For some crazy reason i can't sleep.
Every night i lay awake and think,
It’s all I can do.
Tossing and turning
While memories are burning.
Fears and darkness will haunt me.
I know once I close my blue eyes.
That is where the terror lye’s.
Dark images from the medications I took.
Knowing my body was controlled by disease.
Spending so many nights in that hospital room the colors started to blend.
Now I have finally started to mend.
Yet the scars won’t dissipate.
Trying to sleep I lay here every night hoping as I wait.
But each time sleep does greet me so do those haunting memories.
So for now I lie awake and count each breath I take.

There’s a light in my heart
But you can’t see
It’s hidden by the dark
When I’m lost in the dark
I scream and cry out to see if anyone can hear
In that moment of fear
I've found I've lost it all
My insanity taking over me
Moment by moment
Will I ever find myself
In this Black abyss this dark nothingness
I hear a distant sound
I've been found
I was here all along
You were the light in the dark
And know I know where to start
Now that you've found my heart

What is that I hear
Perfectly clear
And now I can feel the fear
Rising so high
Thinking that I might die
No not die
But possibly fly
For the sound that I hear
Should not cause me fear of death
Maybe I should be feared in return
For I am just the same as you are
But yet we fear that what is so clear
Though the very thing we should fear
Is fear itself
For fear is not as clear as death,
Life,
Love,
Or loneliness
So then why would we fret over something so uncomplicated
I may ask these questions
But the only place where the answers can be found is in you
Yes we know that the answer lies not beneath the skin,
But our very skull it lives in

When I have nothing to do
I try not to think of you
Or the way you left my heart in a million pieces
The way you walked out the door
And said I don’t love you anymore
How you left me on the floor
Crying myself to sleep for so many nights
Hopping that I might hear the phone ring
Then you’d appear and everything would become clear
But now it’s been over a year since I shed a single tear
Now when I think of you
It’s all I can do not to hate you
I do not cry anymore but my anger becomes high
Higher than the sky
Yes it has been long since I’ve moved on
And now I am thinking of you again
But not the way you left me that day
Only of how stupid I was to let you in
Now you’re gone
Just like you had been all along

A person’s view on life
Is what they take from day to day
And in what ways the knowledge they find
May be useful in their mind
Days will come and days will go
But what may happen we won’t know
I’ve seen life in many forms
In joy and happiness
In anger and sorrow
Come tomorrow it all starts again
With each new morning comes a new day
A day to find grief,
truth, or belief
To make something better of yourself
To find joy,
fear,
love,
anything
People believe that with age comes wisdom
But I believe with experience comes wisdom
Some of us older,
some of us younger
I have seen death,
I have seen life
I have seen childhood,
I have seen parenthood
I have seen my beginning,
I have seen my ending
And I have seen all you can imagine in between
Life is a gift
Don’t be afraid of it,
embrace it
Live it to the fullest
Breathe each breath as if it could be your last
Take a chance and tell that special person you love them
Because you never know
You may not be able to do it tomorrow
The sun can rise just the same as it can set

My scars will be here forever,
but I won’t let them affect me.
They are a part of my beauty,
my soul.
Sometimes I resent them.
But they remind me of the fear I have faced and overcome in the years I have lived.
At times I wonder what life would be like,
if my path had been different…
But then I know I wouldn't be who I am today.
You can love me for my face,
for my features,
but that is not love at all.
I’d rather you love me for my soul and the things I have done and will do in this life.
A heart can be cold,
but mine never is.
And I hope it never will be.

The rush of the water nearby makes everything awfully clear
I know now that I belong here
The way my feet feel on the sandy beach
Or the way my hair falls everywhere as I push myself on the swing
The gentle ring of the birds singing as they pass by
How my heart races from the speed of the boat
Or the way I simply float on the water’s surface
The silent whisper of the breeze blowing through the trees
And the mountain air making me feel home here
All throughout the year I can’t wait for my summer time to get here