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Jun 2014 · 728
I'm not that girl
Christina Adams Jun 2014
Why oh why was I so blind
In a perfect world you'd be mine
You're the perfect boy
I'm not the perfect girl
If my hair were longer
And I was smarter
And I was thinner
I still woulnt compare
I'm sorry that I pull
And I can't sit still
Eating comforts me still
I know I'm not perfect
I know I'm not wanted
I know I'm not beautiful
I know I have bald patches
Scars and wounds
Acne and fat
But hair grows back
Skin can heal
I can change all of that
But I still wont be perfect
I'll sill think that even if I change who I am
At least I'd have a shot
Why oh why am I so dumb
Think I'm going crazy
I've fallen for a boy who doesn't even see me
He knows what he wants
Hes made it clear
But I still hope
And I pray that maybe I have a shot
I'm not what you need I've made that clear
I can't take care of myself
I forget
I mess up
I day dream too much
But I opened up to you and tried to prove I can change
Look where that got me
Lying in bed
Same skin
Same hair
Same look
Everything seems to have stayed the same
Why oh why am I so blind
I couldn't see the truth
I'm not your perfect girl
This isn't a perfect world
This will never work
I guess I'm just some crazy *****
And you're a stuck up ****
I thought I had a shot with him guess not. The hope that I had for kills more than the actual heart break
Nov 2013 · 382
boom
Christina Adams Nov 2013
Boom its a gun shot
Boom my heart stops
You're an explosion in my life.
You tear through my soul
Burning my whole and shredding off my skin.
Forcing your hand into my heart  branding your mark into me to scar me.
Your words slice my brain and slither in to stay they will never leave me.
Boom its a gun shot
Boom my heart stops
This bomb, this bullet you call love is something I call war.
boom
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