,
More than she was before,

Until one day, like any other,
Her coat of red so true,
Had somehow unexpectedly,
Turned a beautiful shade of blue,

Now any other day, she would,
Be upset and quite put out,
But she felt a little bit differently,
No more of her self doubt,

She took the coat, that was once red,
She shook and put it on,
She felt a glow of happiness,
All her tears had gone,

The moral of this story,
This moral that I tell,
Is no matter what the colour is,
You can wear it well,

Don't hide behind a coat of red,
Don't let it cover fears,
Don't put the hood around your hair,
Don't mask or hide your tears,

For in this world of rainbow coats,
There are people all the same,
Stop and smile, say hello,
Talk and ask their name,

They could be lonely and so sad,
So stop and make them right,
Make friends, be friends, it's easy,
Be a shining light.
May 2015 · 1.9k
She wore yellow shoes
Tina ford May 2015
She wore yellow shoes on her wedding day,
They reminded her of the sun,
She wore a blackened garter,
To remind her of what he'd done,

She wore a deep green eye pencil,
To remind her of meadows true,
Red upon her cheeks so pale,
Enlightened her eyes cold blue,

She wore a clinging silken gown,
Caressing her curvy form,
The brightest white, as white as snow,
That glistened in the dawn,

Around her neck a silver chain,
As silver as her hair,
She sat alone, elegantly,
In her old dusty armchair,

Fifty years had passed away,
Like the flight of an albatross,
Her shoulders weighted heavily,
As she carried her burdened cross,

For on that day, her wedding day,
She waited and waited more,
He never showed, and left her there,
He'd left her alone once more,

She stared into the looking glass,
As her life had passed her by,
But every May, she wore the dress,
And a tear fell from her eye,

She wore yellow shoes on her wedding day,
They reminded her of the sun,
And now the blackened garter,
Lay on the floor undone.
May 2015 · 754
Butterslammed
Tina ford May 2015
My mind is riddled,
Befiddled and smiddled,
With nonsense,
My brain is puzzled,
Besmuzzled, cafuzzled,
With silliness,
I couldn't care less,
In this lifelessness,
My head is crammed,
Butterslammed and hyperammed,
Here,
In my own little land,
Understand?
May 2015 · 711
I'm not here
Tina ford May 2015
I'm not here today,
I'm in my little wonderland,
Someone come and take my hand,
We can try to fly,
Up to the universe,
We can climb a tree,
Be a bumble bee,
Roll in the meadows,
Eat berries and cherries,
Someone come and take my hand,
The sun is high,
The breeze is fresh,
The river is cool,
Let's drink the tears from the mountains,
Let's walk in the freshness,
Pick up pebbles and skim them,
Someone take my hand,
Let's walk this land,
We can dance to the sound of the flower band,
Collect fireflies and keep them forever,
Breath in the air,
Without a care,
I want to stay forever,
But I can't,
I'm not here today,
I'm in my wonderland,
My forever land.
May 2015 · 291
A poem
Tina ford May 2015
You ripped out my heart,
You did it again,
I cannot help but love you,
Till the end of when,

You filled up my mind,
With ideas and notions,
You brought me to my knees,
With your magical potions,

The pen in my hand is ready,
To make another entry,
To this wonderful colourful world,
Without poems, it would be empty,

So keep on writing lifes true word,
For everyone to be raptured,
And place them in the book of love,
Forever kept and captured.
May 2015 · 591
The bookkeeper
Tina ford May 2015
I am he,
He who shall not be named,
He who you will call the bookkeeper,
For I am the holder of your words,

Write them,
Recite them,
Make me delight in them,
Spell them,
Yell them,
Everybody tell them,
Link them,
Ink them,
Don't really think them,
Speak them,
Seek them,
But don't ever keep them,

Because they're mine,
For all time,
I will put them in a spine,
Make them look fine,
And on your words I'll dine,

Beat them,
Greet them,
Make me eat them,
Feel them,
Squeal them,
Let me steal them,
Squark them,
Walk them,
Make me want to talk them,
Bleed them,
Seed them,
But don't ever heed them,

Because they're mine,
For all time,
I will put them in a spine,
Make them look fine,
And on your words I'll dine,
Because.......

I am he,
He who shall not be named,
He who you will call the bookkeeper,
For I am the holder of your words,
May 2015 · 245
Deep in our bones.
Tina ford May 2015
You think coz your different,
You can treat me differently,
Well I've got news for you girl,
We fell from the same tree,

So don't try your prejudice,
And racist remarks,
We are the same dogs,
With different barks,

Don't blow your trumpet,
Coz I play the drum,
We all have the same father,
We all have the same mum,

Don't think your different,
Here's news, your not,
We're the same worldwide over,
It's different lives we got,

We all got blood running,
Our hearts are the same,
Our bones rarely differ,
The difference is names,

But under our skins,
And through our vein,
And deep in our bones,
We are the same.
May 2015 · 584
The bookshelf
Tina ford May 2015
It's where I keep my memories,
Both happy ones and sad,
It's where I keep my feelings,
Both the good and bad,

There is a book so titled,
My one and only love,
It is at the top, the very top,
It's so far up above,

It's hard to try and get it,
It's out of my reach, but I try,
It's up inside the clouds so blue,
On that heaven shelf so high,

I hope one day I get it back,
And read the pages through,
Then I know I found again,
My one true love, my you.
May 2015 · 519
Tree of dreams
Tina ford May 2015
I stood and watched the beating,
My heart was all I heard,
I stood and watched the beating
I'm next is what I feared,

My brother only three years old,
Was trying not to scream,
I reached my hand to touch his face,
Was this just a dream,

His loving eyes of innocence,
Became empty and so still,
My father shouted angrily,
As I lay down next to him,

I shook his shoulder gently,
I wiped away his tears,
Please my little brother,
Let me take your fears,

Wake up, wake up, it's time to play,
We can go outside,
We can climb our tree of dreams,
Together we can hide,

My father walked away in time,
My mother followed him,
But no one helped this little one,
I cried from deep within,

I tried to lift his little form,
To carry him to bed,
As I had tried many times,
But blood poured from his head,

Wake up, wake up, it's time to play,
We can go outside,
We can climb our tree of dreams,
Together we can hide,

But he would not wake up to play,
I shook him more and more,
I kissed his rosie cheeks of red,
Then came a knock on the door,

It was some police and other men,
They ran and got my dad,
They took my brother in a yellow car,
They called my mother bad,

They chained their hands and shouted loud,
I just sat alone,
I wandered what was happening,
In this house, my home,

A lady came and took my hand,
She led me through the door,
I looked at our tree of dreams,
But it wasn't there no more,

Ten years passed in different homes,
A life that's like no other,
And all this time I was alone,
And thinking of my brother,

Today I found our tree of dreams,
And sitting way up high,
Is my brother, my sweet sweet brother,
I began to cry,

I climbed the tree and held him tight,
He was happy and had no pain,
His eyes where full of life once more,
We where together again.
May 2015 · 261
Breaking news
Tina ford May 2015
She's gone,
I can't believe she's gone,
She was my one,
And only,

Her coat is on the chair,
Her cup on the table,
Her book lays unread,
But she lays dead,

Why,
Just yesterday we laughed,
She hugged me,
I still feel her arms around me,

I can feel her here,
But I can't find her,
I know she's here,
I know,

I sit in her chair,
wrap her coat around me,
I talk to her,
And she listens,

I close my eyes,
And she touches my hand,
She is home,
My mum.
May 2015 · 330
Your young
Tina ford May 2015
Your young,
Your not broken,
The way your feeling is ok,
It's how we all felt,
Your not different!
Your not odd,
Your not a misfit,
Your just you,
And you are great,
Your young,
Your soul is waking up,
Your finding yourself,
Your preparing yourself,
To be truly beautiful,
Embrace it,
Capture the moment,
Listen to your mind,
Hear your heart,
Your young,
Your not broken,
Your just becoming you,
And you are great,
I love you.
Tina ford May 2015
If you could spend a day with me,
I wonder what we'd do,
Go to see the pyramids,
Or the barrier reef so blue,

Maybe trek the Inca trail,
Or fish the largest seas,
Sit in wild flower meadows,
Or climb sequoia trees,

Make a jungle tree house,
Roll down dunes of sand,
Or tiptoe on the mountain range,
Walking hand in hand,

Visit all the castles,
Relive their history,
Sit on top of the empire state,
Drinking English tea,

Paddle in the paddy fields,
Explore the deepest cave,
Jump in with the great white shark,
Surf  a giant wave,

Ski down mount Everest,
Skydive from a plane,
Cycle down route sixty six,
Dance in the monsoon rain,

If you could spend the day with me,
I know just what we'd do,
Sit and plan a future life,
A life for me and you.
May 2015 · 405
Hold onto my wings
Tina ford May 2015
Hold onto my wings,
I am your guardian,
I will carry you,
Through the storms of life,
Hold onto my wings,
Let me shelter you from hurt,
I can protect you,
I can envelop you with love,
And keep you warm,
Hold onto my wings,
Let the wind lead us,
Let him take us,
To where we want to be,
Where we can be safe,
We can whisper our stories,
Hold onto my wings.
May 2015 · 407
Love
Tina ford May 2015
Today I send love,
Today I feel love,
Take my love,
Give it, share it, be it,
Let us love together,
Today I send love.
May 2015 · 338
Let me be.
Tina ford May 2015
Let me be the bearer,
Of your sorrows,
Let me be the carrier,
Of your pain,
Let me be the one to cure you,
Let me be,
May 2015 · 328
My world
Tina ford May 2015
You, yes you!
You reading this,
You are my world,
All of you,
Reading this,
You are my world,
If I could take pain for you, I would,
If I could feed you, I would,
If I could heal you, I would,
If i could make man listen, I would,
But I cannot,
All I can do is,
Tell you that I am here for you,
I will be true to you,
I will do my best for you,
All of you reading this,
You are my world.
May 2015 · 1.1k
Try
Tina ford May 2015
Try
Try to be good,
Try to be kind,
Try to educate,
Feed your mind,
Try to listen,
Try to be aware,
Try to comfort,
Feed the care,
Try to hear,
Try to feel,
Try to realise,
Feed the heal,
Try to be graceful,
Try to give mirth,
For we are all one,
On planet earth.
May 2015 · 243
If you need me
Tina ford May 2015
If your in pain,
Call my name,
I can take it away,

If your feeling alone,
In your home,
I can be a friend,

If your sad and blue,
You know what to do,
I am always here,

If your anywhere
I'm always there,
Forever.
May 2015 · 1.6k
Stevie G
Tina ford May 2015
Stevie G!
What will Liverpool be,
Without you,
Your the one,
Our only son,
But what's done is done,

Stevie G!
What will football be,
Without you,
Your the best,
Above the rest,
In the north west,

Stevie G!
What will we be,
Without you,
Your our heart,
It's broken apart,
You have a new start,

Stevie G!
You will always be,
Our hero lad,
Good luck to you,
In all you do,
We love you,

Stevie G!
Remember me,
Without you,
Liverpool will cry,
Tears in our eye,
When you say goodbye,
To our Stevie G.
May 2015 · 251
Friends
Tina ford May 2015
Hello friend,
You don't know me, yet,
But I'm here,
I have always been here,
Waiting,
I'm waiting for you to notice me,
As your life is so busy,
You keep passing me by,
I keep smiling at you,
But you look through me,
You march on your busy path,
I look at you and wish,
I wish you would notice me,
I sit at the door of the bank,
I'm the one with my home in my bag,
I have nothing to give you,
I own nothing,
But if you would just stop,
If you would just say hello,
In that instance,
That very instance,
You would know,
When I say hello,
That it's me,
Your friend.
May 2015 · 283
Your voice
Tina ford May 2015
I am the voice of your soul,
I am the conscience within,
I am the very essence of you,
So hear me, I shall begin,

Remember your place on this planet,
Comfort your neighbour and friend,
Kindness is more than words alone,
So to you all my love I send,

Capture it quick and hold it,
Never let it leave,
And soon before we know it,
Our world will start to believe,

That love can conquer unhappiness,
Love can conquer all,
Remember please these words you read,
And you will never fall.
May 2015 · 303
Souls float.
Tina ford May 2015
Love one another,
Help one another,
Free one another,
We are one,
Not some,
Not nations,
No separation,
No difference,
Our souls are clouds,
They flow,
They mix,
They float through one another,
The universe is our mother,
We dwell in her womb,
Floating in her essence,
Waiting to be born.
May 2015 · 289
People of the world.
Tina ford May 2015
You are my neighbour,
You are my friend,
We are one, from a single seed,
We may never meet,
We may never walk the same path,
But I am here for you,
I will help you, If you need,
Our eyes will not see what each of us sees,
Our feet will not tread the same soil,
Our hands will never touch each others hands,
But I am here for you,
Our hearts will be our connection,
I feel your hurt,
I cry your tears,
I capture your fears,
Close your eyes,
Look for me,
I am there,
I am here,
For you,
Always.
May 2015 · 372
Can I keep him?
Tina ford May 2015
Can I keep you forever?,
Can I?,
I will nurture you,
I will nourish you,
I will love you completely,
Can I keep you?,
I will teach you about life,
I will learn you wrong and right,
I will help you grow,
I will set you on the right path,
The good path,
Can I keep you my innocent child?,
Please stay,
Don't go away, not today,
Not ever,
Let me take the pain,
God give me pain,
Spare me my baby,
Let me suffer,
Let me be the one,
Let me keep him,
Let me keep him,
Let my love fix him,
I give to you myself.
May 2015 · 526
For the people of Nepal
Tina ford May 2015
My skills I give you to help rebuild,
My hands I give you with love, they're filled,
My time is nothing but all I own,
I want to help you make it home,

My arms are strong to carry you,
My legs will walk a path that's true,
Our souls will sing if we achieve,
For in kind people we must believe,


The world is full of people like me,
Human kindness is here, it's free,
Let me be the one you follow,
I will take you from today into tomorrow,

My heart does nothing but ache for you,
These times are hard, but love shines through,
I am here, to feel and aid your plight,
And I bring, from your darkness a hopeful light.
Mar 2015 · 347
Life.
Tina ford Mar 2015
We either love it or hate it,
Live it and give it,
Take it, make it,
Bare it, share it,
Choose it, abuse it,
Some people lose it,

It's in your hands,
Make the plans,
Break the plans,
Walk the sands,
Visit lands,
Take the stands,

Swim the seas,
Save the bees,
Hug the trees,
Cover the sneeze,
Feel the breeze,
Smell the cheese,

See the ground,
Look around,
Find what's found,
Hear all sound,
Don't be bound,
We're moving round,

In the universe,
It's not a curse,
It could be worse,
But listen first,
To this verse,
Of silly words,

It's life. Live it. Feel it. Be it.
Nov 2014 · 2.4k
Nothing
Tina ford Nov 2014
What if nothing really meant nothing?

We use this word so flippantly,
In everything we do,
I've nothing in the cupboards,
But we all know that's not true,
There's nothing on the telly,
There's nothing in my purse,
I've nothing to wear right now,
This nothing is a curse,
I've nothing i can offer,
Nothing left to give,
Nothing in my life right now,
Nothing but to live,
But what a load of total crap,
We utter everyday,
We have so much to be grateful for,
In every single way,
So listen here to me right now,
It's not what we possess,
It's not what's in the cupboard,
Or the cut and style of dress,
It can't be measured by TV,
Or monetary gain,
It's what we feel and how we love,
That makes us all the same,
No matter what your day will bring,
Remember this is true,
That when you have a nothing phase,
I've got your back for you,
Because you have everything,
But nothing you can see,
And if all else seems to fail,
At least you have got me.
Nov 2014 · 464
Black Friday
Tina ford Nov 2014
Avaricious nation, I want no association,
There's starving people, your being sheeple,
What's up with you UK?
No need for the greed, it's a planted seed,
Leave the telly's, feed the belly's,
What's up with you UK?
All for a saver, it's a poverty waver,
Feed mankind, not pockets lined,
What's up with you UK?
All for the sake, a Merry Christmas to make,
Yet you play along, you've got it so wrong,
What's up with you UK?
Life's about caring, not what your wearing,
Or material stuff, I've said enough,
What's up with you UK?
You all know what's up!!!
Hear my rant,
you all live. with IGNORANCE AND WANT!!!
Nov 2014 · 463
Just flyyyy
Tina ford Nov 2014
If you wanna get by,
Get high,

Don't sigh,
Just flyyyyyyyy,

If you wanna fly high,
Say goodbye to the lie,

Don't over achieve,
Just leave,

You won't come back,
After crack!!!!
Nov 2014 · 436
Beautiful creatures
Tina ford Nov 2014
In our world of innocence and light,
We live amongst demons and sinners,
In our world of silence and comfortableness',
We have lost, and they become winners,

But we are the beautiful creatures,
The timeless souls of verse,
We can nourish and feed ourselves,
In our script we self immerse,

We can make all the bad disappear,
And write of a life surreal,
But alas our open hearts fail us,
For every word, we feel,

But we are the beautiful creatures,
We bring life where there is none,
We can word away from the demons,
And the sinners? Well there is only one.
Nov 2014 · 324
Not me!
Tina ford Nov 2014
You've seen me at my worst,
You've seen me at my best,
You've seen me dolled up to the nine's,
You've seen me in my vest,

You've seen me in the summer,
The Winter and the Fall,
But the Spring brings out the best of me,
The time when I bare all,

You've seen me laying on the floor,
So drunk that i could die,
You've seen me sick and out of sorts,
You've seem me when I'm high,

You've seen me cry my eyes out,
And be angry as could be,
You've seen me swear and curse you all,
I can't help it, it's just me.
Nov 2014 · 358
Friendly tears
Tina ford Nov 2014
I sit here, alone, alone, again,
Looking for a someone who i call friend,
But as hard as i try, I cannot find,
One single friend, in my lonely mind,

I have a dozen, maybe more,
None of them knock on my door,
Or call, or text, to ask of me,
If i'm ok..... but I'm not you see,

I don't want their pity or selfless cheer,
I just want to know that they are near,
Maybe a hug, if that's ok,
and for them to tell me it will all go away,

But again, I'm alone, alone, you see,
People think i'm fine when they look at me,
But deep in my heart there is a void,
And people around me get annoyed,

Snap out of it they shout at me,
Get yourself out, there's a world to see,
Pull yourself together, and break a smile,
And i try, I do!, for a little while,

Stop all this crying and feeling so sad,
I'm trying, I say, but I feel so bad,
Go to the doctor, make an appeal,
I don't want to face him, I can self heal,

But I know I can't, it's got me so deep,
I stare at the walls and I cannot sleep,
I want to feel "normal", again, yes I do,
Please god help me, help me feel new,

Where do I go for someone to care,
What's in my mind shouldn't be there,
My brain is reeling from guilt and unrest,
I think to myself, Is this a test?,

I really need comfort and soothing of soul,
To get back to "normal" is my only goal,
I feel such shame, and I don't know why,
As I write this is begin to cry,

Tears of loneliness, my only friend,
I can rely on them, again and again,
All's it takes is a word or two,
From you my friends, yes you, yes YOU,

A simple word, can give me hope,
A loving hug, would help me cope,
You could take away a little fear,
Just by letting me know, your here.
Nov 2014 · 568
I died inside
Tina ford Nov 2014
I'm just tryna get on,
Don't ask for much,
As much I have,
With good family and friends,
I don't do to bad,
But there's a feeling of emptiness deep inside,
I'm keepin it quiet, but inside I've died,
I don't like to share the failure I feel,
For a glimpse of hope, I would beg, borrow, steal,
Tears keep rolling from my blue blue eyes,
I'm keepin it quiet, but I've died inside,
All feelings have left me, alone, that I am,
I scavenge my soul for a glimmer that can,
Revive me, alive me, awaken my mind,
Give me the passion I need to survive,
I don't like this feeling me dying inside,
So what do I do? I ask every day,
Crawl on the floor, give in and lay,
On this bed of self pity and worthless intent,
I wasn't born for this, it's not meant,
I reach in the darkness with my very last fight,
And a miracle, it seems, a flicker of light,
A low golden twinkle and gentle appeal,
My heart beat gets stronger, my feelings.... I feel,
This is all I need, I did not realise,
My reason for living is in my childs eyes.
How selfish and cruel when my feelings re root,
The depression subsides, time for the boot,
I must start again, my eyes cry once more,
My soul has a warmth, I have felt before,
So I pick myself up again from the hollow,
And I pray that these thoughts will not dare to follow,
Because,
I have a gentle soul and at times very weak,
But I find when I write I don't have to speak,
And this is my prompt, my will to survive,
I didn't like that feeling of dying inside.
Nov 2014 · 321
The top of the world
Tina ford Nov 2014
I fell of the top of the world today,
It was a great height,
I tumbled to the ground,
With a thud,
I knew I would,
I could of held on if i tried,
But you lied, I cried, we died,
I fell of the top of the world today,
It was beautiful up there,
I never had a care,
In the world,
I had flowers,
Icicle showers,
Magic powers,
And you.....
It was all so clear,
No fear,
No dread,
As i lay in a bed,
Of clouds and shrouds of sunlight,
I was hidden,
I was sane,
Till you brought the rain,
And caused me pain,
So i will say it again,
I fell of the top of the world today.
Nov 2014 · 264
The Shame
Tina ford Nov 2014
Nothing hurts more than the pain of asking for help,
Nothing hurts more than the cry within your soul,
Nothing hurts more than the shame of asking for food,
And to feel normal,

Nothing scars more than the jeers of the satisfied,
Nothing scars more than their look of disgust,
Nothing scars more than the shame of asking for food,
In this day and age,

Nothing pains more. than me, as a parent. not providing,
Nothing pains more than me letting them down,
Nothing pains more than the shame of asking for food,
In this life I live,

Nothing kills me more than being ashamed of the now,
Nothing kills the anguish i feel everyday,
Nothing kills more than the shame of asking for food,
Today...........
Oct 2014 · 649
She's always been there.
Tina ford Oct 2014
She's exposed, I suppose, but who knows,
What's going on in her mind?
She's vulnerable, like a candle,
Sometimes I can’t handle,
She can burn you and turn you,
With the flame, is she insane?
Physically drain my brain and cause me pain,
But it’s not meant, her mind is not bent, but it’s spent,
Take the time, make the time, don't leave it too late for time,
Coz time won't wait, till it’s too late,
She's a mother, like any other,
She's loved, above all others,
But what smothers her mind,
Her memory has gone down that lane,
She won't be the same,
But she’s mine, all mine,
I will take, make and break the time,
Shake and ****** stop the time,
Till she’s fine and back on line,
I can do it, I knew it. from day one, she’s not gone,
Just take a look, a good long look,
Take the cover of the book, she’s there,
She’s there, always there, forever there.
For my mum <3
Jun 2014 · 449
It's critical
Tina ford Jun 2014
Let's talk political, why because it's critical, do ya think you fit the bill,
On the street with a beat of the multi cultural heat,
That's startin to burn up and churn up, but no one will show up and turn up,
If it's a revolution for a solution to all the pollution,
That's forced in our brain, not for material gain, it's insane, and the same,
Over and over again and again,
It's on the news, bringing blues of lies and trues,
We want fair play, a decent wage pay, don't wanna lose at the game you play,
Listen with your ear, take the words you hear, do not fear, it's clear,
We're not the bad, but we're sad, at what we could of had,
You risk it, take the biscuit, take our lives and mess them up mixing it,
We're fed up, not getting told what's up and what's said by your head, as you lay in his bed,
He's your leader, the feeder, the taker of what we need yeah,
We're cryin for a voice, a choice, someone to make a noise,
Is it me...... T, unlikely to see,
I'm not brave, but I wanna save,
Humanity from all this insanity,
I'm no joke but I choke on the smoke,
Of the cultural heat on the street,
I know....... I'm just to sweet.
Jun 2014 · 362
The oldest job in the world
Tina ford Jun 2014
She wanders round the streets at night,
Trying to make her money,
Stopping cars, leaning in,
Looking for business honey?

Some refuse and some say yeah,
She does what she knows right,
Takes the cash, says goodbye,
Then walks back to the night,

Every night for seventeen years
She's walked the street of dread,
She is getting so very tired now,
But she has to earn the bread,

Life had not been good to her,
Neither had her man,
With kids to support and feed and clothe,
She's done all that she can,

No one knows her secret life,
No one ever asked,
No one asked about future things,
And none asked about her past,

This lovely lady looks tired and old,
Her life was not unfurled,
What had happened to make her take,
The oldest job in the world.
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